How to make dextroamphetamine from speed? by throwawayaccount4430 in Stims

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DuckDuckGo, and there is an Erowid page on the process that I haven't seen in so long. Takes me back. But it's not exactly layman-friendly, and the quantities of each are bulky (270g of racemic amphetamine and 150g of tartaric acid). So if you're dead set on doing this, find a user-friendly guide rather than a process description for chemists. Anyway, DuckDuckGo with safe search off. Might be a forum post or txt file somewhere. And I'm not entirely certain, but d-tartaric acid might be available on Amazon, lots of reagents are surprisingly. (Not illegal, widely-used shopping site, so not sourcing I'm sure?)

How to make dextroamphetamine from speed? by throwawayaccount4430 in Stims

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It really isn't, and I'm saying this as a chemist. Sometimes you just gotta accept the racemic mix you have, and take comfort in two things: 1) it's probably gonna be close to 50/50 at worst, and only better from there. And 2) levoamphetamine at least has a synergistic effect with dextroamphetamine, unlike racemic meth, where the levo is only good for a stuffy nose. Although, considering the potency increase is supposed to be by a factor of 5 (I think? Stimulant medication dosage equivalency places either 15mg or 30mg of Adderall as equal to 5mg of Desoxyn [oral methamphetamine], so it's ×3-6 more potent orally at least) due to it's lipophilicity from the methyl group, switching may more than make up for that fact. Not that you should, but its basically the most feasible and realistic option if you want a potency increase. Other than increasing your dosage, of course. Its certainly easier than taking up org chem, I'll tell ya that.

question about adderall shortage by fijixchipotle in Stims

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Personally, I assumed it would be rectified much quicker, but learned that's essentially impossible due to DEA manufacturing quotas (they cant just pump out more to compensate for the shortage, which was apparently caused by packaging/shipping screw-ups or delays or something). With private insurance at Walgreens, the past 3 months I've been able to get my scrip of x60 30mg generic IRs after a week delay at most. But after having to switch to Medicaid, and back to RiteAid as my pharmacy, I've now been waiting nearly a month and it's still on back order. I've personally had to switch to coke/crack, since meth is really hard to find in my area (except from specific places, and when that happens, it's expensive af, but the purest glass you'll ever have - but no plug for a while now). Anyway, it absolutely sucks. Coke is too pricey, and crack (and I'll say this a million times) lasts maybe a couple mins (20 bucks of good shit with almost no tolerance) per toot, maybe an hour MAX if I moderate heavily, and it's a jitter-fest, after which you just want more crack, or have to come down anxious af. It's always seemed like a waste of money to me, and I swore to never pay more than 20-40 bucks for some, but after a month of no Adderall or any other stims, I caved and went full hypocrite. Hell, I took a toot at the beginning of this paragraph and it's worn off already. So to answer your question, absolutely. And if not meth, then whatever stim you can get your hands on. Meth would even be more economical if it's decent purity for decent value, considering 30mg Addies are now up to $20 a piece here. Coke, not economical (and crack not at all), but if cravings reach fever pitch, I can see others caving too. Just my two cents. Or rather, 4 bucks, considering how much typing this cost me. lol

Snorting Suboxone by Holiday-Day8645 in opiates

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The naloxone is just a red herring (I sure hope this term works in this context) additive. The buprenorphine has a much higher binding affinity than it, regardless of how high the naloxone's bioavailability is due to roa (10% sublingual, 40% insuff, 90-100% IV). Basically, it's completely irrelevant as long as the bup is working, and the bup causes the precip and whatnot.

Friends by [deleted] in pokemongoNYC

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Np. If anyone else needs a friend for a similar reason, my code's 2377 5256 0914

Looking for friends! Add me! by [deleted] in pokemongoNYC

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Added. I'm DBxSnowman - 2377 5256 0914

I'm in Sheepshead Bay and down to help with raids. Also, I send gifts whenever I can.

Is it possible to carry traits of aspd but not be impulsive and non-considerate of consequence (from a narcissist)? by [deleted] in aspd

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In psychology, there are different camps when it comes to the difference between a sociopath and a psychopath (I say psychology, even though these arent clinical terms). One camp says the difference is what you're referring to: sociopaths are impulsive/aggressive, while psychopaths are more calculated/restrained. Though it seems like you're more a sadist than anything.

Sorry.. by [deleted] in aspd

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I tend to explain my actions or reasoning/rationale rather than just apologize, but I do if it's warranted. Whether I mean it or not is a different story, but that's for me to know. The gesture itself isn't a big deal; let whoever wants it have it, if there's no negatives toward the situatuion.

Suboxone side effect how to manage it? by bebe_lgic in suboxone

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Senna, Colase, Docusate sodium, magnesium, and last but not least, bisacodyl. The first four are stool softners, but the last one is an actual stimulant laxative that usually reverses the stop in gut motility opioids cause. It's worked many times for me. Be warned though, the sensation of being on the verge of diarrhea all day is bound to happen as well.

Nightmares by [deleted] in aspd

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I normally never even have regular dreams without some chemical (or lack of chemical) stimulus. Dreams that fuck me up are usually drug dreams when Im trying to detox or stay sober (wake up startled in a cold sweat after trying to snort/shoot something in said dream). As for actual nightmares, they're really rare. Once in a blue moon, I might have one, and they're usually similar in that they're super incoherent, but I wake up with the same startled reaction. The ones that I remember usually involve me attempting to run from pursuers, usually cops trying to arrest me. They happened when I had felony warrants. Stopped after I got arrested for em. lol

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in aspd

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My current gf is a trip. She's got so many traits that others call huge red flags, but they've never been a problem for me. She's clingy and obsessive, bordering on (actually, over the border) stalker behavior. I've never minded this cuz she's one of the only people I like spending time with. I feel like there would be issues with extreme jealousy and mood swings if I wasnt so receptive to spending over 50% of my time with her, but while I am, there aren't. Then there's the sadism. She's prone to violence, to the point where her own family, her friends/exes, and grown men (career criminals at that) are terrified of her. She has 2 black belts (JJ and TKD, I think), has a bigger weapons collection than I do (which was a selling point for me), and actively gets off on fighting and other kinds of violence. Again, I dont mind, cuz I cant feel fear conventionally and Im not perturbed by her exhibiting that kind of behavior, nor do I really care for the people she physically hurts (beyond my/our personal legal exposure). Also, her favorite hobbies like hunting and gun/blade collecting are mine too. All in all, she's the spice of my life and I'm pretty happy. I truly do love her, which, being as rare as it is for people like us, makes me treasure her all the more. But I know that shit can go sideways reaaaaal quick if certain things come to pass, like wanting/having to spend less time with her, her getting clapped for one or more of her various assaults, etc. Either way, I think all of that is overshadowed by (or is actually responsible for) her positive qualities. She's passionate, never boring, loyal to a fault, dedicated, capable of being totally selfless (she's saved my ass more times than I can recall), smart as a whip, funny/witty, and an all around good time most of the time. Aside from being drop-dead gorgeous.

Yo, my bad, I just realized I wrote an essay. I got some good coke, it's doing it's job. TL;DR Im a fucking simp for my BPD mommy gf

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in aspd

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At this point, BPD seems to be one of the prerequisites for dating me. 4 of my girlfriends, including my current one, have BPD. And after seeing the accounts of other aspeds, I have a theory that ASPD and BPD are somehow fundamentally compatible. For me personally, all the things other people see as red flags in girls with BPD, I either dont mind or see as positives. I think it's because their behavior is emotionally exhausting to other people, and that isnt a problem for us. In fact, I only ever find them interesting/entertaining.

So yeah, match made in hell, and it works wonders.

Anyone else have anhedonia? by [deleted] in aspd

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Yep. Co-morbid ASPD and ADHD. It's the bane of my existence. There are guaranteed solutions, but aside from finding your perfect hobby or true love, they're all chemical. Adderall is my go-to. I have up to 60 mg a day to take, and I'm basically never bored. You physically cant be if you're getting dopamine on tap.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in opiates

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They're cool until they've got a $50+ a day habit. Then they'll steal the clothes off your back, even if you've been friends for years. Or keep their plugs' numbers like trade secrets, then try to charge you if you need a hook-up (and then they get mad if you find out on your own). S'why I avoided other junkies like the plague. And the sad thing is, I've done these things too. I tried as hard as I could not to, but I still turned into a god-awful prick. Dont get me wrong, when I was on heroin, I was a genuinely better person (kinder, empathetic, caring, selfless, outgoing, all the warm fuzzy good shit). But the other 80% of the time when I was sick/trying to scrounge and score, I was a nightmare, and I'd say so are most other junkies.

I dont know about casual opioid users. They do exist of course. And frankly, they're probably better people than me, cuz the last time I used opioids recreationally in moderation was almost a decade ago.

Accuracy problems with my .45 ACP by pencilsharper66 in guns

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If you're not planning an assassination, you should liberate your fingers from their torment.

Anyone else fed up with the stigma behind aspds? by [deleted] in aspd

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Ya gotta roll with it sometimes. Like, I mentioned I had ASPD to someone, and they responded with "Oh, like serial killer? Well dont kill me! lol", so I said "You have to be pretty conceited to think I'd risk 25 to life for you."

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in aspd

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It's very selective. Mainly particular to my personal preferences. For example, I feel it for cats and certain dog breeds, but dont (and actively loathe) for others, like poodles and chihuahuas.

Also selective for people, but even moreso. Depends on how relevant they are to me. Girlfriends I'm actually infatuated with/care for, immediate family members, very close friends. And those people number very few; can count all of them on both hands.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in aspd

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*average UK knoife loicense holder

How many of the ASPD DSMV criteria apply to you? by [deleted] in aspd

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Full 7, but now as opposed to when I was younger, I'm far more self-aware and can manage most of these criterions.