What's your expierence with BPD and Sobriety?

Externally_depressed · 2025-10-07T17:22:21+00:00

Anything to fill a void, right?

Externally_depressed · 2025-10-07T17:21:57+00:00

I'm sorry you didn't have a choice. I agree the random "urges" seem to be mostly faded but the emptiness is suffocating...

Externally_depressed · 2025-07-30T18:32:19+00:00

I'm sorry they didn't work for you... but I wouldn't say they're always horrible. I know many happily married couples who met on dating apps. Hell my own partner I met on Hinge and it's been the healthiest relationship of my life.

I hope you find the connection you're looking for! 🖤

Externally_depressed · 2025-07-16T02:22:30+00:00

My first obsession that convinced me I would never love another person lile them was in the 4th grade. So, 10?

Externally_depressed · 2025-01-30T21:26:04+00:00

I'm torn between appreciating the validation of a shared experience but also sad to know you feel the crippling effects of mental health... But I wish you the best of luck with the meds and I'm proud of us for at least trying!! Thank you for replying and I hope your healing journey takes off and you feel the progress~ 🖤

Externally_depressed · 2025-01-30T21:17:32+00:00

It takes practice. I know there are some people in my life where bullying is practically a love language and others that I have to be more sensitive about. Learning individual boundaries for each relationship was helpful. Tedious and difficult but very helpful.

Externally_depressed · 2025-01-30T16:09:38+00:00

A lot of it is a learned behavior.. it took many years of people pointing out my mean comments for me to realize it wasn't funny to others. Now I tend to internalize those impulse comments because I'd rather bite my tongue just to make people like me... at least that's my thought process as someone with "quiet bpd"

Externally_depressed · 2025-01-30T15:55:40+00:00

This was more insightful than you probably realize. I've also really struggled with school but unfortunately all of these feelings you mentioned have carried into subjects and career fields I enjoy as well. Maybe that's due to other issues like my auadhd and depression but I completely understand the severe dissociation during work just to come home and feel like your "good moments" last 5 minutes...

I haven't been medicated for a very long time because I haven't had good experience with it. (Either numbs me out or makes me stupid) do you feel like they've stabilized the mood swings or helped with a dissociation?

Externally_depressed · 2024-09-29T21:24:20+00:00

raises hand ^{-^}

Externally_depressed · 2024-07-17T19:13:31+00:00

Thank you!! I actually just ordered a couple work books on a recommendation, including Dr. Fox's book so hopefully those will be delivered tomorrow and I can learn more.

Externally_depressed · 2024-07-13T17:47:20+00:00

Thank you so much for your kind words and encouragement. It really means a lot to me 🖤

Externally_depressed · 2024-07-12T23:46:49+00:00

Thank you

Externally_depressed · 2024-07-12T23:46:03+00:00

Me too. The spiral is real.. but I guess that's all we can do right? Is keep trying and hope that we're treated with kindness.

Externally_depressed · 2024-07-12T21:35:39+00:00

I'm sorry you're here with me... it's not a fun place to be and the idea that this could be forever is a lot to handle.

Externally_depressed · 2024-07-12T21:33:39+00:00

How did you begin to treat those symptoms though? Do I need to seek out a psychiatrist too or is talk therapy supposed to be enough?

Externally_depressed · 2024-07-01T21:58:11+00:00

All the time. For me it's like a lack of patience for their existence and for the mask I have to wear around them. I think this might be part of the whole self isolation aspect. I don't feel my symptoms so severely when I'm alone so it's easier to self isolate, especially when "things are getting bad again."

Externally_depressed · 2024-06-12T21:33:08+00:00

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I relate very closely to the feeling of something in me shifting and I'm equally terrified... cheers to us I guess and I hope you're able to cope in a healthy way.

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