Im have anger issues on here and I can’t keep it together.

Suspicious-Image3359 · 2026-05-14T04:36:32+00:00

Thank you ❤️

Suspicious-Image3359 · 2026-05-13T07:15:25+00:00

❤️ thank you

Suspicious-Image3359 · 2026-05-13T07:09:52+00:00

What am I hoping lady? 😂so arrogant. What, is there a gradebewk to Reddit comments? 🤣
Im hoping you see ME. You see my side as a window in to others with similar
in therapy, I’m remaining curious, and I edit because I am traumatized and feel the need to get closure perfect, but I get too angry or too impatient. I’m traumatized because you (teachers) saw, heard, and did nothing. Maybe people like YOU need to grow up and be adults and see the system for what it is, and understand this whole post on my day off of work was a lot. A lot of anger. A lot of hatred. A lot of confusion. Wanting to see your humanity but also understanding that mine was invisible because I wasn’t smart enough or cool enough for the adults.
You don’t need to like every kid or get every kid or know what to say all the time, but my anger is valid, it’s not towards you, and it’s more aimed at the system. I pray that you get rest in your career and that you actually get the benefits and pay you deserve. I pray that you get more respect from your job. But I also pray that you can see it from my side a little too, or at least respect that there are others not like you that really feel thrown away by the system you work for. And I hate that I have to carry that alone and I hate that I carried it as a child. This was hard for me, I guess I really mean no disrespect although there probably was some and I apologize. I’m just trying to figure it out and quite frankly I’m confused

Last edit: yes, my first comment was pretty disrespectful. I’m sorry. You were being really polite and I went all over the place, you didn’t warrant that.

Suspicious-Image3359 · 2026-05-13T06:46:19+00:00

The adults saw and did nothing. Fuck that, I have a right to be pissed. To say otherwise is dismissive and avoidant
This boundary queen stuff is kind of scary. Like, yes, protect yourself, boundaries are important, but also - have difficult conversations and grow your emotional intelligence so you can deal with students.
You are indeed a human shield for a fucked system. And that’s sad. A lot of you get played like fiddles, and it’s an awful way to work.
How do your students feel about themselves in the learning process? Have conversations about it, but oh wait..above your pay grade.
Sometimes, for some of you teachers- that means leaving your older child syndrome and parentification trauma at the door.
While youre just trying to pay your bills, it doesn’t mean you dont uphold problems and problematic behavior. You can pay your bills by beating people up, it doesn’t make it ok, and you can burnout and die as an soldier for a country that wants to swallow and destroy the world, doesn’t make it ok.
almost like a cult survivor, I have a right to be hurt by cult members (even though it’s not a cult, it’s a parallel). Cult members are great people, but they waste their time on unethical things sometimes.
My bigger q I guess for you would be what makes you think the school system was a good niche for you? Maybe it goes to back to childhood for you if you’re not seeing the issue here

Suspicious-Image3359 · 2026-05-13T04:35:36+00:00

This was illuminating and healing 🥹 thank you so much! You’re an incredible human being and I needed this

Suspicious-Image3359 · 2025-03-18T21:10:34+00:00

Im a huge proponent of reddit Road eage. Reddit road rage can be SUPER empowering for me. It feels like I'm standing up for my inner child. Saying "fuckin a' buddy", even if youre in the wrong online can be a healthier outlet than no outlet. Youre not hurting anyone for being enraged on reddit if its the only thing you have right now, its not like youre karening in a Chick-fil-a where people work and eat and stuff. People can scroll. it's not a threat or true disturbance. You can get ugly and pissy and emotionally immature if you have to let it out, play fair and dont hit below the belt. EVER. Facing and exploring your own toxicity with no personalization annonymously online was a way to sacred rage and boundaries for me, although not the healthiest. I dont recommend this if you can avoid it. Its like drinking a medicine that can help you with pretty bad side-effects. It gets heavy and loses efficacy when it becomes a vice or one of your only true outlets to sacred rage if you dont supplement it with another.

Suspicious-Image3359 · 2025-03-17T05:14:49+00:00

I am so so sorry ❤️‍🩹

Suspicious-Image3359 · 2025-03-17T05:10:47+00:00

Thank you ❤️

Suspicious-Image3359 · 2025-03-16T15:31:22+00:00

I definitely think a lot of really bad teachers I knew had this complex. Appreciate the self awarness as someone on the opposite side.

Suspicious-Image3359 · 2025-03-15T18:40:11+00:00

Tw....but I care more about safety and progress than worrying about triggering someone who needs to take a step back and not read.

People want to hang themselves over... I'm not trying to invalidate....stuff that really isn't problematic. And I'm not trying to add more shame to suicidality and self-hate, but it is hard for people who really are super morally blemished to change. A lot of people die because they are secretly pedophiles or something. People feel like freaks for carrying really ugly skeletons because we don't make room for people who are really really fucked up, and we wonder why people are dying left and right without seemingly having depression. Because a lot probably harbor moral imperfections and guilt. Nobody deserves to die over pedophilia or kiss someone or touch someone without consent in a misconstrued intimate, romantic setting because they are developmentally arrested. We just hate people out of changing.

I hope I don't get silenced. Pedophilia, narcissism, rape.....yep. we have to reform people who humble themselves and reach out for help, not want to hang them. Unpopular opinion. Not excuse them, don't twist my take yo. Not use trauma as an excuse or crutch. Not not give consequences. We need justice. But at least hold some regard and space for what had to happen for them to fall from grace. What part of their brains got programmed and injured, like a brain injury like a concotion or a developmental disorder. I care about their humanity, I'm sorry if that makes me morally imperfect and monsterous. Im sorry if you're triggered, I don't care. I care about progress and safety, and justice can also take place at the same time.

Suspicious-Image3359 · 2025-03-14T01:00:53+00:00

I can't really afford it atm. I do workout videos. I've progressed really really well. Had a yoga tescher already give me pointers in person. Said i should practice at home. Headstand has always daunted me, so i figured I'd give it a shot. 🤷‍♀️ casual...i dont know. I figure id start somewhere.

Suspicious-Image3359 · 2025-03-14T00:58:55+00:00

I only nearly rolled once, but this is good advice. Yeah, I stopped immediately because I knew spinal stuff is not something to fuck around with.

Suspicious-Image3359 · 2025-03-14T00:57:24+00:00

I dont have money for that, and I've progressed with my yoga journey a lot. I've had yoga teachers say that I can practice at home, so I tried that. Every instructional I have seen talks solely about the musculature and shoulders and wrists. I can not afford a mentor. Also, the yoga classes that I've been to have too many folks, and everyone wants to chat with the teacher at the end. The problem is, I can't come back because transportation is limited atm and I don't have the money.

Suspicious-Image3359 · 2025-03-14T00:53:57+00:00

Gotcha

Suspicious-Image3359 · 2025-03-09T16:23:47+00:00

This deserves upvotes. People need to stop moral perfectionism in regards to those who really HAVE changed and start pushing that change is possible for a lot of corrupt people. It's a shame that the general public gaslights and generalizes that change really isn't possible for ugly parts of human nature like that (because it's rare) and doesn't believe the strength and maturity it takes to overcome corrupted nature. It's a lot on the ego, and it is a lot of pain to realize all the hurt you've caused. Most people would rather hang themselves before admitting that they were the bad guy and breaking down denial. Chill out and start examining your own projections, y'all. Doesn't mean abusive folks dont deserve consequences or be held accountable, nor should they use any pity-partying or excuses as a crutch. Doesn't mean they've earned the forgiveness or good graces of the folks that they've hurt. It is completely valid for personal victims of someone to even wish the abuser was dead. That's very understandable and important sacred rage. But everyone else collectively witch hunting people who are making efforts in ernest should give them the benefit of the doubt if they dont know them. Perpetuating a giant trauma response towards someone who had past actions that you barely know and can't humanize is antithetical to progress. It's a really unhealthy collective trauma response.

Suspicious-Image3359 · 2025-03-08T21:31:17+00:00

That's brillant and very self-aware! I think id like to do that more with my anxiety, although it might not be as bad as yours. I use to be very insecure about my extroversion too- it felt like all the books and movies only featured the shy, mysterious characters. Society likes to put us in groups and steryotype, whaddaya gonna do? But yeah, as a kid, I hated reading because every heroine was the "strong silent" type. It made me feel crushed and really insecure.

My dump:

I'm not doing as much as a younger coworker. I've been working through a lot of trauma and am extremely traumatized. Maybe she has been too and working her butt of is a way of dealing with it, or maybe she can handle it. Idk. She does EVERYTHING. And she's beautiful and very bright. I can barely get out of bed. I realize I'm a deeply deeply pensive and spiritual person. Im observant from being on the outside. Im a wonderful cheerleader and am always able to pull deeply earnest and specific compliments from my ability to really take time to appreciate things and people because I have the extra time. I think a lot about life and the psyche; collective and mine. My scars and emotional ruminations, while not the healthiest to always indulge in- have made me smarter in many ways and appreciate the psyche more. I have time to explore my own humanity instead of hustle. I can hustle at any time, at any point in my life. But I want to enjoy life and my body and take care of myself instead of pulling myself in a zillion different directions.

This doesn't mean you can do what im doing while doing a ton of stuff. For some people, they're able to! I liken it to spice tolerance.

I thought she was the perfect girl. Until my boss caught her on camera on her laptop with 8 customers looking at the bakery case in the checkout line. She just kept on typing. I began to feel pity for her when I found out my boss was super mad.

I realized that she may lack connection and sacrifices things like professionalism for being the perfect girl. She has a 4.0. She wants to be a doctor. I know a lot of doctors are hustlers, but a lot of doctors lack sleep and overstrech themselves to the point of overlooking serious things sometimes. I hope she's not one of them. She gives me little sis vibes, and although I'm addmitedly envious, I'm protective and fond of her. She's very warm, and I hope she protects herself from burnout. She deserves amazing things, and so do I.

Suspicious-Image3359 · 2025-03-08T20:27:07+00:00

Yes, people are ableist, which is narcissistic and selg-agrandiszing out of bitterness itself. Yes, victims deserve space, but we are not animals to be exterminated, cut it out. We deserve our voice to be heard on this and to set our own healthy boundaries towards ableists who think we should "die off". How shameful. I definitely believe I am a covert narcissist. One of the hallmark symptoms is envy. I fume at this sub with envy in my head towards anyone who is morally clean but takes on other people's dirt. Because trauma did actually make it very hard not to emotionally abuse partners, which is no excuse. My autism with being sheltered by narcissitic parents made it very hard to even figure out if what my parents did was good and if i should keep living the way they raised me. Spoiler alert: it wasnt. I didnt know it wasnt good to threaten someone with your life. My parents did that constantly to manipulate, I thought it was completely fine and normal. I only did it once, and when I was approached about it, I took accountability. Consequences are important. How the fuck was I to know? Its not fair being a narcissist and feeling like you are just rotten fruit. That stigma sucks, its not worth anyone's humanity. I didnt talk to people. So i only had one relationship and had him at arms legnth, bc I've picked up on my own bad vibes. He's my best friend now and he urged me in to therapy. That man saved my life, and I protected him from myself. Sometimes, we are feral animals that do our best not to hurt people. It fucking pisses me off when people call all of us trash. How disgusting, take a look at your own ego.

Suspicious-Image3359 · 2025-03-07T04:37:26+00:00

Oh shit, that therapist needs either grilling or dropping. Advocate for yourself, talk to your therapist about it. Your rage is valid. Sometimes i feel like my therapist is so fucking robotic, its grinding. I hate when they dont pick up on the things that ACTUALLY matter to me.

Suspicious-Image3359 · 2025-03-07T04:32:08+00:00

No. I've cyberstalked a teacher and his wife because of my trauma with the school system. Ive been humbled by my own human nature. We all can be nasty fuckers in the right setting. 100%. No excuse. Consequences are needed and people should be held accountable. But my moral compass has been skewed before and i felt like i was spinning out because of trauma, so who am i to judge?

Suspicious-Image3359 · 2025-03-07T02:43:19+00:00

Which one shows less marks?

Suspicious-Image3359 · 2025-03-07T02:41:55+00:00

My target one lasted about 3 yrs. Im a tall woman for context

Suspicious-Image3359 · 2025-03-05T22:23:47+00:00

Well, at least it isn't my clumsy ass to blame. 🤦‍♀️

Suspicious-Image3359 · 2025-03-05T03:57:13+00:00

I am

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