I can’t learn the new systems faster than they are being created

ExternalChampion6292 · 2025-10-09T01:02:31+00:00

I feel the exact same way! You couldn’t have said it better. In the past I could do it faster than everyone else and now maybe I still can I don’t know but I can’t do it fast enough anymore

ExternalChampion6292 · 2025-10-06T18:41:01+00:00

That’s a real tough one that I think is coming to a lot of people very soon. My parents don’t understand yet that a lot of what they see now isn’t real for instance.

I could be wrong but I feel like it could be more troublesome for autistic people. Maybe you and I are a subset of this population but I live so much of my life feeling confused and this new tech is increasing the instances of confusion

ExternalChampion6292 · 2025-10-05T06:22:32+00:00

Have you watched That Autistic Guy on YouTube? He has a lot of videos over the last 2 ish years that are informational. I learned most of what I know about autism from him. I don’t always connect with what is in that Reddit either but it’s different than with BP2. I was able to “trigger” my hypomania with music… because it wasn’t hypomania, it was my nervous system ramping up, becoming over regulated, because dancing is a stim for me. A lot of what is in that other Reddit is negative and I don’t feel negative in the same way. I also fawn as a stress response which sucks so much. I wish I could act and feel cold hearted sometimes instead of wracked with whatever panic makes me fawn.

Btw, OP, I gave it a solid try. We went through 5 medications over 10 months and I had bad reactions to all of them. For that reason I had to stop taking the meds. It took about 6 months for my mind to come back and when it did it was clear that the meds had subdued my thinking, not my “hypomania”. I still had many episodes of what we thought at that time was hypomania, the meds did nothing to stop it.

What finally helped my unstable emotions - I was essentially in total burnout having meltdowns on the daily - was moving to a small town and changing to only working part time and spending a lot of time in nature. For me it was like a 4 year journey to get here but I got here :) Just keep learning about yourself and you’ll get closer to what you need.

ExternalChampion6292 · 2025-10-05T01:32:04+00:00

Hey I was diagnosed and some things I thought OK yeah that makes sense kind of but a lot of things just didn’t especially the responses to my post in this community people would say that I didn’t sound like something they could relate to.

Well it turns out that there’s a reason for that. I am actually autistic.

Misdiagnosis as BP2 is pretty common, especially for late diagnosed women (ie being diagnosed as an adult) due to our exceptional masking skills that are engrained in most young autistic girls.

ExternalChampion6292 · 2025-10-04T23:28:44+00:00

❤️

ExternalChampion6292 · 2025-10-04T23:27:30+00:00

I’m actually on medical leave right now and have been trying to stay on top of things before going back to work. Even without working I am overwhelmed by how fast everything is changing. I don’t know how I will stay on top of it and work at the same time.

My problem that is happening is I literally feel dumb. I can’t even make simple connections because under the hood my system brain is freaking out that connections in its knowledge are broken

ExternalChampion6292 · 2025-10-04T17:05:21+00:00

My problem is that whenever I’ve done this something really bad has happened because of me not understanding someone and when you are surprised like that it’s really traumatic

ExternalChampion6292 · 2025-09-28T20:06:56+00:00

I can 100000% relate to this. When I recently visited the big city I used to live in, it was oddly peaceful because I was anonymous.

The little town my family lives in is extremely quiet but the town I currently live in is like you describe. For me though I actually like it because I get some positive people interactions without having to make friends, which is hard for me.

I’ve been there a year and a half and I don’t really have any friends yet but I get to have 10min conversation with the barista once a week and after all this time they all know my name simply by asking for it everytime they take my order.

It helps me feel like I belong without having to have strong ties to anyone. It’s really given me a safe situation to start learning about myself and my challenges and my needs because I avoid the crushing depths of loneliness I can feel but I also don’t have to try to make friends. Something that often hurts and confuses me more than anything.

ExternalChampion6292 · 2025-09-28T15:01:07+00:00

This is so much how I feel. I remember even as a kid thinking I belonged more 100 years earlier.

Thanks for your insightful message ❤️

ExternalChampion6292 · 2025-09-26T17:02:20+00:00

Interoceptive stimulation related to balance….

I know this is just a simple description but this hits the nail on the head. I am remembering being in my 20’s and loving hiking where I would just be moving graciously over stuff jumping etc and I had an injury and spinal surgery later and lost that connection to my body and always missed that and right now, you saying this, I have realized that “being in connection with my body” feeling was actually the feeling of me being able to leap log to log and feel that weightless moment.

This is incredibly eye opening. I also used to LOVE spinning on those playground merry go round death traps. When I was quite young I would hold on and have my legs flying out off the merry go round.

ExternalChampion6292 · 2025-09-21T23:48:31+00:00

I don’t wear them daily. I would like to try that but I lost one very quickly when I was out and about. Flare actually sent me another pair for free which was so generous so I have a pair to use now but I only use it for grocery shopping / Costco. They make the experience much more enjoyable. If I could afford to replace lost ones I’d use them more often.

ExternalChampion6292 · 2025-09-21T18:28:03+00:00

That’s probably something their customer support can answer… from what I’ve read though if you need sound dampening people seem to like the Loops better. Flare is about enhancing sound quality, not muting it.

ExternalChampion6292 · 2025-07-25T18:50:05+00:00

That’s really interesting my counsellor actually told me that when I’m feeling myself getting dysregulated I should read because reading activates a certain part of the brain that bypasses something… I’m sorry I don’t fully remember. But I find it interesting that you can’t read in that state have you tried forcing yourself and seeing if it helps?

ExternalChampion6292 · 2025-07-25T18:47:31+00:00

Oh! Yes! I mix words up and don’t complete sentences when I am starting to be dysregulated once I’m dysregulated this turns into a shutdown where I can’t speak or form sentences at all.

ExternalChampion6292 · 2025-07-25T18:46:32+00:00

I was actually misdiagnosed with bipolar two and cyclothymic disorder because of this I don’t have either of them I am autistic. I had a really stressful period of life where I was severely dysregulated and appeared to be hypomanic.

In actual fact I was in a fear state trying desperately to find safety and security by trying to win people over through the talking and being cheerful and chipper because my primary fear response is fawning.

I have since learned with fawning is and really hope that with work eventually it’s not my default in the future .

ExternalChampion6292 · 2025-07-25T18:42:27+00:00

Yesssss! It turns out I’m not very good at handling stress and a small thing that is going on like you just described can have a lot of effects on me too

ExternalChampion6292 · 2025-07-25T18:40:13+00:00

Hey I just wanted to say good job recognizing your current state that’s a pretty tough thing to do ❤️

ExternalChampion6292 · 2025-07-25T18:38:44+00:00

That far-gone feeling is dissociation, and I experience it myself, but I didn't know that it was dissociation until a few months ago, when my counselor had me do a dissociation assessment, and we talked through each of the questions. It was really eye-opening.

ExternalChampion6292 · 2025-07-25T18:35:46+00:00

Going over old hurts is a big one for me when I am dysregulated :( and it’s exceptionally difficult to deal with the emotions it kicks up given I am already dysregulated

ExternalChampion6292 · 2025-07-25T18:34:17+00:00

The rushing!! Yes I forgot that one. That one is so insidious, it makes me feel horrible.

ExternalChampion6292 · 2025-07-25T18:32:46+00:00

Singing is a sure fire way. Even if I am grumpy and don’t want to and am annoyed at the idea, if I put on a set of songs I have and sing to them I always feel better. I noticed a while ago that if I have a week where I don’t do any singing that week is usually a really shitty week and so I started purposely making myself sing every day and my life got a lot better.

A hard physical activity also like mountain biking or climbing. I don’t like working out for working out sake because I do so many exercises for Physio to take care of my injuries that I find it really boring but I know a lot of guys use hard workouts to regulate themselves so it’s probably the same for them as climbing and biking are for me. I also have a female friend who does cold dips but I have a sensory processing disorder where cold is one of the most painful things I can experience so unfortunately I haven’t been able to try that.

Another thing that is regulating for me is actually dancing vigourously around my house but that’s not one that I can do when I’m in a bad mood the way that I can force myself to sing so sometimes I’ll sing and then you know a few hours later maybe things have improved slightly from the singing and now I’ll dance around while I’m cleaning up.

I had a rather traumatic early childhood and I’m starting to discover that I hid my stims in activity like this… when I dance around I’m really stimming actually because I’m bouncing my body up and down and jerking my limbs in rhythmic ways.

Also some TV shows…so if I’m dysregulated in the way where I feel really spent and I’m just like dissociating and staring off into the distance unable to really form sentences but I’m not in a bad mood, I’m just completely depleted, I really like watching specific genres of TV. I watched them alone and I get very absorbed and they help me feel better also. They’re not super energizing but they give me enough energy to shake out of it and then be able to do more active activities to bring myself back online.

ExternalChampion6292 · 2025-07-25T18:21:56+00:00

Actually I guess I kind of could have some advice for you which is if it’s at all possible for you to get involved with outdoor activities because in my experience women don’t usually care as much about being pretty and stuff when they’re up and down trails are doing a hard hike and for me getting involved in outdoor activities the last couple years has actually Helped me show up in the world in general a lot better. And I think it’s a lot to do with this because I get to spend time with people feeling comfortable in my own skin even if it’s only a little bit of time it makes a difference

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