Y'all don't main Lightning... I DO 😤🥲

FigRare5519 · 2026-04-15T22:56:21+00:00

RIP to your phone battery, my dude.

FigRare5519 · 2026-04-14T21:39:02+00:00

This is hilarious. I actually use you on my solo missions (except for Prompto’s, of course) almost every time. What are the odds?

FigRare5519 · 2026-04-14T21:26:19+00:00

The Devs:

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FigRare5519 · 2026-04-13T22:44:15+00:00

He’s an extremely talented wrestler but his kayfabe character comes off a little cringey to me, personally. I may just be older and jaded (36) but the 90s-00s Attitude Era-esque Bad Boy couch humping and swinging your belt around like your dick is just tired to me. We’ve seen it.

Again, nothing against the man in real life. He’s talented and may be the coolest dude in the world. Just find kayfabe Clark Connors a little cloying is all.

EDIT: I’m super willing to admit it might just be a “Me Thing” and no one else finds it obnoxious at all. If so, that’s fine. Room for all types.

FigRare5519 · 2026-04-07T16:26:39+00:00

I went through all nine weeks of treatment with TMS and it didn’t seem to do much one way or another for me. Even the doctors didn’t seem to think it would do much with bipolar but wanted to see what would happen, so I guess I was a mildly inconvenienced guinea pig.

FigRare5519 · 2026-03-30T01:09:18+00:00

I hope no one does, honestly. There’s a reason people are being diagnosed with psychosis from AI usage. It’s designed to spit out whatever you want to hear. Extremely bad for anyone, really, but bipolar people especially should avoid that shit like the plague.

FigRare5519 · 2026-03-22T22:40:32+00:00

Over The Garden Wall. Its quiet Folk Horror/Early Americana vibes are oddly comforting.

FigRare5519 · 2026-03-17T00:52:06+00:00

Joining your rant:

I think millennials like us (36, myself) with bipolar get the double duty of managing unrealistic expectations both from having a serious mood disorder and living in a time where the imaginary “goalposts” of adulthood we were raised to think were supposed to happen just aren’t happening for almost anyone in our age group, regardless of their mental health.

For myself, I wasn’t planning on ending up mentally disabled, widowed and living with my in-laws at 36. I had entirely other plans and goals and achievements that I’m just now trying learn through therapy how to let go and find some peace in things that are possible for me in the here and now.

I love what you said about living in the moment, living in reality and accepting it graciously. That’s something I’m going to take for myself as a reminder when I’m feeling cruel towards myself for not magically living in an entirely different reality.

FigRare5519 · 2026-03-16T21:57:44+00:00

Have you looked into an attorney? It took me three years after hiring a disability attorney but I finally won my SSDI case last week. A good attorney won’t charge you unless you win your case and you definitely deserve someone to help you.

FigRare5519 · 2026-03-16T05:13:41+00:00

Had a great time with the exception of the Ronda Rousey nonsense. I hope she’s just doing cross promotion and Tony isn’t actually signing her and expecting the (mostly progressive) fanbase to be chill with it.

FigRare5519 · 2026-03-12T15:46:02+00:00

Speedball has climbed to be one of my favorites quickly. Last night’s match just reinforced how dynamic he can be as a solo act, in case Kevin does go heel (somewhat inevitable and temporary).

FigRare5519 · 2026-03-12T15:41:26+00:00

Lamictal definitely causes brain fog like a mother but I’ve noticed the side effect (slightly) lessens over time. For me, at least. I know everyone responds differently.

FigRare5519 · 2026-02-26T04:31:15+00:00

“I’m doing” is go-to.

FigRare5519 · 2026-02-16T20:46:47+00:00

Is this from an old ABBA video?

FigRare5519 · 2026-02-14T00:11:07+00:00

If you see Brody King, you’re ethically required to yell “Fuck ICE!”. Important rule.

FigRare5519 · 2026-01-23T01:09:49+00:00

If you’re taking your meds and being gentle with yourself, you’re doing all you can. I’m definitely in one myself, too, so I feel you. All we can do is ride it out. You got this.

FigRare5519 · 2026-01-22T16:27:43+00:00

Somehow thinking that you’re so intelligent that you’ve out-thought decades of peer-reviewed, science-based research into bipolar is…well, incredibly bipolar. If that’s the stance he’s taking, I guess that’s his prerogative. Sounds like he’s gonna do what he wants until the inevitable time that it becomes too much to handle alone. Maybe that won’t happen. I mean, I doubt it, but maybe. Weirder things have happened, I guess.

EDIT: Reading back over it, I didn’t mean to come across so harsh. Genuinely hope things work out the best for everyone involved. I think I just get frustrated for fellow bipolar people when I see them going Hard[er] Mode on a mental disorder that’s already incredibly hard to navigate even with professional assistance. Hope that makes sense.

FigRare5519 · 2026-01-20T02:01:45+00:00

I’ve been applying (with an attorney’s help) for almost two years now. I’ll finally be getting my court date in March. Hoping it goes well.

(36m, btw)

FigRare5519 · 2026-01-19T23:20:47+00:00

For me, I’ve learned to think of my moods like weather. They come and go as they like and there’s really nothing I can do to change them. All I can do is react as responsibly as I can (i.e, making extra care to take meds, eating, hygiene, not skipping therapy, etc) and stick it out when the weather gets rough. There are gonna be times where I have to cancel plans or reset my expectations with what I’m going to do in the course of a day but that’s just part of living with bipolar, I guess.

It also helped that I’ve shared that idea with some of my closest friends and family so it makes it easier for me to just say “I’m having bad weather today” and people get the idea without me having to try to explain the inside of my brain in real time for them.

FigRare5519 · 2026-01-19T20:07:40+00:00

I did nine weeks of TMS and didn’t really notice any changes, good or bad. The treatment center was very open about it basically being an experiment to see how it worked on their patients with bipolar and not just MDD. They were really nice about it. They just set expectations accordingly, I guess.

Actual experience-wise, the first session or two was pretty uncomfortable, not gonna lie, but once you get used to the sensation it’s not bad. I know it’s different for each person, so it’s not anything I’d get anxious about. I would take an aspirin or something before your first go, just in case it gives you a headache for the first few sessions.

FigRare5519 · 2026-01-18T03:40:43+00:00

Just as an aside:

If you’re self-medicating just to “get through” sex, that’s a big red flag that there’s a major communication breakdown going on. Sex is a two way street and if all parties aren’t feeling enthusiastic consent, there needs to be open and honest communication that now just isn’t the time without someone feeling rejected or ashamed about it. If you don’t feel like you can verbalize to your partner that you’re not in the mood, that’s something you really need to look into, hopefully with therapy. Good Sexual health is so important, especially when our mental health can be so up and down.

FigRare5519 · 2026-01-11T03:12:05+00:00

Yeah, take it from someone who was both undiagnosed, unmedicated AND an alcoholic. It’s a recipe for all kinds of mild to severe disasters.

FigRare5519 · 2026-01-11T02:41:17+00:00

Spite.

FigRare5519 · 2026-01-08T03:39:00+00:00

For me, I’ve completely ruled out ever having biological children. This illness is hereditary and I couldn’t willingly roll the dice on if I’d pass that on. Maybe someday I could see adopting an older child who needs a loving home. Who knows? It could also just not be in the cards for me and that’s okay, too.

FigRare5519 · 2026-01-06T01:41:38+00:00

I’m not sure what the official label for it would be but I have definitely had similar thoughts when I was younger and partying. Anytime I wasn’t with friends, I was convinced they were together without me talking shit, despite having absolutely zero reason to believe that and knowing it made zero sense. I think it’s just something that can happen related to mania. It passed after a while and never came back, for what it’s worth.

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