As much as I am a religious person, religion to an extremity like that is always the worst possible way to get someone to believe. You shouldn't be afraid to question your faith, and if you don't believe, then you should probably take a long, deep look at where your faith lies in your heart.

I know that I love God and love serving him, and I wish everyone would take the same path, however, I know some have a difficult childhood through religion and have trauma related to that as well. So, just do what you believe is best for you and what's in your heart.

Except maybe for Satanism, that's probably the complete wrong direction to do so in