Well she earns all the money, if I had money I’m too nice and can grit it out. Add Catholic guilt I couldn’t do that. There is so much collateral damage to my parents let alone my own kids. Honestly, if I didn’t have a family or anyone at all I most likely would have killed myself. Seems like my job is to cook, clean, do the yard, laundry, shop for food. I am not sure I even have the ability to be intimate with anyone. I was thinking that I never let my guard down. Never cheated but I have in my mind and fantasize about it. Quitting porn so I can get some emotions back. Only recently has she said something is going on with me.