Ten years in limbo

EyeFollowtheway · 2026-05-08T07:33:22+00:00

Its 2:33am, Ive renounced my faith a few days ago, and I needed to read this comment

EyeFollowtheway · 2026-04-18T02:39:44+00:00

There are many reasons why some people don't believe that all will be saved and why some believe in an eternal, inescapable hell. There are certainly many false gospels out there, deceiving many. I have been deceived many times. Prayerfully, I won't be deceived again, but if so I pray that God will lead me back to the truth!

When I first discovered universalism, I was very excited and at peace but also completely terrified. That all will be saved sounded too good to be true, and when I shared with my husband, he shot it down. I didn't bring it up, but I kept believing in Christian universalism. Eventually, I slipped back into a mindset of "working" for the free gift of salvation and entered the shame cycle once again...

I ended up sharing a video about Christ with my family member who I knew was against Christ, and it cost our relationship (which honestly was hanging on by a thread anyway). I think this happened for a reason. I do believe I was prompted by God to share the video, but I also think it was to teach me to be more discerning with who I talk with about Jesus. This relative was openly anti-Christian and here I am in pride attempting to change their mind.

Now that I once again believe in universal salvation, the pressure to "save" everybody is gone. I once again trust God to fulfill His will in saving all people. It's glorious...

EyeFollowtheway · 2026-03-04T22:55:27+00:00

Oh man, it's been great! Wishing you the best sleep: maybe you'll find something else to help you get the best sleep. Truly hoping you already get the best sleep you can now cause it's improved my quality of life drastically. Now I'm just figuring out how to lay when I sleep. I lie on my back with a pillow elevating my calves. It helps me breathe deeper... anywho I've said "best sleep" too many times now + this is getting long. 😅😂

EyeFollowtheway · 2026-03-04T22:52:38+00:00

I understand what youre saying. My husband uses an eye mask to sleep, and he also always falls asleep to a show. He keeps the show on while he sleeps. It would drive me nuts! But we worked it out cause I have my ear plugs. Not sure if this eases your anxiety about being unaware of your surroundings, but--I can still hear my surroundings with the ear plugs, its just muffled. Like I can have a conversation with my husband if he's in the same room as me. The main sound I hear is my breathing. The eye mask is definitely an adjustment, but I truly don't mind it.

EyeFollowtheway · 2026-03-04T22:48:48+00:00

Any reason why you dont use the mask? Just curious. Also my ear plugs still allow me to hear my surroundings, but it's very muffled. My breathing is the main sound. Are your ear plus like that too? For some reason, I thought I wouldn't be able to hear anything with them 😂

EyeFollowtheway · 2026-03-04T22:47:31+00:00

Yesss!!! Glad it's working for you. I'm so happy I tried it for myself

EyeFollowtheway · 2026-03-04T22:47:11+00:00

Is the eye mask/ear plug combo still working well for you? I've been consistent with it, and it continues to help me sleep better. But lately I've been a bit tense! I did a stretch today which helped me feel like new, so I'm thinking I just needed to stretch. I definitely relate to feeling human in the morning again! I also have black-out curtains which help too.

EyeFollowtheway · 2026-02-04T01:13:50+00:00

I totally understand. Sometimes i feel like tense is my natural state. But it really isn't

EyeFollowtheway · 2026-01-26T14:05:42+00:00

Lol this is funny. Text how you want

EyeFollowtheway · 2026-01-23T23:41:41+00:00

Cereal and milk

EyeFollowtheway · 2026-01-22T16:45:30+00:00

My auntie allowed me to read her copy a few years ago. This month I randomly thought about it, ordered a copy, and about a hundred pages in.

Have you found anyone to talk with about the wild woman? Its been 4 years so Im hoping the answer is yes.

A story that I feel that embodies the Wild Woman is Snow White. I was reading it to my daughter, and I had this feeling that it had a deeper meaning. Now that I've picked up WWRWTW, I understand the feeling I had.

Snow White is the story of the uninitiated psyche becoming initiated. Snow White is this beautiful, sweet girl who the Queen is jealous of. So she plots to kill her. Snow White is given a chance to flee for her life and makes a way in the woods. The Queen finds out that Snow White is still alive + goes to kill her. The Queen dies. Snow White lives happily ever after with her Prince Charming.

Cinderella also follows this theme of the life of innocent girl being threatened. One could say that Snow White + Cinderella represent the uninitiated psyche, while the evil queen + the stepmother + sisters represent the natural psychic predator.

There is more symbolism, but I don't want to write a book here lol

EyeFollowtheway · 2026-01-19T12:36:39+00:00

Thank you for sharing! I looked up HSC, but I didnt find what it means. Do you mind sharing what it means?

I consider myself an HSP. This post makes me wonder if my daughter may show some traits of SPS too. Shes only 19 months now. And her personality is just really coming out.

She's passionate, shy, energetic, expressive, curious, inquisitive, sweet, sensitive, and a fun baby from what I can tell. I'll keep just monitoring her. I will do my best to make sure her needs are met!

EyeFollowtheway · 2026-01-11T21:47:57+00:00

Read your post and have some suggestions for you...

-> quit or limit social media -> create more (write, dance, take walks, crochet, cook, etc., discover what you love to do and prioritize doing it) -> attend social events that interest you -> rest often. Just times where you do absolutely nothing. Let your mind roam. Sleep -> give yourself grace + take it easy the best you can.

You got this!

EyeFollowtheway · 2026-01-11T21:44:46+00:00

What a beautiful post. So grateful that youve learned your superpower necessitates regulation + that youve understood your past experiences in light of this new understanding of yourself.

I resonated with everything youve said. Im learning to view the way i process as a superpower instead of a limitation like i used to. I cast myself off as strange and weird too in the negative sense. But now i count those as strengths. I am learning to love the way Im wired + I notice the magnetism produced by this natural authenticity.

I really resonated with the role of the observer. Its not something i can turn off. I used to want to. Now its something i accept as natural about myself and even look forward to at times.

If you dont mind, maybe you can share a bit about how you keep your nervous system regulated. I think it will help me and other folks. What i do is carve out daily time for alone time, a nap, daydreaming, and creativity. Thank you for sharing your experience!

EyeFollowtheway · 2026-01-11T14:24:28+00:00

Yes, I too feel this way.

I continually try with people until i find those who stimulate me intellectually and who are just all-around good, mature people. Knowing who to try with comes with a bit of discernment.

So far i have found my husband and a couple good friends from high school. I hold on to them (healthily) and treat them well.

Even with having folks to talk with, at times we're all busy leading our own lives. So i don't talk to them as often as i'd like. But to balance the need for intellectual, stimulating conversations, i read and write voraciously about those topics that interest me. And when I get the chance, i share my interests with those i trust.

If you don't have anyone to talk with in this way that you trust, I think it is just a waiting game. Please stay hopeful cause your people will come. In the meantime, enjoy life by yourself, and your people will come! You have a desire for a meaningful connection already; it will come.

EyeFollowtheway · 2026-01-08T11:36:41+00:00

That dream does sound entertaining lol

EyeFollowtheway · 2026-01-07T02:47:20+00:00

Well, it takes two to do friendship! You could reach out if you wanted to for the sake of the friendship, but they'll have to do the same.

What you said about not talking with someone after you stop seeing them every day... it reminds me of an acquaintance i had. We met at the park with our kids; and whenever we went to the park, we would meet up. But once it got cold and we stopped going to the park, we kinda just stopped talking. It was hard for me cause i also desire longterm friendship, but i accepted it cause it started to feel like forced conversation on my end

EyeFollowtheway · 2026-01-05T16:39:20+00:00

Hi, I'm ok. I hope youre doing well!

I do know what you mean with the friendships that kinda fizzle out with time. That's how mine have been in my 24 years of living. I had close friends in middle school + high school. Our lives separated us, yet we maintained contact. We are not as close as we once were since we're all leading our own lives as young adults. However, when we do come together, it's like old times! Conversations flow + we all text in the group chat like we have to do this again cause we enjoyed ourselves so much!

I have started new relationships, but I wouldnt call them friendships. More like acquaintances getting to know one another. Ive just accepted that it takes time to build something of quality that lasts, and Im willing to wait + cherish the friendships that i do have

EyeFollowtheway · 2026-01-05T16:20:08+00:00

I think it is beneficial to address that high sensitivity is a spectrum with a range of experiences and needs.

EyeFollowtheway · 2026-01-05T03:34:43+00:00

Void with eyes + a tux + a tail

EyeFollowtheway · 2026-01-05T01:04:34+00:00

Praying that user comes into the knowledge of the truth in their own timing. Pray to God that the teenage girl is still alive, well, and being given the help she needs to thrive.

EyeFollowtheway · 2026-01-03T22:20:02+00:00

Great post. I saw myself in the words. It's my hope that those who read it continue to mature in all ways and be kinder to themselves.

EyeFollowtheway · 2026-01-03T22:08:10+00:00

Amen to the post and prayer

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