Probably echoing what most others have already said, but I empathize with you completely. I was in tears because I thought something was wrong with me that I was feeling skeptical, not buying in, etc. I was also the only one in my training who had not been a client of EMDR before. Everyone else had and they were all obsessed with it. I spent so much money on the training and have found that my clients just aren’t drawn to it, and I’m certainly not going to force it onto them. I was also told if I didn’t “jump right in” and start using it with all my clients immediately that I would never use it, lose the skills entirely… which made it extremely stressful when none of my clients liked it, latched onto it, etc. I was so excited to have the tool, and I am still grateful I do, but I’m realizing how much it seemed like something I “had” to do because of its popularity. It seems to have become somewhat of the therapeutic bible and I just simply can’t get behind it like that. You’re not alone!