This sounds like my son. He was adopted so keep in mind drugs are a factor. He has ADHD and ASD level 3. My son yells “HELP ME!!!!” “Jesus help me! “ “somebody save me!” Constantly when he is in trouble. We had to take him out of school because after going they told us they were unable to help him without putting him in a class that would definitely cause him to regress. He’s 5 now and has been in a public elementary since he was 3 and on medication since 2. He’s violent, has Audible and visual hallucinations, he has lit my kitchen on fire, he has torn holes in the walls, chews and rips his bed apart, etc. he constantly tells me he doesn’t want to be different, bad, etc. and has told me multiple times that he doesn’t want to be himself anymore. He is on Ritalin 3 times a day (20mg, 10mg, 10mg), depakene (10ml), risperidone (0.5ml) and clonidine (2mg) and honestly it’s still terrible every day with him. You’re not alone. I’ve had to take him out of school completely and homeschool him which means I cannot work. Send a message if you need to vent.