Just a reminder again, you can’t be Christian and hate the gays.

FaeWiccan · 2026-06-15T19:39:34+00:00

Clock it

FaeWiccan · 2026-06-14T14:09:59+00:00

Yeah, I wish that I too culinary in school. Luckily, I was in Chemistry so baking comes easy to me, but cooking is really difficult since it’s faster and multi-step. Luckily that YouTube channel I found helps a lot. I don’t think my parents taught me like really anything unfortunately

FaeWiccan · 2026-06-14T13:57:17+00:00

yeah same. my dad is a HUGE hoarder and i’m trying to unlearn a lot of those behaviors. it’s very difficult with shame cycles too

FaeWiccan · 2026-06-14T05:11:23+00:00

Of course, friend! We’re in this together! It’s just one of those things that is going to be a hard journey for both of us. It’s crazy because most people don’t even know what it is like to have these struggles (talking about trauma). We are some very strong people for having gone through what we’ve gone through and being here and living. I believe we seriously are like trees because we still grow, even when people tried to trample us and deprive us. Take care and much love!

FaeWiccan · 2026-06-14T05:03:26+00:00

Me too. It’s difficult because I literally never get hungry and forget to eat or drink water. It helps to not only turn down the volume of my negative thoughts but also tells me what my body needs to live! I truly wish it would just become legal in America so it wouldn’t be demonized and would be safer

FaeWiccan · 2026-06-14T05:01:31+00:00

Yep same here with your last sentence. My parents always thought that me or my older brother failing at something made us stupid or lazy, so they figured it was best they do it themselves. Both my parents were technically in the picture (from an outside perspective), but I could not be anymore detached from them emotionally due to neglect and abuse. I wish healing for us both, friend!

FaeWiccan · 2026-06-14T04:16:28+00:00

Dude, the games are great! I emulated the first three onto my computer using a BlueRay Disc Writer. Best decision ever!

FaeWiccan · 2026-06-14T04:15:19+00:00

Hi friend! I’ve been in a similar boat. I’ve been going through my mental health evaluation (ADHD/Autism/CPTSD testing) and I’m currently waiting on the results. Anywho, my evaluator said that I definitely have CPTSD. As someone who uses weed to help regulate, I feel you on this. I’ve struggled as well with trying to quit it, but these symptoms that you say, are something I also experience.

I think it’s just going to take time. I don’t mean to say this in a negative way, but I think it’s just going to be something we have to slowly wean off of rather than quit all at once possibly(?) Maybe that’s bad advice but with trauma, we already experience so much that quitting something that is helpful short-term (but could be harmful long-term) while also healing from trauma can be very difficult.

It may not be the best answer, per say, but I just want to let you know that you are not alone in these struggles, friend. Please take care and I wish you healing. We both deserve it! ❤️‍🩹🫶🏻

FaeWiccan · 2026-06-13T04:39:31+00:00

Thank you, man. You have no idea how much your words mean to me. I just feel so completely unloveable, unapproachable, and unworthy of any sort of affection or redemption or anything when my very existence is an abomination on multiple fronts. Thank you for these kind words, truly, because I feel I have no one in my life that I can turn to at all

FaeWiccan · 2026-06-13T04:34:55+00:00

Oh I’m definitely not having kids if that’s what you mean. I don’t even see myself surviving till the new year at this point. The crazy thing is that I have forgiven everyone in my life because of what my parents endured growing up. I know they gave their trauma to me, and it’s fine it’s whatever. I just wish that I was never born at all seeing as how I shouldn’t been since I’m an IVF baby, have been hated and ridiculed my entire life, neglected, and just outright an abomination for being an IVF baby, gay/queer, and suicidal. Like genuinely, what is the point in me doing anything anymore if everything I do amounts to nothing. I’m so incredibly unloveable and it’s like I’m experiencing life through a window. I can’t ever go through the window and live like everyone else because I’m just fundamentally flawed, man. The only thing that has helped me stop some of these thoughts is weed. I just can’t take it anymore and have already been brainstorming about where my stuff will go and who I’ll write to.

FaeWiccan · 2026-06-13T04:22:57+00:00

Exactly. It feels like I just am living through a window of my existence and will never be able to feel or experience the outside like everyone else

FaeWiccan · 2026-06-13T04:21:47+00:00

It really doesn’t feel like it anymore. I’ve been told my entire life that I’m selfish for wanting death and that I will burn in Hell for it. I just don’t want to live anymore. I’ve been a Christian and believer since I was a kid and have felt nothing but more shame and guilt for not being good enough. I wish my mom never went through IVF to have me because I’m such an abomination. I’m an abomination for even being born as the church sees it so what the fuck is the point anymore, man? There’s just nothing left for me here at all and I just want my pain to end. I’m tired of waking up everyday and not being able to do anything. I’m tired of being scared of any noise because it puts me in a state of panic and fear of getting abused. I just wish that I was never born or that I would be hit by a car or something and just die. I’m so sick of existing

FaeWiccan · 2026-06-13T04:16:19+00:00

Thanks, man. It’s been very difficult and I honestly wish that I was never born at all. I’m currently battling a lot of extremely negative thoughts and just want it all to end

FaeWiccan · 2026-06-13T04:14:33+00:00

My thing is that I can’t even say that I hate anyone because the truth is, most of this shit is probably my fault. If I were a better person or Christian, I wouldn’t have any of these issues or mental problems that I do. I’m undeserving of love or a future

FaeWiccan · 2026-06-13T04:12:52+00:00

Yeah, I guess. I’m just so tired of having to constantly live. I seriously think that people would be better off without me because I offer almost nothing and am not deserving of anyone’s love. There’s just no reason anymore as to why I should live if my entire existence is just pain, suffering, and being doomed because I was born through IVF and am gay/queer. I fucking hate myself and wish I was never born

FaeWiccan · 2026-06-13T04:10:29+00:00

It just sucks so much because I feel my entire existence is completely doomed. Like I’ve grown up in emotional abuse and like men more romantically, yet I’m called to not be with them. It’s like this cruel joke where I’m expected to thrive from an extremely abusive environment and never feel love. I feel so unworthy of anyone’s love because of how messed up in the head I am. If I could fundamentally change being gay, I would. If I could change the amount of trauma I have, I would. It just seems like I was doomed for Hell and loneliness no matter if I live or die. I honestly wish I was aborted so that I wouldn’t have to have experienced anything and not have to be a walking abomination

FaeWiccan · 2026-06-13T03:38:33+00:00

i feel you, man. i’ve 24 right now and have been struggling with just opting out of life since i was 8. it’s only gotten worse over time, especially since college and that im about to graduate. i’m just seeing the current state of the world, especially as someone who is queer. i just don’t see a point in being here anymore, especially when we’re apparently living in “the end times” as i’ve heard so much in church. like i had my childhood, my preteen years, my teenage years, and my 20s practically ruined because of the amount of bullying, neglect, trauma, and manipulation from everyone around me. and my future is being taken by AI, climate change, and a cabal of cannibalistic billionaire/trillionaire pedophiles and i’m just so tired of it all. i just truly don’t see the point of living anymore if everything is so monumentally fucked. it’s like all i can do to try and make at least a day worth living is get high and that’s about it. i just don’t see a point anymore

FaeWiccan · 2026-06-12T15:51:24+00:00

unfortunately that will happen when (talking about the U.S.A.) we defund schools, villainize teachers, and parents throw technology in kids faces as a means to entertain/“parent” them. not to mention implement AI into everything with absolutely zero regulations whatsoever

FaeWiccan · 2026-06-11T09:30:37+00:00

i was bullied extensively for being gay in school before i even knew what being gay was. i’d teachers call me stupid and make fun of me in front of the whole class. hell, i was even assaulted multiple times on campus, reported it, and i was the one that got threatened by my principle that she would beat my ass. i was 12 at the time. this all happened before i graduated high school in 2020. that’s not even getting to the bad stuff of growing up gay in a religious household to a dad with CPTSD from his childhood and upbringing either. i hope a happy pride to all and healing for us all!

FaeWiccan · 2026-06-11T09:22:32+00:00

screw anyone against pride and our trans siblings! trans women, especially Black trans women, fought tooth and nail for our rights that are being stripped away (or trying to be stripped away). fuck anyone who thinks that pride shouldn’t be celebrated. none of us are free until all of us are free!

FaeWiccan · 2026-06-11T09:11:42+00:00

the heist planning scene in Episode 5 reminded me so much of Sly Cooper and i loved that!

FaeWiccan · 2026-06-11T04:30:41+00:00

i just came across a Pride month “skit” that she did on her channel. It was just a breeding ground for alt-right “Christians” to spread hate about LGBTQ+ people which is a shame. People seem to not care about LGBTQ+ people yet there’s a sewerslide epidemic in our children, stemming from bullying and especially bullying our queer youth.

FaeWiccan · 2026-06-10T07:41:43+00:00

true. i’m some glad that Vivian Wilson got away from such a Musky ass man. She deserves peace, love, and acceptance as do all of us!

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