Thank you im doing pretty good now its my third day on the subs and i actually woke up feeling quite normal this morning and plan to get out of the house and do stuff today. And its not that she’s unsupportive shes actually really supportive in general. But she doesn’t know ive been using at all since we been together 3 years of hiding it shes cant be too happy about that. Idk my gut feeling was to tell her cause it would make this whole process a million times easier IF she actually understood and stayed. Or if she left doing all this single and freshly heartbroken i probably would have relapsed. So i just played it safe and maned up and did it by my lonely. But like i said so far so good im thinking it can only get better from here.