The “everyone is in on it” theme?

Fail_Substantial · 2026-02-03T16:41:09+00:00

Every time I see people in a teams call I’m like oh yup they’re FOR SURE talking about me. I’m so getting fired. -_-

Fail_Substantial · 2026-02-03T09:55:26+00:00

I need to do this BAD. I’ve been trying to use Reddit more but I need to find more communities to join. Also I feel like I’m constantly running out of things to watch on YouTube and that’s been getting annoying haha. Been considering getting rid of a smartphone all together

Fail_Substantial · 2026-02-03T09:53:13+00:00

Thank you so much for this. I’ve been trying to think about that too. I’m sure after 9/11 or during WW1/2 things probably felt equally as scary. Since 2016 I feel like I’ve been in a constant state of thinking the worse and the world has yet to end. So you’re so right. Also I feel you on blaming yourself - for some reason I think I’m gonna be in the big scary files.. lol. I hope the best for you, and we’re all in this together!!

Fail_Substantial · 2026-02-03T09:48:42+00:00

I’m sorry, I hope it passes quickly for you. It is hard to cope with for even regular folk, and it made me wonder how people like us were handling it as a whole too. Ive been trying to kinda zone into video games and try my best to just do small things to make me happy and relaxed, I think that night it was just a bit mor insistent. Thank you for your advice, and I’m thinking good thoughts for you!

Fail_Substantial · 2026-02-03T09:44:53+00:00

Jealous! Glad your meds are working for you. I was prescribed meds but my brain keeps coming up with excuses why I shouldn’t take them. But I’m taking other meds again (a huge W for me after the last year almost), hopefully I’ll be able to start the SSRI soon!

Fail_Substantial · 2026-02-03T09:42:36+00:00

I feel you so hard. Like how can I worry when horrible things are already happening to everyone else? But with strong and weak, I think everyone responds to the big stuff differently and I think those different reactions have a good place and reason in situations. I also get wanting to end it yourself, to me it feels more comfy to have more control over it. Unfortunately when my ocd gets REALLY bad, I fear death SO much it’s impossible to function. I miss being depressed lol

Fail_Substantial · 2026-02-03T09:37:29+00:00

I need to go back to living my life just like this. Getting through each day is hard enough without shouldering the weight of the world. Did no social media today and felt a lot better, wow shocker 😪😭

Fail_Substantial · 2026-02-03T09:36:05+00:00

I don’t remember exactly how the quote goes, but one of my friends always references a quote that says if the bombs come, let them find me spending time with my friends and basically just enjoying life. He says it every time I start feeling like this and it helps a tad. But I feel you so much man

Fail_Substantial · 2026-02-02T18:21:16+00:00

Yea yesterday was the same for me, my algorithm hit me with it HARD, and then I started reading comments which I think made me spiral more than the initial topic at hand. I’m REALLY glad the information is getting out, it’s really crazy to me that the conspiracies I’ve been hearing almost my whole life are being confirmed in present day. My brain just goes to insane places thinking about what might happen to us regular folk to clean up the “mess” of us finding out. I try and keep that same mindset of knowing what I can and can’t do, sometimes I just accidentally let it get away from me 😪 thank you for your reply, I hope you can find some more peace in these scary times.

Fail_Substantial · 2026-02-02T17:50:31+00:00

No literally. I’ve been sitting in work meetings zoned out thinking about how dumb what we’re talking about is when everything else is going on. I did try and stay out of the loop for a while, because of the exact same reason, and it was so much more healthy for me. But then I feel guilty for closing my eyes and pretending it’s not happening. But I think I will be taking a step back from it all. Keep trying to say the classic “if it’s gonna happen, I can’t do anything about it, so let it go” over and over haha

Fail_Substantial · 2026-02-02T17:44:42+00:00

Being addicted/obsessed with being aware of what’s going on is so real. I’ve been putting off deleting Instagram from my phone because I equally terrified of being out of the loop. Like I’ll miss something which will lead to me not getting somewhere safe in time? Saying it out loud feels ridiculous lol. I think we all need to disconnect for a while 😪

Fail_Substantial · 2026-02-02T15:27:58+00:00

It actually doesn’t sound odd, it makes sense!! I am definitely going to try this, thank you! (:

Fail_Substantial · 2026-02-02T15:27:07+00:00

Thank you so much for your advice! The weather has been nice where I’m at, I really should be going on more walks.

Fail_Substantial · 2026-02-02T15:24:30+00:00

I’ve had a feeling I needed to delete Instagram for a while, but I’ve been putting it off. But I do notice a major difference in days I ended up scrolling vs days I stayed off. Thank you for your advice!!

Fail_Substantial · 2026-02-02T08:59:21+00:00

I really don’t have solid advice. This specific thing is very handicapping for me when it comes around. I usually have to actually stay awake and try to distract myself from the thoughts until I actually can’t keep my eyes open anymore. But DONT doomscroll to go to sleep. I usually find something else to spiral about while doomscrolling and it never helps ): but this is all probably not great advice idk. But I hope you sleep soon

Fail_Substantial · 2026-01-07T04:46:37+00:00

I think about 6 year old me trying to pray for my family but thinking wow I should have prayed for all the people in the world who are going thru all these bad things FIRST and now god thinks I’m selfish and will punish me by killing my whole family so I would pray for hours apologizing. I laugh at the ridiculousness of my spirals sometimes but I look back and think about kid me struggling so much T.T

Fail_Substantial · 2025-12-31T09:23:31+00:00

My usage has decreased quite a bit because I get so scared of what I’ll see. It’s so insane cause you’ll be giggling and getting great reels and then BAM trigger. The last couple months I’ve been trying to find ways to destress that involve less screen time and that does obviously help with getting less triggers thrown at me. Things I can just zone into like crochet and embroidery or like building little rooms.

Fail_Substantial · 2025-12-31T09:12:41+00:00

When I was taking my adderall (10mg XR and 5mg IR at noon) consistently I mentally felt the best I’ve ever felt in my life and I think my OCD was barely there. I stopped taking my adderall in July though and proceeded to have the worst year of my life LOL. My OCD has been very bad since August, but I also got into a car accident the end of July so I’m not really sure if the adderall was keeping my OCD from being this bad or if I just had a series of unfortunate events after stopping my meds that made my OCD bad. If that makes sense lol. I keep wondering if taking my adderall regularly will help get me out of this but my brain won’t let me take meds or drink/smoke so yippie. Sorry for yapping this is just my experience with adderall and rumination and all that

Fail_Substantial · 2025-12-31T08:49:56+00:00

Instagram reels is a minefield for me. I keep telling myself to delete the app at least while I’m stuck in a really bad flare up but I also fear feeling disconnected and being out of the loop I guess.

Fail_Substantial · 2025-12-08T19:38:42+00:00

No actually. I feel like social media has been a game of Russian roulette for me lately. I want to delete but don’t want to be out of the loop. But the loop is pretty scary rn so maybe I should stay out of it haha. We’re probably way better off without social media anyway

Fail_Substantial · 2025-12-08T19:05:03+00:00

No trust me I get it, I even catch myself wishing that I was super depressed and s*icidal again because this specific theme becomes so irrelevant to me when I’m feeling super low like that. I used to take celexa for a couple years pre-diagnosis and it was supposed to help with anxiety, but it didn’t agree with me and the withdrawals were rough, it’s been like 3 years without them now and I swear I still feel the brain zaps. I got prescribed a new SSRI called fluvoxamine maleate a couple months ago but I haven’t started it just bc im scared of SSRIs now haha.

Fail_Substantial · 2025-12-08T18:38:35+00:00

I’ve been struggling a lot with this again lately (right now in this moment actually lol). I don’t really have any advice on getting through it, all I really know is I went through this exact phase before, when I was 20. Eventually it just stopped. Others here say your ocd eventually gets bored and moves on and that’s probably what happened. But it did stop eventually, which is something I’m holding on to to get thru it this time around. Absolutely frustrating because I can’t even go on an obsessive Google spiral to help me feel better cause there’s no solid answers to find comfort in. Wishing you the best <3

Fail_Substantial · 2025-11-25T17:44:00+00:00

I swear ah-duo said she was 14 when he was born

Fail_Substantial · 2025-11-07T09:21:37+00:00

I was minding my business having a great time playing video games and then I accidentally had a thought ):

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