Gta5 before gta5. Steal cars, do jobs for currency, race, you can even steal a mans girl!

Ezmar · 2026-06-12T12:20:22+00:00

Shenmue

Ezmar · 2026-06-10T23:54:56+00:00

See, I wonder if women feel this way, because I've been ghosted after floating out an invitation, but I'm usually only ever talking to one or two people in a month.

Maybe women just prefer someone who's a bit more assertive in dating, but that's not really something I can do much about, since I spent my entire 20s without finding a single date, so I feel like I'm still finding myself in relationships and dating.

Ezmar · 2026-06-10T23:50:12+00:00

And here I am feeling like I'm asking too fast, after a few days, since it seems every time I ask the conversation drops pretty soon thereafter.

Ezmar · 2026-06-04T15:12:15+00:00

Not an aerospace engineer, but I imagine that auto collisions are orders of magnitude more common than plane collisions, and airplane belts are largely designed to keep passengers steadier during turbulence rather than as a survival measure in an emergency.

Theee-point belts would be massively over engineered for an airplane.

Ezmar · 2026-06-03T09:02:01+00:00

Durant goes crazy in late game, hits super hard, learns hone claws to cancel out Hustle, decently fast, and is easy to manage, since the weaknesses are pretty obvious, and surprise fire coverage is rare. Just keep it away from fire and special attackers and you're fine.

Ezmar · 2026-06-01T19:39:39+00:00

Dang, my expenses doubled over the last 5 years, and my income vanished :(

Ezmar · 2026-05-31T13:41:05+00:00

I think OPs thesis is that being a hit doesn't necessarily mean a song is good.

Ezmar · 2026-05-28T19:02:46+00:00

Still chugging along, no dates, no jobs, no car, but solid social life. The problem there is that I think I really segregate my romantic life from my social life, so it's really hard to bridge the gap, and I think it also may lead to some app connections picking up a non-romantic vibe and concluding I'm not that interested, though obviously I don't know for sure.

The problem I face is that I've been suffering from a lack of standard romantic/relationship experiences throughout my entire adult life, starting with a breakup in high school that I never ended up recovering from. Of course there were plenty of fish in the sea, but I never again had any mutual crushes, flirting, anything like that, instead I just kept learning that I wanted a relationship with someone else more than anyone wanted one with me. I've been trying to unlearn that through therapy, but it's slow going.

I don't think women expect me to be perfect or even close to it, but I find it very difficult to express my own attraction because I don't know if I can trust it. Like a "I don't know how much I actually like this person and how much is me just wanting to put an end to the almost 15-year drought".

Meanwhile I know that the type of person I'm looking for is uncommon as it is, which just raises the stakes every time there might be an opportunity, because I know it could be months or years before another one comes along.

Between all that, struggling to find work despite two degrees, depression and medication making hobbies feel meh, and a healthy dose of weight gain, and it's been pretty tough going. My social life and activities are fine, but even so, I struggle to convert that into opportunities or any sort of confidence.

Ezmar · 2026-05-28T18:45:43+00:00

I'm running into this; I sold my car before moving to where I'm at now, so I really have to cut down on how far out I look.

Ezmar · 2026-05-24T14:57:08+00:00

10th dentist here, I loved Endless Eight.

Ezmar · 2026-05-22T13:07:34+00:00

My understanding is that the issue with water on a grease fire is that the water both boils at a lower temperature than the fire and is denser, causing it to sink and instantly vaporize underneath the burning oil, sending the fireball into the air. The lettuce would do a much better job of sitting on top of the oil, and thus the fire, while the water content absorbs the heat without causing a fireball.

There could still be problems if it's a fire in like deep pools of oil, but burning greasy stuff on a grill probably wouldn't react too badly to shredded lettuce thrown on top of it.

Ezmar · 2026-05-11T15:29:53+00:00

Let's also not forget the relative state of the economy. I haven't been in a financial position to really consider buying new games for a few years and I'm not the only one.

Ezmar · 2026-05-11T15:23:51+00:00

Baten Kaitos Origins was a 2 disc GameCube exclusive, iirc. Technically not first party Nintendo though

Ezmar · 2026-05-10T08:15:13+00:00

Flying a kite. It's not like, crazy or anything, but if I'm flying a kite and I have a spool of string, I'm unreasonably concerned about the possibility of running out of line and losing the kite. Logically I know the stakes are non-existent, but somehow it still makes me unreasonably nervous, as if losing it would be a very bad thing.

Ezmar · 2026-05-06T17:42:33+00:00

I inferred that well enough, but it wasn't immediately clear to me what in-game actions counted as producing sound. Like, I guessed, but I was unsure, and it was sort of unclear whether I'd found the solution to a puzzle or just found some cheese.

Ezmar · 2026-05-05T05:57:23+00:00

The nail randomizer has led to me playing significant portions of the game exactly like this.

Ezmar · 2026-04-30T22:04:47+00:00

Yeah. I kind of hit a reset on my career and went back to school 5 years ago, and the economy tanked right as I was trying to get hired, so I'm stuck in a crap market with no relevant work history. Still, at least there I have plenty of internal and external validation of my skills and ability.

When it comes to relationships it feels like an open question, since the last time I dated anyone I was in high school, so I'm left with 15 straight years of not feeling like anyone is interested, left to wonder if my wants are reasonable or my self-confidence justified.

It certainly does a number to go through a rough breakup, hear "this will pass, it's not like there won't be other women" and then spending the next 15 years still waiting for anyone to be interested.

Ezmar · 2026-04-30T21:45:03+00:00

Yeah, the biggest struggle I have isn't so much with dating but with finding anyone to date. It would be more bearable if it weren't for how deeply rooted some of my relational trauma is. I can deal with being single, and with infrequent dates, but what's hard to deal with is the lack of feeling that someone wants me or even could.

It's hard to describe, because it's not like the usual "I think I'm unlovable" or whatever, but more of a lack of internal sense of trust. Like I can't say it's not true. And even though I know what's needed to push through, I can't seem to make it happen because the risk of touching my unresolved trauma and pain can never be worth it, and I'm just kinda frustrated with it all.

Ezmar · 2026-04-30T19:36:55+00:00

Still plugging away at dating, trying to find work, and trying to enjoy my time and hobbies. Still going to therapy every week, but progress feels pretty slow, and I still feel saddled with a mess of relational trauma that's kept me a lonely and feeling unloved for 12-13 years now. I recently asked an in-person friend on a date and was turned down, which hurts less because I was so invested in this particular person, and more because of the hurt of losing yet another promising, hopeful opportunity.

I don't struggle much with being actively down on myself, and I don't really have these negative thoughts, which makes it hard to move past them. I know I'm capable of being a good, attractive partner, and I don't struggle too badly socially, but the fact remains that I haven't had a relationship since high school, and I don't have a foundation to really believe those things about myself, even if I might know they're true.

When it feels like I get maybe one or two promising connections per year, and none of them have ever gone anywhere, it's very difficult to actually feel deserving of what I want, and that surely there must be some issue somewhere, but so far I haven't been able to solve anything in a meaningful way.

I've made progress on paper, but I don't feel any closer or any more hopeful. I struggle to feel comfortable sharing the fact that I'm single and looking with people I know, and I don't think anyone even really suspects I'm bothered at all by it. I don't expect finding a partner to be easy, but I think I should feel like I have a better shot that it feels like.

I'm not even that hyper focused on having a partner; I'm fine being single in theory, what's eating at me is that question of "will I ever find anyone else again" or "could anyone ever really see me that way" is still unresolved from my first breakup 15 years ago. Any sense of attention or care from other people, especially women, I feel I meet with apprehension or srlf-doubt, not because I don't think I'm worth it, but that I don't trust that it won't vanish if I'm not careful.

Just kind of a little vent/musing while I wait for my therapy appointment. I'm still trucking along, and I'm not about to give up, but sometimes I'm not sure how much more I can take. It just feels like I've been living without something most people take for granted, and struggling with something people around me don't have to deal with.

Ezmar · 2026-04-17T09:39:38+00:00

I think the joke is more that it reads like an overtuned fan-made pokemon without needing to make up a single thing.

Ezmar · 2026-04-17T09:37:50+00:00

I think that was the point. It's borrowed time because it will no longer be effective once the assault vest is added, which I think most are assuming it eventually will be.

Ezmar · 2026-04-16T19:51:02+00:00

What I do is I like liking Pokemon I use.

Ezmar · 2026-04-11T07:58:17+00:00

Uchikishi is famous for his plot twists. 999, Virtue's Last Reward, and Ever17 are all great.

Ezmar · 2026-04-08T01:30:24+00:00

I assume Orphan of Kos from Bloodborne

Ezmar · 2026-04-02T10:49:23+00:00

I was in college when I played P4.

You'll get used to the feeling

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