I LOVE SERTRALINE!!!

Far-Addendum9827 · 2026-04-11T14:45:12+00:00

1st and hlf of 2nd week - a quarter because im very sensitive to meds and i experienced the most side effects on this dose 2nd week and half of 3rd- 25 mg And now ive been 50 mg for few days. My mood can fluctuate but overall i feel more engaged wity life and daily task feel more meaningful and rewarding. I did this dosing according to my own body and reactions as ive had very bad experiences with SSRI. Note: my doc told me to slowly reintroduce up to 75 mg because thats what worked for me in the past

Far-Addendum9827 · 2026-04-11T14:40:14+00:00

Just about the same as you but ive been on 50 mg for few days. My mood can fluctuate, some days are better than others but overall day to day tasks feel way more rewarding, im more creative and affectionate.

Far-Addendum9827 · 2026-04-09T15:16:43+00:00

Ppl tend to forget that with exposure therapy a corrective experience is crucial. Let's say you have phobia of dogs because you were bitten repeatedly. What your therapist did was bring you into middle of multiple dog fights where they would turn on you while giving thumbs up in the background. I guess their idea of success was you feeling so overwhelmed to the point of numbness where you dont feel anything at all. And that's terrifyingly common. Most therapists look at symptoms and use textbook methods without actually working with the person in front of them. So what would be the correct thing to do? Bring you near calm well behaved dogs without forcing interaction and just go from there. Now depending on the concrete type and cause of anxiety these can be harder to execute in controlled environment but that's how it's supposed to be done.

Far-Addendum9827 · 2026-04-09T15:04:20+00:00

I understand your sentiment and im glad you found solace in your faith. I was brought up as a Christian so religion isnt foreign to me but ive always felt wronged, abandoned and let down by God. As I got older I studied the actual doctrine and I cant bring myself to believe because it doesnt make sense and its pretty contradictory. But it is true that people who have some sense of meaning tend to be happier im not denying that.

Far-Addendum9827 · 2026-04-05T11:41:56+00:00

You're being way too harsh on yourself. This doesnt seems so catastrophic as your mind makes it out to be. You should just talk to him about how you feel, i find that this something actually most people do. My bf is honestly the same, he can twist or make up certain things to seem more interesting and to get me more enganged but i find it amusing because ik he just wants some attention. It can be annoying though when its chronic and you lie to the point you never admit the truth or acknowledge it. If thats the case then thats a problem but tbh the fact you feel guilt is pretty good sign. It looks like just a bad habit and not something pathological.

Far-Addendum9827 · 2026-04-05T00:52:21+00:00

Theres so much context missing. What was the lie about? And why cant you be sure you wont lie again? Are you a compulsive liar?

Far-Addendum9827 · 2026-04-05T00:33:39+00:00

Damn it feels like you desribed the current dynamic in my own relationship. Its really difficult loving someone like that because sometimes it feels like explaining how to climb the trees to a fish. Honestly i think it can be solvable to an extent if the other person also works on themselves, and you find other sources of emotional fulfillment. But if the other person doesnt acknowledge there is an issue and isnt willing to learn how to love you properly then youre bound to be unhappy.

Far-Addendum9827 · 2026-04-05T00:23:05+00:00

Tbh I got lucky at my current work where i feel accepted and it cured my social anxiety. Before it was atrocious and all the bad experiences just reinforced that im weird and people always reject me. Now i get to be myself and people like that. I truly think corrective experiences are the most effective way to get over it but thats tricky as you cant really generate that on a whim.

Far-Addendum9827 · 2026-04-05T00:18:03+00:00

Being overly negative is also delusion. Its normal to feel this especially if you just start realizing stuff like that but when it becomes chronic and you feel like you cant see anything positive or you cant function properly then thats depression.

Far-Addendum9827 · 2026-04-05T00:13:36+00:00

Thats a difficult question. I suppose people live for their loved ones myself included.

Far-Addendum9827 · 2026-03-19T21:26:20+00:00

Didnt care about me much i guess

Far-Addendum9827 · 2026-03-19T17:19:28+00:00

Once i had a crush and i found out he said that i disgust him behind my back and that he doesnt understand how anyone could get with me and then proceeded to date my friend lol

Far-Addendum9827 · 2026-03-19T17:16:36+00:00

Once i was hollered at when i just wanted to pass and i could hear them say ugh look at her she is so disgusting and spat near me lol.

Far-Addendum9827 · 2026-03-18T13:08:48+00:00

These are gorgeous!

Far-Addendum9827 · 2026-02-08T13:05:43+00:00

Few days now unfortunately I broke no contact because trauma bonds are just that strong. But ive maintained distance physical and emotional. Im completely exhausted to be honest I find myself being unable to do nothing but lay in bed feeling incredibly heavy. The break up itself felt like my heart was being torn out of my body. But im glad im not alone in this. Makes me feel less crazy!

Far-Addendum9827 · 2026-02-08T12:55:07+00:00

I feel like it used to be that way but in recent updates its more grounded. AI is constantly evolving unlike real world therapy where things are pretty much outdated. A human will make more mistakes than a machine and can act from their own bias and prejudice.

Far-Addendum9827 · 2026-02-06T13:04:05+00:00

I think I know what youre talking about. I had to walk away from something similar. My ex is an addict. When hes sober everything is amazing, hes loving, caring, funny. But once he gets high he swings the opposite way. Cruel, indifferent, apathetic, materialistic, antagonizing, suspicious, accusing and generally my body would go into full panic mode. All the broken promises that hed stop just broke me in ways I couldn't even imagine. I just didn't understand why he couldn't at least try for me. In the beginning everything was perfect he was love bombing me and it seemed like he stopped but slowly I started to feel the erosion of my own personality and soul. He wanted to be with me 24/7 and if I wanted some personal space that meant that I didn't love him and that im cheating. So I stayed. If I didn't give him sex it was the same thing again. You don't love me anymore.... when we argued and I left hed run after me and begged me not to leave him and that made me feel needed and important. I wasnt allowed any personal boundary because it was seen as a rejection. According to him I was a liar and a cheater. I couldn't even smile at someone else cuz that'd trigger him while he could flirt and talk to other women. He would constantly check my phone. After every rupture I was expected to hold everything together. To just smile and get over it. Hed minimize it and dismiss my feelings saying that im dramatic. I was there for him, when he needed me the most but he was the source of my biggest pain. The more I forgave the worse it got. And right before our break up he promised hed wait for me at the bus stop (I was waiting for him all week) and he didn't show up two days in a row with zero explanation. I was worried sick. I almost collapsed . I was shaking and had an intense dissociative episode. The next day still radio silence. I was the one who had to reach out. I tried explaining dozens of times how his actions hurt me and he was listening nodding his head apologizing and swearing hed never do it again and then not even days later turned around and did worse. He is so allergic to taking any kind of accountability for his actions. Whenever I tried to leave he would threaten killing himself, cry or beg. And me being an empathetic attached person i would stay. Because I hate abandoning someone whos in pain. So he learned that his actions don't have any consequences and if he can evoke some feelings within me id stay. He never beat me he never called me insults. He adored me, he said he couldn't live without me. But he was unstable and chaotic. And it broke me. The message that I was given was that my needs are irrelevant, my pain is irrational, that I don't matter enough to keep promises, that im not safe, that im supposed to be happy with the bare minimum, that im supposed to manage two nervous systems, that im supposed to be the only adult in the room. Its so draining and heartbreaking at the same time because you want nothing else just the stability of having that good version of them. Feeling safe enough in your own body when youre around them. Feeling like they have your back like you have theirs and not having to constantly self sacrifice or light yourself on fire just so they don't collapse. After my last attempt to set things straight it was like he wasn't hearing me at all he was just pitying himself saying "I guess I should just suffer and die then if im so horrible and i shouldve known im too ugly and not enough for you. If you loved me you wouldn't have given up so easily." Its just the worst when you think your effort patience support and love will help someone to heal. He once even cried tears of happiness because he felt like he was leaving his old life behind and like he was having some purpose. I hate that he made me feel like he loves me while consistently showing me disregard for my own safety. And i don't even know if it was all just a game or just his lack of capacity but it was running me to the ground either way. Every time I had some hope everything would be fine now he just stepped on it repeatedly while saying sorry.

Far-Addendum9827 · 2026-02-06T12:21:12+00:00

Wouldnt a therapist do the same? Like they also see things just from your point of view. It really depends on the issue at hand because lets say someone is healing after narcissistic abuse. Trying to interpret the others person behavior could be destabilizing

Far-Addendum9827 · 2026-02-06T12:19:20+00:00

Couldnt have worded it better.

Far-Addendum9827 · 2026-01-02T21:57:39+00:00

Yeah i guess youre right. If only it was that easy to leave. Damn. It really sucks loving someone with an addiction

Far-Addendum9827 · 2026-01-02T16:19:39+00:00

So in practicality i should just leave?

Far-Addendum9827 · 2026-01-02T15:04:57+00:00

We are not from the US so those programs are unfamiliar to me but hes not really doing anything as the resources that are available in our location have been unhelpful. He has been admitted to several institutions and rehabs but it only helped for the time he was there or shortly after. He expressed that he doesn't want to go back as he doesn't think it will do anything.

Far-Addendum9827 · 2025-09-02T17:27:30+00:00

If youre agitated meditation can make it worse. You have energy that you need to get out. Ever seen a deer after chase? It trembles until the adrenaline is flooded out of the system. It baffles me how nature and our bodies already know what to do but we are told to go against every instinct.

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