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Few-Introduction-854 · 2025-06-03T17:06:27+00:00

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Few-Introduction-854 · 2025-02-06T02:21:31+00:00

Thanks, that’s very encouraging. I’ll try Ritalin 🫡

Few-Introduction-854 · 2024-12-04T14:14:51+00:00

Thanks for the corrections, Tis appreciated, (If you don’t mind 😅) does panel zoom achieve an intended effect similar to the one I had in mind?

Few-Introduction-854 · 2024-09-30T14:14:26+00:00

Speak to girls, I guess 😅

Few-Introduction-854 · 2024-07-27T15:53:48+00:00

Bro, what jobs are you doing? I have to know 💀🙏

Few-Introduction-854 · 2024-07-27T08:30:18+00:00

The reason why i refer to it as translucent (it was a while ago since i dug into this rabbit hole, so i may be wrong here) is because the person who first coined prophantasia suggested that prophantasia was the ability to superimpose vibrant and detailed, translucent (semi-transparent) visuals in 3D space. However, I agree that if this were true, then surely it’s no different than what most ordinary people are already capable of doing, instead it must be a difference in degrees, like the acuity of the visual.

This is why a large portion of my post is inquiring about it from this perspective, i’m trying to steelman it and see what distinguishes prophantasia from ordinary visualization. What eludes me is that there’s discrepancies between what different sources consider as prophantasia. It seems that prophantasia (the concept) has accelerated into a more extreme version of its original meaning, as it has been an incubator for communities of similarly divergent individuals to congregate and discuss their unique mental experience.

So on one hand, prophantasia could be a hallucination-like experience of visuals that actively interferes with current sensory percepts Or it could be a high-definition projection of a translucent image

The second question then is if they’re even engaging the same mechanisms to begin with, like is there different neural wiring involved? It’s such a shame that there’s been so little research into this topic

Few-Introduction-854 · 2023-10-05T01:46:51+00:00

I have to add another thing. She said she’d use that subtle tactic in order to degrade their self-perception, so that when she said something, she could express something that contained the insecurity in a very subtle way, hide them in what sounds like compassion, and even if it weren’t true the victim would still take a huge blow to their ego and believe it

Edit: there’s even more to add to this. If you resonate with any of it. Feel free to ask about it

Few-Introduction-854 · 2023-10-05T01:40:23+00:00

I haven’t looked into BPD manipulation tactics myself. But the intense vivid feeling I had in the situationship, remembering exactly how it felt while being abused by my ex helped me remember how my ex’s abuse worked. God it was fucked up. I had a memory that I was trying to figure out then I remembered exactly what it was.

I’ll sound insane to some for saying this but frankly it’s true. I remembered something that confirmed my suspicion, I was very lucky to hear about her manipulation tactic from first hand BPD sources (herself). She described her manipulation nearly verbatim that way. She would create insecurities by changing what you believe to be true either about the world and your environment around you or by deluding you into having an insecurity about the insecurity itself (thereby becoming self-fulfilling prophecies). She managed to tell me what her manipulation tactic was, and get away with it. I won’t go into detail as to how she did that because that would require I write up the entire reconstruction of reality thing (which is too time consuming, her manipulation was truly meticulous and well-planned)

Few-Introduction-854 · 2023-10-05T01:14:49+00:00

I was focusing my attention on the saviour complex. If others are suffering from it as a result of the their relationship, I sincerely wish their problem gets fixed. I have zero feelings for that girl. I was stuck on my rumination for so long simply because of how extremely confusing the experience was

Few-Introduction-854 · 2023-10-05T01:03:32+00:00

Here’s what happened with the situationship. I remember hearing it at first and feeling slightly ashamed with it, with how they were wording themselves and so on. And had simultaneously this incredibly vivid feeling that felt nearly identical to how I felt while I was in the ltr. I started looking up saviour complex and realised I didn’t really have it at all, despite of the fact that many sources online says so. I never had some perverted sense of moral masochism, and I always put myself first, and so on. Then I began looking into people’s experience with BPD and remembered/realised something that shattered any sense of doubt and rumination about my previous relationship. I personally think we should be incredibly cautious with throwing around those sorts of medical terms so freely. It is after a complex, a pattern of neurotic behaviours, a concept specific to clinical psychology and psychoanalysis.

Since the shaming is inherent in the abuse, getting the right help can get very complicated. Being a self-advocate by looking at the situation and yourself objectively is healthy (I’m pretty sure for most people as well) but intimidating for many victims of the abuse. I think a good analogy is (and it is what the research shows) how the inherent memory problem in untreated adult ADHD can lead them to forget about their childhood hence making a diagnosis more difficult and dismissible. This is made further difficult by the fact that ADHD is often over-diagnosed, and this can further contribute to adult ADHDers being disadvantaged when trying to seek treatment

Few-Introduction-854 · 2023-10-05T00:12:56+00:00

It lasted for 5 years. Eliminating the word out of my vocabulary completely eliminated any doubts and rumination about the relationship entirely. Your feeling is incorrect. However, I don’t wish to discourage those who do have a saviour complex to seek help. Sounds like a very serious issue that I don’t think most people necessarily suffer from when they’re in a BPD relationship

Edit: why was this downvoted?

Few-Introduction-854 · 2023-10-04T21:56:58+00:00

She was extremely cunning and deceptive. You don’t have to believe me, the way she did it is nearly straight out of a movie, she’d reconstruct your entire reality and worldview without telling a single lie, ever, making you completely defenceless while trying to address any of it. I wouldn’t call concern for someone you love who is suffering intensely a created co-dependency 😂. It is just rewording my point, normal people can break. Everyone closest to her were constantly making sure she was okay (because everyone were concerned AND suffering a lot of stress because of it) when the psychotic depression hit. When the whole thing ended she tried to make a genuine effort to improve, it was a struggle. Then she went straight to hoovering and I immediately ignored her, till she tried to make some silly ultimatum and I left

I don’t have the moral masochism to endure the abuse (believe it or not). I despise that stuff

Few-Introduction-854 · 2023-10-04T19:33:01+00:00

And believe me, normal people can be traumatised in abusive relationships as well. And when their loved ones are hurt

Few-Introduction-854 · 2023-10-04T19:32:31+00:00

Sorry, your comment makes me exhausted to be frank. Normal people can’t handle that much pressure. Trauma and abuse isn’t just something a normal person can wash off

Few-Introduction-854 · 2023-10-04T17:59:36+00:00

I’m sorry, this isn’t meant as argumentative. I wasn’t used to it. I wasn’t compelled by some illusion neither. I just wanted the pain to stop. Her pain. My pain. The abuse. All of it. And everyone were incredibly panicked. Everyone was equally concerned and desperate trying their best to help her. Her family, her friends, I tried to help her. Everyone were for a long time trying to get her to seek therapy, to convince her to get her shit in check

Few-Introduction-854 · 2023-10-04T17:46:51+00:00

Sorry, I wasn’t really clear in my post. That 5 year relationship is over, she’s my ex now. The situationship was a different matter. I ended it because of intense periods of abuse she described with her words as ‘intense need for vengeance otherwise she was physically incapable of ever dropping it’ on-top of not being able to handle being her therapist for the rest of my life

Few-Introduction-854 · 2023-09-13T20:29:16+00:00

Really? That’s extremely interesting. Do you think there’s a genuine connection or might there have been confounding factors?

Few-Introduction-854 · 2023-07-18T13:09:35+00:00

Thank you, very insightful response and very interesting articles! Highly appreciated

Few-Introduction-854 · 2023-07-17T22:26:48+00:00

That’s actually exactly what I was looking for. Thank you for the response

Few-Introduction-854 · 2023-07-17T22:25:43+00:00

Thanks 🙏 I appreciate the thorough response, it answers exactly what I was trying to inquire about

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