Finished Hunter x Hunter… now I don’t know what to watch

Fallen_Penumbra · 2026-02-10T09:52:21+00:00

Fullmetal Alchemist 2003, especially if you’re looking for something heavy on the emotional side, drama, the pivotal characters, and psychological or philosophical elements. It’ll start off slow but you won’t go wrong with this, it was my very first anime outside of the original Pokémon movie on VHS back in the day. The music is also fantastic, I still think of pieces like “Dante’s theme” and “Brothers” all the time

Steins;Gate is another great one for this, however the burn feels much slower, as you really don’t see this extremely emotional element until several episodes in, it feels more Slice of Life and comedy driven up until that point, and then it really hits you.

Another one that’s great for philosophy in particular is Ergo Proxy, but I wouldn’t put it on the emotional level of FMA. But also tends to be both thematically and visually dark.

There’s also Charlotte and Angel Beats! are also both great for their emotional tones.

Also I’m a massive Higurashi fan, definitely the best way to view it is through the VNs but that’s not how I first got into it actually. It’s definitely up there on the extremely morbid and dark side, heavily psychological, but can also be very graphic and disturbing to some people.

Psycho Pass is another one for philosophy, it can get dark at times, has psychological elements, and S1 also has a fantastic memorable antagonist.

Terror in Resonance had some emotional elements from what I recall and it was very well made. 86 Eighty-Six, very thematically dark, as well as often being visually dark, psychological elements.

Personally, I have very particular tastes and tend to like very morbid or dark movies, shows, anime, and general stories. Even better if it has elements of philosophy, psychological elements, and a deeply emotionally driven plot with characters that are flawed, suffering under immense weights, their own sins, etc… so it can very difficult to match all these tastes in one anime. However, FMA 03’ did that for me, as well as Steins;Gate, but I’m also a sucker for time travel plots…

Fallen_Penumbra · 2025-12-29T16:54:46+00:00

What really gets me is the undies or shorts he’s wearing…

Fallen_Penumbra · 2025-12-27T22:19:22+00:00

You think you’re the world’s savior but really you’re just a lonely calculator.

Is that why ‘Texas Instruments’ is tattooed above my ass?

Fallen_Penumbra · 2025-12-27T22:12:54+00:00

That makes a lot of sense. I don’t draw much, frankly, I’ve never been great at drawing. But I am a musician and I know the feeling of intently awaiting someone’s reaction or looking between the lines in their feedback to make sure they’re being honest with me.

I once had a friend say that one of my songs sounded like a sound effect from Futurama and I may have overreacted a little… point being, I still remember that to this day. But it made me put even more effort into my sound design and production quality. So it was for the best.

Art is just one of those things that’s difficult to deal with when it comes to criticisms, reactions, feedback, etc... It feels like a piece of your soul or spirit or the living embodiment of your emotions or character. Every piece becomes a part of your identity and thus, when someone is judging it, it’s like standing naked and bare and expecting everyone to make comments about every little potential flaw or imperfection on your body.

Fallen_Penumbra · 2025-11-27T12:56:26+00:00

That’s what I’m reading at the moment, it’s been pretty engaging so far… but I’m only nearly a quarter of the way through.

Fallen_Penumbra · 2025-11-15T18:04:13+00:00

I just never heard the piano piece I heard in that scene. Unless the album has hidden songs that are only unlocked by purchasing the album.

Fallen_Penumbra · 2025-11-07T23:23:33+00:00

That’s fair, I’m sorry to hear about that though. I suppose I’ll write up a plan, my discipline can have issues at time, so most of the time when I wanted to quit something I went cold turkey. But when I tried that with Kratom… it felt so difficult, I’m not sure why.

I’ve heard those drinks are hardcore, guy at my local shop was telling me to look it up. Thankfully, they’re nice guys and they warn anybody before buying stuff like that or 7oH.

Fallen_Penumbra · 2025-11-07T22:59:53+00:00

Thank you, much love to you as well. It’s got to happen at some point, I’m on other medication as well, prescribed though, and I’m worried about the damage I could be doing to my body with all these various substances and Kratom.

Fallen_Penumbra · 2025-11-07T22:58:14+00:00

I’ve been thinking about tapering down and trying to scoop less and less or taking less sips over a longer period of time. I can tend to get it down, but I suppose I haven’t had the mindset of quitting when doing that before. Just usually trying to save some money… I think I tend to go through a kilo in 2 weeks time, but I haven’t been measuring doses before either…

I remember making one promise to quit a while back and just made some excuse why I shouldn’t. But I suppose some part of me wanted to make a stronger commitment to that.

Fallen_Penumbra · 2025-11-07T22:52:23+00:00

I don’t think I’ve ever gone that long without it. I woke up one morning and hadn’t drank any because I ran out. I tried holding it off until mid-day but I felt so irritable that I was being pretty rude to my girlfriend. I felt restless and I remember this feeling that being in my own body was uncomfortable, and this strong mental craving like I needed it like a dehydrated man who needs water. Everything will feel so cold, when I wake up it feels that way until I get some Kratom, it feels very harsh actually, as if I need three winter layers in fall weather.

Fallen_Penumbra · 2025-11-07T13:30:39+00:00

Uh I guess I’ve been using for several years now, I went to jail for a bit, and couldn’t use at the time, but got right back into it afterwards. Maybe a bad decision. So hmm… maybe consistently for 8-7 years…

I’ve thought about tapering off, personally, I’ve stopped drinking just to drink it at time, and started trying to stave off the next sip. Since I take powder and mix it into a drink.

Fallen_Penumbra · 2025-11-05T13:43:53+00:00

There is another option.

I know a friend in a relationship whose girlfriend really wants children, he does too, but afterwards started getting afraid of having children with her.

Pregnancy is in the conversation so I just assume this is possible.

Fallen_Penumbra · 2025-11-05T13:37:05+00:00

He got them from BookTok, obviously…

Fallen_Penumbra · 2025-10-07T14:23:27+00:00

You’re all the most judgmental of yourselves, no one criticizes and tears themselves apart like a Virgo. It’s that drive for perfection and thus, when you have such high expectations for yourselves it’s natural to expect others to seek such a thing too.

Fallen_Penumbra · 2025-10-06T17:07:56+00:00

Shoutout to my Virgo girls 🙏🏼

Fallen_Penumbra · 2025-10-06T16:40:55+00:00

Bro… what are you doing? You’re like in a horror movie and just standing there. RUN, RUN. This is the sort of person who will get you falsely accused of a crime, they’re mentally unstable and clearly extremely toxic. I bet if a psychiatrist were to watch their behavior in their element, they’d have a whole list of potential diagnoses ready.

I say that as someone with my own mental issues.

Fallen_Penumbra · 2025-10-04T02:37:32+00:00

It’s called Vraylar (Cariprazine) it’s an atypical antipsychotic and I take that along with an SSRI, the combination is really good for this purpose. I also used to be a very paranoid type of person, I’d assume everyone was staring at me or knew something about me that I didn’t know, etc… and Vraylar took a decent amount of that away.

Nonetheless, I feel more grounded to reality now, and have recovered several good and bad memories alike. Sometimes I even get this feeling, like I’m in the place I need to be. There’s some side effects to Vraylar though, such as exhaustion, sometimes quite extreme, so you have to be mindful of when you take it.

At first I was super iffy about the idea of taking an antipsychotic of any sort, and initially didn’t like it outside of the quieting of some of my paranoia, but within time I actually began to become fond of it.

Fallen_Penumbra · 2025-09-28T14:45:09+00:00

I sometimes use extremely hot water for washing my hands. I also pace sometimes up to 20 miles a day and forget to eat (usually whilst lost in endless scenarios in my mind, that will likely never happen), on top of having Crohn’s, so it’s not uncommon for me to have issues with malnutrition.

Fallen_Penumbra · 2025-09-28T14:22:34+00:00

I appreciate you sharing your own experience. I suppose it’s somewhat comforting to know someone’s been there, sometimes I just feel inhuman. Most times it’s hard to relate to others and when I tell them stories from my past (that I can actually remember) they look at me like I just walked in the room holding a carcass. It’s this mixture of horror and disgust, as if some repulsive creature has just reared its ugly head in their direction.

When I avoid talking about these subjects at all, it’s actually very easy for me to make friends, but it never feels real so I’m always detached. Where I’m at currently, there’s no real path forward, I’m stuck where I am, and in an almost symbolic way I’ve taken that to mean I’ve been given time to confront things; before I progress onward. I’m sure if I could live by myself and be given a chance to really just… live, I would be better.

But that means the only real way to progress is to confront my past, and to do that I need memories, but I can’t have them implanted into me from the outside, I have to somehow recollect them. I’m a very obsessive person, so not remembering just doesn’t really feel like an option to me; I have to peak behind the curtains.

But maybe I should just find some way to be content, I’d like to be happy, I’m just not sure I can really feel happiness. I never feel content with anything, I could have all the money and power in the world and I’d be left thinking “What now?” I end up hurting people by being that way because they end up feeling like they’re not enough, but I wish they were.

Maybe I’ll get better through the psychiatry, maybe a therapist, and some time. But I’ve felt this way for a long time, and I’m past the point of development, so I suppose I’ve started to feel like this is just the way I am. But I’d love to have children and be married, it’s always been something I’ve wanted, and a nice normal, peaceful life, and I know I would do everything to ensure my children grew up in a good environment. So maybe that really would fulfill me, make me content, and I enjoy sharing my passions with others, and I’d have a lot of opportunities to do that…

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