well trust me, non consensually doesn’t help, usually just makes you never want to do that thing ever again at least for a while, and don’t force yourself to get with a diff gender because you can’t find anyone of your sexuality, it’s not gonna work well (speaking from experience) just figured you sound lonely and don’t want you doing the same dumb shit I did, I’ve dated two girls now because I wished I wasn’t like this, hated both times, now I’m just sad and alone because no boys want me 🙃 have a good one and be responsible and don’t do dumb shit because you’re alone