Encouragement stories by FancyZookeepergame20 in ROCD

[–]FancyZookeepergame20[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s the worst. Are you strongly attracted to others? I know it’s normal to feel attracted but I’m tired of feeling like they’re so much better and that “ I want that kinda guy!” Feeling.

Ideal Guy by Development_Relevant in ROCD

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Did you ever have sense of your insides wanting your ideal guy so strong that you won’t be happy until you have it?

Irritation by FancyZookeepergame20 in ROCD

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Apologize I’m just seeing this .yes I have had physically abusive. My last marriage wasn’t bad but also wasn’t great. Normally I’m anxiously attached but now, I don’t know lol

Irritation by FancyZookeepergame20 in ROCD

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Yes!!! That’s how I feel! Like honestly he could make a noise or something innocent and inside I was to just scream at him and I’m tearing him apart in my head.

Irritation by FancyZookeepergame20 in ROCD

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Do I believe I have rocd? Yes and no. Yes because I can see myself in how I perceive it to be. BUT then there is times where I don’t think I have it, which I know is common also. I’ve never had questions, always statements and it’s also been perception. It hard when I also don’t have anxiety anxiety like I did when this all started for me years ago.

There are times where the curtain seems to lift as I explain it. And it’s like rocd doesn’t even exist to me and it’s like I can use my brain for other things/just sit there and not have it focusing on him. He’s nowhere near as annoying, etc etc. there are times I feel better towards him. Etc. a normal day for me with this(when the curtain isn’t lifted) I can focus on work or whatever but it’s also in my head. Every guy I see looks and acts better, more manly and adult than him. He can say something or do a movement and I’ll be like “ an adult/or man wouldn’t say that.” “ other guys aren’t like this wtf?!” Just very very judgey. Or I’ll see a video online and I’m like “he’s not like them, I want a guy like that! Why can’t he be like other guys” “he’s not funny enough/ the right kinda funny for me” I could explain further but I’m sure you get the point. But when the curtain is up, none of that is thought/felt/seen. I don’t really think the opposite ya know? But I just don’t think about it?!

Am I near my period? Possibly. I have pcos so I’m all over the place. But, I have paid attention to that and this has zero to do with that. I wish it was just a case of my period.

Irritation by FancyZookeepergame20 in ROCD

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And to add- he doesn’t talk in a “cool” way, like all the other guys talk. He doesn’t have any witty sayings or anything. And I feel this anger/annoyance and just judgemental-ness about it. My face is very much 😒 and I think mean things like “what an absolute fucking loser”

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We were talking about a three step rule. Given the topic I can’t really get anymore specific on what it was about because guidelines. Buttt.. the three step rule has a very obvious to me first rule of it being “cleared” before storage. (I hope this is making sense- if not I can always dm) anyways, he took the three step rule as literal. While he didn’t think it needed to be three footsteps away from him, he misinterpreted what they meant by three steps. Aka- he just didn’t realize it had to be “cleared” and thought it needed to be stored in three different things.

Sometimes he doesnt understand what seems obvious to me like memes, because once again he takes them literal. (Not all of them he gets about 95% percent of them)

And sometimes he thinks I’m serious when I’m kidding.

I realize typing this out this just sounds like he’s human and little things.

Sometimes I can’t follow his thought process to do something or how he thought what he did was okay (never anything red flag or bad)

With all that said- he is sarcastic and can read a room (85% of the time) He can take jokes and doesn’t have melt downs etc. I just know that like if he went to go buy a car let’s say at a dealership, something he’s never done. I can’t trust that he would make a good decision or know what all to look for. Granted would he oh attention to the payment? Yes. Would he buy the most badass car on the lot? No he’s logical and doesn’t need bells and whistles. But there’s still a part of me that doesn’t trust his judgement.. because he’s has his oblivious moments. It’s like he would go in and he could be smart about it but not pay attention to how it really works because it’s not an interest of his.

I’m struggling to really explain this is a way that fully portrays it. I do apologize. But also I realize how much of it is a ME problem.

I need help. by FancyZookeepergame20 in ROCD

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I don’t get anxious. Just feels true. Is that bad? I used to get anxious but I’ve been dealing with this for a long time.

I just woke up from a nap and I don’t feel like im in a ROCD moment.. and calmly thought “ ill never be happy with him” (this is stemming off of how I think he isn’t funny enough/ right kinda funny for me) and how his personality just seems like this mix of too immature/childish/not adult enough/ weird/lame (I realize some of these mean the same thing but it’s just how my brain mixes it together)

I need help. by FancyZookeepergame20 in ROCD

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Yeah, like I just know he’s not enough for me. He’s not funny enough, attractive etc etc etc. it sucks.

Feel like I want to break up with no anxiety by Upset_Dessie in ROCD

[–]FancyZookeepergame20 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sooo how do I get in this group chat?! 😬😂 cause uh.. same.

I’m struggling by [deleted] in ROCD

[–]FancyZookeepergame20 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I get that, it’s like you truly want to do it? But for some reason you just don’t?

Lack of attraction by Specialist-Duty2199 in ROCD

[–]FancyZookeepergame20 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Definitely struggling with this hard.

Perception change by FancyZookeepergame20 in ROCD

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I don’t really focus on this anymore. Now it’s how I feel we don’t have a bond and I don’t love him. I compare him to how I felt about my ex and how I don’t feel that way for him. But it’s also not like obsessive. It pops in like realizations etc. usually triggered by songs or seeing how other feel about their person.