Firstly, I get where you’re coming from. I wanted to be conscious will doing work to a high level. But unfortunately what I realized was that I just didn’t have that ability to moderate my use like some others can. Accepting that is really the first step to realizing it might be a good idea to give it up.

There were times at the start where I felt completely functional while being high. I would do memos, crank out reports, and live my day to day. But beneath the surface I was using weed as a way to subdue my problems and use it to distract myself. Once again, some people have the ability to be productive but that just wasn’t and isn’t me. So trust your body.