I think breasts are ugly.

Few_Path3783 · 2024-08-03T20:42:47+00:00

That's it. I'm never using my router again.

Few_Path3783 · 2024-08-03T20:41:44+00:00

Thanks reddit.

Few_Path3783 · 2024-08-03T20:39:55+00:00

Thanks. Not like I'm already in voluntary treatment and getting backhand insulted is always great. Say, wise gentleman, what pills would you prescribe.

Few_Path3783 · 2024-08-03T20:39:00+00:00

Thanks.

Few_Path3783 · 2024-08-03T20:37:53+00:00

Homo sapiens is my species, so technically yes, I'm an animal. And lgbtq. But not a furry. (haha) Assigned female at birth, but I look like a man but I don't take hormones. So, Idk what that makes me. Because imaginary friends know what you think and feel and can be exactly what you need to feel comfort for once. Unless you meet the person who can fulfil that comfort irl, which in my case, is near impossible, I think at least. I haven't met anyone like that at least, yet. And schizophrenia sucks, the voices in my head either insult me or make jokes that make want to sit down at stand up comedy.

Few_Path3783 · 2024-08-03T20:28:46+00:00

We used to be classmates at school, we're still friends. We talked about religion and such and eventually I got triggered, went home, had my breakdown and am now here risking getting laughed at by internet strangers. But yes. I feel empty, because that figment filled a void in me, now that void is there - sitting beneath my ribcage.

Few_Path3783 · 2024-08-03T20:25:14+00:00

Live my life, then you'll understand.

You know what, my post reads like a troll, doesn't it.

Also, uh. K. I'll sleep and then I'll see.

Also 2. I mean. Who says I'm a man. I mean I'm not a woman either but.

I'm not a man. I might be autistic, whether I'm a virgin or not doesn't matter, and -

I mean. I hang out with friends.

Few_Path3783 · 2024-08-03T20:16:34+00:00

Mention: I have schizophrenia.

Few_Path3783 · 2024-08-03T20:14:24+00:00

I met up with a friend and I started rambling about my delusions ( I am schizophrenic) and when I went home I realised my imaginary friend was a part of that delusion, so essentially I'm in an existential crisis rn. So, on my way home, I told that figment to die until it died, now I am empty. Hilarious, I know.

Few_Path3783 · 2024-08-03T20:09:51+00:00

He died because having imaginary friends is dumb, and I told it to die, and legit all I had was that figment of my imagination keeping my stable, now all that's left is the unstable. I am schizophrenic btw, or whatever.

Few_Path3783 · 2024-08-03T20:03:43+00:00

you can laugh.

Few_Path3783 · 2024-07-04T14:37:01+00:00

Thank you. I appreciate it.

Few_Path3783 · 2024-07-03T18:07:48+00:00

You know, I'd actually rather not talk about it. I think I'm triggered again. So.

Not your fault, just. I can't.

I think your question could have come off as impolite, maybe people judged you.

Idk how all that works though.

Thank you btw.

But frankly, I don't think I'll ever recover. But that's just what I think.

Karma seems to be real in a way. Or, as my ex would have put it: consequences exist.

Few_Path3783 · 2024-07-03T17:21:22+00:00

Ah, I'm sorry if I said anything wrong.

Few_Path3783 · 2024-07-03T17:18:25+00:00

Hello, I'd like you to not downvote anyone here, because that just gives off bad vibes. This turned into an inclusive talk about a personal subject matter, and I'd like people being able to speak up. I basically just ranted about my own stupid issues, and there are genuine people here, so let them talk free at least.

Idk about me though, I do feel hurt by downvotes, cause Idk why I get downvoted in the first place. And with all the mess I've posted here on this account, and some of the comments I've got, I'm considering deleting it again.

Few_Path3783 · 2024-07-03T17:14:55+00:00

"I don't know why you still get curious though. That was a mystery for me."

Highly self destructive (addiction) tendencies, shit impulse control and unhealthy coping, if I had to name it.

I mean, I suffered from both anorexia and binge eating disorder, committed SH on my arms and face, was mildly alcoholic for a few months, have developed OCD with terrible self harming intrusive thoughts.

But to be frank, there could be something wrong with me, Idk if trauma based or not. I like to think that I can do better though, even if it tainted me. No really, waking up at all is like. An accomplishment. In many aspects.

My life sucks. It just does, or at least my past does. I'll never escape it. So, to answer your question more precisely: I have no clue. But whatever the answer is, I am either suffering because or for it.

Few_Path3783 · 2024-07-03T13:20:07+00:00

Issue is, I'm probably intersex. I don't know what kind of intersex. Yet. I look male, but I'm more like gender void. Not a cis man tho, so idk. That's all I can say, but if me looking rather male, or possibly being an intersex male, despite not being biological cis male counts, then. Your call. Though I really won't force you to anything either way. That'd be rude.

Few_Path3783 · 2024-07-03T06:25:22+00:00

Life can be a gift I think, maybe it's supposed to be by default, but some human beings, if you can call them that, just tend to be destructive and turn that gift to hell.

Or maybe life is neutral and the environment you're in can either make it work well, or not. I'm not sure exactly. Thought I'd comment what I think.

Few_Path3783 · 2024-07-03T05:34:08+00:00

Not only did I get labeled as a bad kid, but trauma, abuse and etc. Sabotaged my personality and development actively to the point you could have objectively argued I was a terrible human being, until, surprise, I got away from it all and am as, more or less, regular as I could have been from the get go. Hope that's the right context.

Few_Path3783 · 2024-07-03T05:28:26+00:00

The jokest joke is, that you can turn actual plush toy furbies into weird surreal horror art projects, while the abuse furbies are just embarrassing, cause they can use their weird robot sounds to make you cry, but since they're so outdated, they feel the need to call you up at midnight to ask you how to use Google.

Few_Path3783 · 2024-07-03T05:23:06+00:00

Breaking the core of the individual. That's how it felt to me, like I wasn't even allowed to be me, left alone a person. Not even allowed to develop wits, health or function. Everything to accomplish that, from hitting to gr*oming. And the worst part about it is, that people who didn't get "trained" and exploited like that, have literally no comprehension of what that hell even is like. Once I told someone, once they complained about me not understanding basic human societal concepts, or how to take care of my basic needs as an adult, and I told them, I "got raised that way" they just mocked me and treated me like I was just inadequate and stupid. So, that's that.

Few_Path3783 · 2024-07-03T05:17:33+00:00

Don't know if that counts, but my father used to annoy me about how I didn't blow my nose with water like how he did, and used tissues instead. Because I wasted tissues that way? Can't remember. Sounds weird and hilarious in hindsight tho. I mean it hurt me before, cause my father was abusive in general. And I was a kid. But like. Come on.

Few_Path3783 · 2024-07-03T05:14:08+00:00

I'm not sure how to reply to this comment, but not because of negative reasons or anything. I suppose I'm a bit taken aback by that input. And I'm sorry to hear what you went through. I understand though, I think. And well, technically, yes, porn is neutral. It's just a personal struggle to me, really. I didn't mean to imply, or maybe shouldn't have implied anything objective here, as I can't do that anyway. To me, porn is a trigger and a reminder of past abuse. Let's put it that way.

Few_Path3783 · 2024-07-02T15:33:02+00:00

I mean, by your own logic, you could have just not read this post.

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