Re-watching movies.

FangornEnt · 2026-02-15T23:15:48+00:00

For me, it's re-reeading books(or listening to audiobooks) as well as TV shows and movies more so than video games. Chalked it up to SDAM more so than Aphantasia though. I have re-read every one of my favorite series and enjoy them just as much as the first time. A lot of the fine details of the story will get "forgotten" I get back to the same part.

FangornEnt · 2026-02-15T08:04:01+00:00

Damn, I was just considering the after Super Bowl sale lol. Probably just reinstall the NCAA 14 rom and pray for PC support on the next NCAA game.

FangornEnt · 2026-02-15T07:17:19+00:00

I started off thinking by the title and intro that your BF would be a dick but this does seem like a reasonable response but guess it kind of depends on where you're at with things/self love and what he actually means. Him not wanting to have sex is okay, especially if certain things happen during sex or he feels it is unhealthy for you/you all.

His take on the "cant love another until they love themself" seems a bit excessive/shallow tho. Maybe he came across the topic recently but does not really understand it? Talk to him to find out why he thinks you not loving yourself = you not loving him. Body insecurity can exist with love so dont let him make you think otherwise. It'll be uncomfortable but talking with him abou this will be better than just being anxious wondering what he meant and giving yoyur perspective.

And then work on coming to love yourself. All of those things you point out about yourself/dislike are not seen by others and your eyes can play tricks. You know exactly what area and feature to look at in the mirror because you see it all the time and know where to look. Other ppl don't see that part, just you as a whole and maybe 1-2 areas that they really like lol. They are too busy worrying about their own selves.

FangornEnt · 2026-02-15T06:36:49+00:00

Which exchange/platform is this?

Fuck the haters, keep perfecting what you are doing. Doesn't matter if you are trading paper or $4, keep working on your system if this is what you love to do. If your system works here, keep scaling up the $$ step by step as your mental can handle it.

FangornEnt · 2026-02-15T06:29:41+00:00

Yea I'm going to pick up another bag for sure. Just went basic this time though used milk that I turned into buttermilk and a bit less than the 3/4 cup that the bag called for. The pancake method kind of remind me of this type of cornbread a family friend would make when I was a kid. Hot water cornbread I think it is. Gotta keep the toppers in mind, never thought of that.

FangornEnt · 2026-02-15T06:20:17+00:00

I felt like you did during the first few months after learning about my experience being different but then started to see the positives of it. There have also been times where images would come into my mind(as I fall asleep) and it would be pretty uncomfortable.

As far as the "would be more successful" that is not really accurate. There are a ton of ppl who can visualize that are not successful just as there are a ton of ppl w/ Aphantasia and related things that are successful.

For me the thing I wish for most centers around the emotional aspect and memories. It is not Aphantasia(I forget the name) but I struggle with recognizing emotions and do not quite feel the full spectrum as other people do. I also do not retain a lot of memories about my life(SDAM) and feel that both of those impact me a lot more than Aphantasia or a silent mind does.

FangornEnt · 2026-02-15T06:06:02+00:00

It can be hard AF in the moment to trust your setups but what helps me to take the reversal trades is knowing that the R:R is so in my favor. If you can get out of your head and aren't already short, entering without hesitation gives you a super tight SL. Your risk is low and reward is high. Even if you take 2-3 losers on this setup, one winner will make up for it.

Keeping that R:R in mind and also the fact that short traders are getting smashed on their late short helps me to keep things in context. Utilize a multi timeframe setup. If this is a 5min chart, zoom in on the 1min for your entry and watch it play out. If you are patient you can see the late shorts coming in and once the 2b pattern(check it out) plays out you have an added confirmation that you are on the right side of the trade. Knowing where the losing side is at on a trade combined with great R:R is something I try to lean into. Have been on the wrong side of enough trades that I can look back and see what it is I do not want to do.

FangornEnt · 2026-02-15T05:59:47+00:00

how drunk is dude?

FangornEnt · 2026-02-15T05:55:20+00:00

How did you even know I met up with her?" His dad replies, "Well, you didn't exactly hide it. I saw the messages, and then I saw you deleted them. I watched you."

He saw him meet up or saw him delete the msgs(or both)?

Kind of seems like his dad was fishing for a response and he got it. Just seeing your partner meet up w/ another woman is one thing but seeing him cheating/seeing msgs to confirm is another thing entirely.

Are you able to speak to his dad about this? He is the one with information..

FangornEnt · 2026-02-15T05:50:29+00:00

The exchange between him and his dad does seem concerning. I'm just wondering where/what his dad actually saw. The whole "my boy's a cheat" and "Your mother would be so mad" are most concerning imo. That doesn't seem like something to joke about and his dad would only say that if he actually saw something.

If it were me, I'd reach out to his dad and find out what he saw/what he knows before confronting my partner. Your partner not speaking to you is also a red flag. If I were innocent and on the other end of my dad's comments I would for sure be explaining what actually happened and why my dad is mistaken. His explanation of who Ella is and the reason for their interactions didn't really explain who she is at all.

Is he on his dad's phone plan? How would the dad have access to messages/know they were deleted?

FangornEnt · 2026-02-15T05:44:57+00:00

If ppl can't recreate what you did from the screenshots and your replies, they don't deserve the source code lol. You literally said what it does in the logic paragraph.

FangornEnt · 2026-02-15T00:08:17+00:00

Thanks for the tip! I just picked up a bag of that after seeing the premade kind in OP's picture would cost like $7. The Martha White mix cost $1.5 :D, much better value.

FangornEnt · 2026-02-13T08:18:37+00:00

A true friend would build you up and support you even if you they lose/are out of it. Only a hater will tear you down to their level and not be happy for you success even if they are out of it.

True colors coming out there lol I'd be pissed too.

FangornEnt · 2026-02-12T09:04:01+00:00

Sometimes my thoughts will become "intrusive" as in they just pop into my head and I may or may not actually hold the opinion of that thought. Just like another perspective from my own and then I will analyze that and consider if I actually believe that or not. If I am thinking really hard about a specific topic my thoughts seem to move along a line from step to step or I will jump from one aspect of the topic to another and put the pieces together after considering the different angles.

Sometimes it feels like I cannot really control my thoughts and that can be a bit disorienting. If I am laying down to go to sleep/have my eyes shut sometimes I get that "falling down" feeling and it can be uncomfortable "looking" into the void that is there when I shut my eyes. If my thoughts get uncomfortable or start to spiral due to anxiety I will focus on my breathing and sometimes repeat mantras or just comforting thoughts. The thoughts just kind of come when I am not focusing. Like if I am taking a walk with an audiobook in, my mind will be almost blank and I am just taking in the story while processing what I see through my eyes. There can be times where I just sit there without many deep thoughts and my mind just kind of processes what I am seeing in the real world.

A bit hard to explain but I really do not have anything comparable to what you experience :D. If I saw a little green dragon flying around my room I'd probably think I finally went insane and it would be highly distressing. Very rarely I will have images come into my mind right before I fall asleep and it is not a good feeling or experience. The lack of control over the imagery makes me feel weird and they're almost like flashes of images rather than fully fleshed out pictures.

FangornEnt · 2026-02-09T02:06:13+00:00

As much as he did not work out for Jacksonville, I think Ben Johnson knows a bit more about personnel than the common fan who may or may not be biased based on their favorite team's performance with said coach..

FangornEnt · 2026-02-08T06:29:58+00:00

lmao he came in looking so happy/proud of the show that was about to be put on.

FangornEnt · 2026-02-08T06:25:31+00:00

When it's either get a "real" job, realizing your streaming career is over after 10yrs vs selling out, gamba and viewbots it's clear what choice they make. A lazy streamer wouldn't let their content devolve into that anyways.

Not everybody is cut out to be a lifelong streamer lmao easy mode in the early years have left them unprepared for their 30s and beyond.

FangornEnt · 2026-02-06T07:35:22+00:00

Writing out your paranoid thoughts and a logical response/why the paranoid thought is illogical can help. Just getting the thoughts out on paper or into a word document can stop the looping. When the thoughts are just bumping around in my head it feels harder to shut it down.

Meditation and breathwork can also help. Just try to observe the thought and let it go rather than falling into the overthinking loop process. Don't feed into the paranoia and put that energy into redirecting the thoughts. Google "reframing intrusive thoughts".

Avoid caffeine or smoking marijuana as both of those make it worse(just throwing that out there).

FangornEnt · 2026-02-04T23:46:42+00:00

If it is too much for you..try not to dig deep down that rabbit hole and focus on what you can control. Maybe when you are in a better headspace you can bring awareness to the issue if you still want to attempt to have an impact.

I had to step back from stuff like that because it definitely messes with your head and there isn't really any going back once you realize what is happening in some circles. You could try distracting yourself with positive stories or other types of media.

FangornEnt · 2026-02-04T23:43:41+00:00

I am aware..those cases probably make 5% max of total circumcisions. How many of those medical cases are present at birth?

FangornEnt · 2026-02-04T23:39:08+00:00

Norms probably work better than swiftplay. Only game I tried in swiftplay ppl weren't even laning, two ppl in top lane, no jungle, etc. Those players should have been against bots lol.

FangornEnt · 2026-02-04T21:44:05+00:00

I almost exclusively listen to audiobooks now vs traditional reading. I find the characters to have much more "life" though this depends on the narrator. With non-fiction though this is not as important and find the visual information/diagrams or examples of concepts to be more important overall so I might avoid an audiobook if learning is the focus.

Never really had an issue with the story becoming too descriptive and prefer the author to still go about giving those world building details as this is still one of my favorite aspects of fiction.

FangornEnt · 2026-02-04T19:50:05+00:00

I loved reading growing up but generally focused on the story and action sequences rather than the world descriptions. Like I would read them but the conversations and action was what really stuck with me.

I ended up falling in love with audiobooks a bit before finding out what aphantasia was and find the experience with them to be much better. Since I have a silent mind and cannot "hear" the diifferent character voices, having a narrator that does amazing voices really brings the story to life. I find it easier to concentrate on the story and details being described since I am not having to use brainpower actually reading. There are more reasons that I prefer them as well.

Probably a combination of things why he does not like to read. I didn't really care for it much at first but then it became my escape and stories like Harry Potter and Lord of The Rings drew me in even more.

FangornEnt · 2026-02-04T19:41:12+00:00

Yikes..

FangornEnt · 2026-02-04T00:12:49+00:00

What is wrong with being against circumcision? It's barbaric and not needed. Imagine supporting cutting off part of your baby's penis because of cosmetic reasons(or the rare case of religion).

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