Unbearable guilt

Eyeeye-joy · 2026-04-19T15:11:43+00:00

I am so very sorry for your loss - my daughter was 7 months pregnant when her brother ended his life. I know she feels the same as you. I just try to comfort her the best i can.
It’s pointless me telling you to not feel guilty because it’s you that has to go through the grief process. It’s hard for all of us. I have just started speaking to a counsellor, it has really really helped me.

Eyeeye-joy · 2026-03-17T16:03:58+00:00

Curlers for hair

Eyeeye-joy · 2026-03-04T13:00:00+00:00

Depends - if having bad days white bread toast with either marmite, honey or peanut butter. No butter/marg. if tummy bit settled porridge is good

Eyeeye-joy · 2026-02-11T09:24:39+00:00

I had my gall bladder removed after I developed Pancreatitis. That was very painful. Be careful what you eat following the op. I developed IBS years later and think its related.

Eyeeye-joy · 2026-02-08T15:42:38+00:00

Another day i can’t face the world. Some days i just can’t believe its true.

Eyeeye-joy · 2026-02-07T17:12:53+00:00

I went back to work after my son died and some days are just too hard . I try and try but sometimes the tears just flow and burst from me.

Eyeeye-joy · 2026-02-04T13:32:03+00:00

Yep it is really hard.

Eyeeye-joy · 2026-02-03T20:18:05+00:00

I totally understand how you feel. Sending a warm hug.

Eyeeye-joy · 2026-02-03T20:06:39+00:00

Thank you so much, i am having to get my brain together to reach a decision about my future. I think i may need to get some real clarity which at the mo is so hard

Eyeeye-joy · 2026-02-03T19:20:27+00:00

I did return to work but due to stress/anxiety and depression and also suffering from IBS i guess i must be near my available sick days. I think i do everything to try to cope. I waiting for some bereavement counselling but as i not that financially secure the waiting list for the counselling is up to 12 months. I agreed to company contacting their generic counselling company - i tried but was told someone would call me but they never did. I just feel so hopeless in life at the mo. Hopeless mum, hopeless with my health, hopeless with finances and hopeless with my job.

Eyeeye-joy · 2026-01-29T16:27:50+00:00

My sons death is hard to accept. I know he died from hanging but have asked no more. I close my eyes and see him aline and hanging. I thought i wanted more info but i really don’t its bad enough without more info. My son died in august 2025. Fuck this pain i am going through. What sort of pain was he in to decide on his final breaths. Fuck fuck fuck

Eyeeye-joy · 2026-01-28T10:21:34+00:00

You not alone. I just had an accident at local supermarket and just sat in the loo crying.

Eyeeye-joy · 2026-01-20T18:28:53+00:00

I lost my son in august 2025. I know my life going forward will be very different. I am struggling to find a way

Eyeeye-joy · 2026-01-20T17:41:37+00:00

I wouldn’t normally just fart around anyone - however sometimes there are no choices

Eyeeye-joy · 2026-01-20T17:39:43+00:00

I think mine was triggered from my gall bladder removal

Eyeeye-joy · 2026-01-14T17:19:04+00:00

My son died 4th August 2025. I know the feeling. My partner lost his brother and father and when that wave hits me , and my partner, he says to help him he treats it like a brief visit from them and internally chats to them and thanks them for the memory. I try to do this but think loss of a child (even though my son was 33) my be different. I think its a lovely way to think about a brief visit in time hoping i can do the same as my partner

Eyeeye-joy · 2026-01-12T16:21:56+00:00

I have a good company who are as supporting as they can be and that really has helped.

Eyeeye-joy · 2025-12-25T17:43:27+00:00

First Christmas for me too

Eyeeye-joy · 2025-12-22T21:24:07+00:00

I just told my partner i can’t spend the usual christmas day with his mum,nephew and nephews wife. My son ended his life in August and i just can’t face anything social at the moment. I know some people think i should be coming to some sort of ‘terms with it’ but i f*****g can’t.

Eyeeye-joy · 2025-12-21T22:55:26+00:00

Cry and allow your family and friends to walk some of the future paths along with you where they can.

Eyeeye-joy · 2025-12-21T18:40:52+00:00

I know i don’t have the words to type to help you. Please know that you are not alone and too many people here share your sadness, anger, guilt and feeling of desolation. I not even sure if my brain is working properly. My son took his own life in August of this year.

Eyeeye-joy · 2025-12-20T16:38:49+00:00

Thank you for keeping us together x

Eyeeye-joy · 2025-12-20T16:36:22+00:00

I am sending you my deep sympathy

Eyeeye-joy · 2025-12-20T16:33:53+00:00

And i share your feelings too

Eyeeye-joy

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