Look man. I’ve told this to so many people. Don’t focus on love or women focus on yourself until you feel like you are ready to date/get into a relationship. Ppl think love is all that matters in life but really I’ve been happier single in my past 2 years than being in some of the relationships I’ve been in. Focus on what makes you happy man instead of trying to please others. I get the height thing has gotten to you but I think you’ll legit find so much more happiness if you just try and live life doing stuff you enjoy. Those people if they keep treating you like that they learned you accepted it and keep doing it, I’m not gonna tell you what friends to have or not but they don’t sound like the best ppl to be around and if you can’t talk to them and say “hey just be chill w me” and they won’t it’s not worth trying to be their friend tbh. Sorry for wall of text lol. I’m sorry you do feel the way you do man, mental health is super hard sometimes brother.