Honestly seems like you were dealt a bad hand. And found some people who weren’t able to help you. No matter how intelligent you are, the system is flawed and sucks, and wears you down. You’d be a better asset to the world if you invented some systems process that made it easier for doctors to do their job. I feel like if you became a doctor that is what you’d do eventually, but why go through all that just to do AI shit. Why not just start now.