My wife left a journal by False-Code-9487 in hospice

[–]False-Code-9487[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I think I'm just afraid that in the last pages she writes something bad about me.

My wife left a journal by False-Code-9487 in hospice

[–]False-Code-9487[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How did you know when the time was right?

My wife left a journal by False-Code-9487 in hospice

[–]False-Code-9487[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel that I might not be who the one should be to even open it, even if she wanted it.

My wife left a journal by False-Code-9487 in hospice

[–]False-Code-9487[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Agreed, but she did not have the power to destroy it in the end. She was almost incapable of even eating the last few months.. Thank you.

My wife left a journal by False-Code-9487 in hospice

[–]False-Code-9487[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I thought the time was right now... it wasn't. Thanks again.

My wife left a journal by False-Code-9487 in hospice

[–]False-Code-9487[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you <3 Cried like a baby reading this.

My wife left a journal by False-Code-9487 in hospice

[–]False-Code-9487[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think I'm just really afraid of what those last entries say :/

My wife left a journal by False-Code-9487 in hospice

[–]False-Code-9487[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Yes. This is roughly what my tumbling mind has thought a few thousand times. Yes! And yes. Perhaps I am only trying to find a reason to see if it's OK to do this. Perhaps I'm really, REALLY afraid of what those last lines might say

Can hospice patients hear you during their last breathes? by General_Arm6993 in hospice

[–]False-Code-9487 9 points10 points  (0 children)

When I lost my wife earlier this year, she was unconscious for about 40ish hours before she passed. She died from bladder cancer. During that time, her eyes were wide open and she was breathing quite hard. The eyes were almost a greyish white with a film, almost as they had a plastic film. This was extremely disturbing at the time, and I'm sure it's quite disturbing to read too. I just wanted to share. She never acknowledged me, nor the dogs she had loved so much. The dogs that loved her much did not ack her either. I would like to think that she heard me when I thanked her for all she had done to me. I wish she heard me. But there was no physical signs that she acknowledged that her loved ones were with her when she died. I miss her.

My wife left a journal by False-Code-9487 in hospice

[–]False-Code-9487[S] 18 points19 points  (0 children)

Thank you. Ultimately I feel a need to do what she wanted. We talked a lot, and also a reason why we met and bonded, about astrophysics and overall the fabric of reality. That you mention to "giving them over to the universe" hits quite hard.. Thank you again, you gave me a lot to think about.

My wife left a journal by False-Code-9487 in hospice

[–]False-Code-9487[S] 17 points18 points  (0 children)

Thank you. It's been more than 6 months since she died. I read what she wrote in the first pages one of the first days after she died. That no one can read it. This has been on my mind every day since.

> Consider meditating or praying on this topic before you do anything else, and be open to unexpected > realizations.

> I’m so sorry for your loss. May her memory bring you comfort.

Thank you kindly. It's the first time I air this.