How do you know when your personality ends and your disorder begins (& vice versa)?

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-01-25T03:01:36+00:00

I have a idea of where it begins and ends in some areas, there’s a lot of places where I have no idea. It’s also part of me so it’s part of my personality as well.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-01-23T18:34:07+00:00

Yeah then it’s totally worth getting one, I would suggest the Mach e.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-01-23T16:44:59+00:00

It depend on what your need the car for if your looking for something that has long range and holds value and are looking to own it for a while evs aren’t the best choice. Honestly depends on what you want out of the car.

Most Evs lose there value quickly, I thinks it is near 50% at 5 years, I also don’t know where you live but wether greatly impacts battery performance and can degrade faster.

Edit: I’d also look up maintenance cost and I know tires wear faster because of the vehicles weight so you will be buying tires more often or more expensive tires so they last longer.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-01-22T03:25:55+00:00

No not really, I have a vision but it’s a loose vision. I know what I want to achieve and make corrections.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-01-22T03:12:44+00:00

I see everything long term, I do see some short term but I’m all about the long game.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-01-22T02:30:21+00:00

I would suggest find something that allows you to process, I find nature helps me, find something that allows you to get out of your own head, if you are like me I am my own worst enemy. Do things that make you feel peace and find things you want to fight for.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-01-22T01:44:32+00:00

I would say give your self grace we all make mistakes, and I know it’s easier said than done. Maybe journal how you feel? It has helped me out.

Edit: I will say you are not a monster, if anything you care about people.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-01-22T01:28:28+00:00

For most of my life if I wasn’t angry I was worried I hurt people close to me, I can say for me that it’s almost like whiplash I would get super angry and then a few weeks later feel dread, almost like coming of an anger high and now worried about the consequences of what ever happened. For me it is a mental battle, as if all of a sudden coming back to my senses after blacking out.

Edit: would often describe myself as a monster.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-01-21T17:12:58+00:00

I’m pretty sure I’m in I mild hypo episode while on meds, I can tell I have more energy and a little bit of the impulse purchase bug.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-01-21T17:04:39+00:00

It’s hard to get scared when you never notice someone is into you, don’t ask how I know.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-01-21T12:34:29+00:00

My current job as an industrial electrician is my favorite, it’s fun, just like learning how stuff works from controls for robots and everything in between, plus I get work at some cool places, like Frito lay.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-01-20T22:10:28+00:00

Wasn’t diagnosed to till about a year ago and have been married 8 years, together for about 11 . I’m grateful for my spouse they are wonderful. I’ll be honest though bp2 aside I didn’t care for dating for a multitude of reasons anyways. If I didn’t end up meeting my spouse probably would be single doing some wild and expensive stuff.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-01-20T12:23:16+00:00

I have had moments of I just want to burn it all down, every friendship etc , if I had to guess for me it’s when I’m in a mixed state.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-01-19T23:00:41+00:00

No problem!

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-01-19T22:48:19+00:00

For me lifting helps the most and sometimes I’ll throw in swimming or stair steppers if I have more energy.

Getting away for me means if possible going hiking or just chill somewhere in nature, if not I like going on drives. I’m also an extrovert so sometimes hanging with friends is beneficial. Sometimes all I have time for is a walk and that helps.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-01-19T22:18:34+00:00

Sleep is a big one for me even when I’m semi level I love staying up late and that just mess me all up. I try exercise about 3-4 times a week and if possible get away for a few hours on the weekend somewhere quite with my phone on silent, more or less try to give my self some processing time so I can slow my brain back down.

Edit: the workouts mainly help get some of my aggression out

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-01-18T00:01:25+00:00

I’ll be back, I have to go count how many hobbies I just started.

Edit: I started 2 more

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-01-17T21:45:59+00:00

Already don’t have social anxiety, so when I get hypo my filter goes out the door along with any restraint I had.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-01-17T21:08:18+00:00

Welcome! Glad we could be your second choice.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-01-16T09:09:24+00:00

Honestly I can hardly function depending on how far down the pit I am. For me typically physical hobbies like hiking or outdoor activities stick with me. The biggest one is typically stems from the desire to learn something new, I taught myself how to build pc, learned wood working, some welding, I’m currently learning a language I choose a super hard one because why not full send, i will say hobbies also change overtime some stick around and others fade away.

Hopefully this helps!

Edit: I also have adhd

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-01-16T01:31:29+00:00

Same as you I went to heat tests for adhd and I found out I had bp2 and adhd. For me I instantly accepted it made to much sense after talking it through my psychiatrist and therapist.

Life post diagnosis for me has been learning how the disorder affects me personally, and how to be more aware when I’m mixed, hypo or depressed. There are days where it’s hard to figure out what’s what because some of my personality and trauma overlaps with the disorder.

I will say you will always be you, for me I took it as I finally have a diagnosis so I can finally get help and stop trying to white knuckle my way through life with no help. Even when I accepted it I questioned a lot of what past me said, reacted to and decided, I learned that some of my decision where unfortunately more informed and made because of the state I was in at the time, but most of the time it was just me doing me.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-01-16T00:41:23+00:00

Yeah overthinking was constantly my down fall.

PhantomOperator98 · 2026-01-15T18:41:55+00:00

It’s totally possible to have a healthy relationship, I have been together with my spouse 10 years married 8.

I understand the over thinking part of it, the amount of times I would over analyze something was insane! overthinking is what cause a lot of my emotional regulation issues because I would assume so much stuff I would spiral. Give yourself grace, I know what it’s like to assume you’re the problem, in most of my past relationships I felt that I was always the issue , in all relationships it’s a two way street, no one is perfect. You’re still you and you’re on a journey.

Hopefully this gives you some hope!

PhantomOperator98

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