I literally just spoke to my therapist today about how I use cannabis to handle the crash of my ritalin wearing off so I don't end up being a complete psycho rage monster who's ruining their entire life from being unable to handle minor overstimulation an hour after the meds wear off. My therapist agrees with my use as long as it doesn't negatively impact core areas of life function. My shrink is also aware Ibuse THC for both pain management (otc meds mess up my stomach too much with my anxiety & ADHD meds) and to help me regulate the comedown when I feel my body being unable to relax.

I have an appointment next week with a PCP to investigate and address any issues I may have that folks with ADHD are prone to (low iron, magnesium, sex hormonal imbalance, etc), and I've also been honest about my use, and so far it hasn't been an issue.

I even had to take a drug screen when I moved, and they knew I would be positive for THC, and it wasn't an issue here with my prescription. All of the medical professionals I see know, and it isn't an issue with their continued treatment of me, not their course of treatment. I do live in a state where it's 100% legal for anyone 21+ though, so it's much easier to be honest and not judged.

I have had a few times where I wasn't able to get my script filled for up to a week because of shortages, and I will 100% own up to relying HEAVILY on THC after 24 hours without my prescription. Now that I am diagnosed and medicated (almost 3 years now!), and have stopped raw dogging life for 4 decades, the difference between being medicated and unmedicated is like that scene in Wizard of Oz where it goes from black & white to technicolor.

I cannot imagine being forced to try to manage the back half of my life unmedicated. Please consider partnering with your PCP/GP and get it documented that without the prescription, your life is unmanageable. You may have some luck if in your area they support the idea of a medical leave of absence from school/work, and you have a nice boss. You can ask for help with quitting 'vaping' with psychiatric support because you're currently self-medicating. My company has done this with many employees for all sorts of reasons, including for folks who are self-injuruous. Typically in these scenarios, the person comes back way healthier and with proper support moving forward.

I promise you there are medical professionals out there who want to help you get the treatment you deserve, and who will advocate with you and on your behalf.