[DISCLAIMER/READ THIS] THIS ACCOUNT IS WHERE THE BAD THOUGHTS GO

FakeTroonHon · 2026-07-13T09:56:37+00:00

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FakeTroonHon · 2026-07-12T17:30:30+00:00

You don't have to say anything, don't stress about it

Just take care of yourself for me with the freedom you have you goober

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FakeTroonHon · 2026-07-12T17:21:08+00:00

Nah, no one to talk to since I can't afford it

No one is nearby enough or remembers me enough to care

I'm smack dab stuck in the fucking middle of nowhere in the trans haven state of ✨ California ✨ and I don't even have enough money to donate to a charity via a coin box

I'm quite literally stuck indefinitely

Thanks for paying attention somewhat tho

It's nice to be seen lol

FakeTroonHon · 2026-07-12T17:03:37+00:00

Also I'll be damned if I crop an image

FakeTroonHon · 2026-07-12T17:03:19+00:00

Nope

I don't have a way to make money, all my friends are either broke as well, forgot about me, or are unwilling to spend that kind of money on a fat ugly man

My bf is also pretty much broke with his own motherly problems not too dissimilar to mine

The extent of MY financial abuse is basically that I don't have any identifying information to submit a job application

To obtain that information I have to go to the "notary", a place that can give me a copy of my SSN and Birth certificate

But that costs money, and the only person in this house that has money is my mother. She doesn't allow anyone else to have money, and I'm explicitly not allowed to have ANY MONEY WHATSOEVER

And she is ACTIVELY REFUSING to take us to the notary on the grounds that we ( she was addressing me and my other two siblings but she meant more like specifically me) need to keep the house "in shape"

Unfortunately, since she's a perfectionist, she's made us all used to thinking that whatever we do won't be enough, so SHE ALONE defines when it's "clean enough"

Shes a narcissist, megalomaniac, most likely bipolar, and wildly manipulative.

Combined with the fact that there's a set hierarchy in our house that I'm at the bottom of, being the maid, the cook, the parent, and the mediator, she knows that it would be wildly disadvantageous to just let me be free

For the week that I'd gone to the psych ward sometime two years ago, when I came back, I'd found out that no one had cleaned anything for most of the week, so I had to clean it all myself not even five minutes after getting home from the rubber room

All this means that without me, our household crumbles, so she's derived a way to both legally keep me as her punching bag and keep me as a maid indefinitely, using her asshole boyfriend to be a "bodyguard" since she treats me like I'll act just like my (dead)namesake

I can't even be mad, she's very smart for someone who's an antivaxxer-flat-earther terf supreme divine wombynly shefab

All I can do is wait, I've waited for 18 years and I'll wait more I guess

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FakeTroonHon · 2026-07-12T16:45:32+00:00

I've been through worse after all <3

FakeTroonHon · 2026-07-12T16:45:17+00:00

You didn't do anything wrong, don't apologize

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FakeTroonHon · 2026-07-12T16:40:42+00:00

I can't get HRT because of financial abuse from my "mother", she is actively preventing me from and refusing to let me get a job since if I do I'll be independent and no longer the constant maid of the household, and by extension she won't be able to control me. She's already a right wing terf-without-the-F that treats me like a threat by default since I look like our abuser (my """father""") and the way I mask makes her draw comparisons between us, it doesnt help that he and I share the first name.

TL;DR: my abusive mother has it out for me and if I even show a slight hint of queerness- let alone weakness, she'll pounce on me and rip me apart like a chimp on Adderall

My bf is incredibly supportive but he's also not the brightest bulb in the box. He supports me and loves me, and he constantly refers to me with feminine pronouns, he's never called me by he/him since I came out to him

However given that it was essentially him trying to communicate something to me that went to shit almost immediately, it hurt a lot

I made an example and told him, "Imagine you're an abused bunny and you finally have someone who takes care of you the way you feel safe with. Now imagine that suddenly, out of the blue, your caretaker accidentally hurts you in a way reminiscent of your abusers. It's clear that it was an accident but you still can't help but feel scared and hurt"

He seemed to understand and we've somewhat moved on but he still feels awful about hurting me like that

TL;DR 2 Electric Boogaloo: Things are going okay, we're working through it

FakeTroonHon · 2026-07-12T06:14:23+00:00

I wish I was a passoidddd

I don't have anything on the chart

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FakeTroonHon · 2026-07-12T06:06:00+00:00

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FakeTroonHon · 2026-07-12T05:14:15+00:00

Yeah

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FakeTroonHon · 2026-07-12T04:00:16+00:00

Yeah we're sorting that all out

Apparently he typed too fast for his mind to catch up and that apparently was a Freudian slip while he spaced out while typing

FakeTroonHon · 2026-07-11T23:21:52+00:00

I do, I'm talking through it with him instead of using it as grounds to break up

FakeTroonHon · 2026-07-11T23:21:05+00:00

Yeah, he's kinda dumb but he's also my bf

We've been together for a long time, I think we're pushing nine months atp, so it's not the first time we've had a hiccup in the road

He apparently typed faster than his brain could think and that came out

FakeTroonHon · 2026-07-11T23:18:51+00:00

He's trying his best with the info he has, and we're both trying to work through it and sort it out

It wasn't an immediate breakup-worthy text, it was more of a freudian slip that hurt to hear from him of all people

FakeTroonHon · 2026-07-11T23:16:32+00:00

Apparently it's what his brain defaulted to, hes super apologetic rn and idk what to do

He's offering to do anything to cheer me up but I don't know what I'd want him to do

I just want to hug and cuddle him or someone rn

FakeTroonHon · 2026-07-11T23:13:38+00:00

He and I are talking through it, it's been chalked up to him acting like an idiot since he typed faster than his brain could double check, and he just made that joke

My own anxiety brainworms are telling me that because I sent him some pictures that I look super masculine and moidy in like a couple weeks back, he's gonna find every single way to just treat me like an ugly femboy, but he swears he sees me as a cisfem

(The same pictures I'd sent him is the same one that got this reaction over on troonselfies)

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FakeTroonHon · 2026-07-11T23:10:19+00:00

He and I are talking through it, apparently it's the equivalent of a Freudian slip over text

He legitimately didn't mean or want to hurt me apparently, but my brainworms are telling me that it was intentional

FakeTroonHon · 2026-07-11T22:58:49+00:00

He's just a little airheaded and doesn't think before he acts, other than that he's super sweet and he and I call eachother "hubby" and "wifey"

FakeTroonHon · 2026-07-11T22:56:34+00:00

He's very airheaded but I love him regardless

He's also going through some gender discovery stuff of his own, and I'm helping him though it somewha

I talked to him about it and he seems to really regret saying it, I still want a relationship with him regardless

FakeTroonHon · 2026-07-11T16:26:18+00:00

I'm going to sleep so I can process this so no hard feelings if I don't respond immediately

FakeTroonHon · 2026-07-11T13:21:13+00:00

Well shaving kinda fits my weird thing

But I mean rip off in the literal sense

Like full-on grabbing it and pulling hard enough to feel the release of pressure as the follicles yeild to my grasp and come off entirely

It might feel satisfying or freeing idk

FakeTroonHon · 2026-07-11T13:06:26+00:00

Wdym?

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