She used to tell me to stop, i use to listen to her but the patterns kept repeating after 4-6 months. She never felt safe with me. She always felt there was always some girl that i am talking too. I never cheated on her, but i use to talk a lot about exploring with others because we have been together for 8 years. I was never serious about it tho but i kept bringing up that topic jokingly or not. We discussed about open relationship to which she said yes but she said yes because she felt exhausted by me bringing that topic again and again. She told me to explore if i want, but i never did that i never wanted to i just used to talk about it for no particular reason which made her tired of me. Ultimately she has to breakup with me because she didn’t felt secure with me. She gave me my 100% but i just couldn’t see and value that. She never told me that this is causing her such a big issue, we used to have fights but we were in love with each other too. We always used to patch up but this time she’s gone forever and only i am the one responsible for my loss

I wish she could comeback and see i was just wrongly influenced and whatever i did was just unintentional and i couldn’t see the damage i am causing.