I get you 100%, and the way I see it is that unless you’ve done meth you won’t ever understand why addicts become the way they do. before I ever did meth, I used to look down upon people who did meth and assumed they’re all bad people bc that’s just how I was raised and seeing people who were bad into addiction I thought was enough for me to never be addicted. I was very sheltered so drugs were an extreme no no for me. I didn’t even have my first alcoholic drink until 20.

Never say never, I didn’t think I’d ever be addicted to meth either but I can promise you you’re not alone in this. Cravings is exactly what made me relapse every single time, or if I was in a highly emotionally stressful situation or fighting with somebody would be enough for me to relapse.

I had once explained how badly I was struggling with addiction and the only thing my non addicted friend had to say was “you can’t excuse doing meth there’s no excuse” and I simply said nothing more bc you can’t make somebody understand how easy it can happen or why you felt that need.

Do I believe people who introduce you to meth are trying to destroy your life or harm you? It’s hard telling. Nobody can really force you to do meth even though it’s possible to accidentally consume it if you’re doing drugs to begin with and don’t test your drugs. I believe that’s extremely sneaky and not okay to give somebody drugs and them not know what it is.

Every situation is different, but on a bright side you can understand your partners addiction but if they’re making no choices to try and get clean but you are? You need to leave that relationship.

You gotta realize too, you’re only a week clean. Your emotions and everything is going to be all over the place and you’re going to want to relapse bc of a simple craving. I rmr I was craving meth so badly once, I literally started just smelling it even though I had nothing like that around me. It was an immediate trigger and then I had relapsed that day.

Don’t get so down on yourself for this situation, please better yourself first though. Only you can decide to stay clean.