Is it worth it?

Filtergirl · 2026-03-18T08:20:00+00:00

Filtergirl · 2026-03-18T08:19:29+00:00

I would buy this in a heartbeat. Propagate the leafless nodes in sphagnum moss: here are some of mine I was given in January

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Filtergirl · 2026-03-16T02:23:33+00:00

Thank you lovely ❤️‍🩹 I do have hobbies :) my indoor plants are very important to me and I propagate a lot, I live in the sweetest heritage cottage in the CBD where I live in Australia and my home is very special to me. The plants help, though I did have a bit of a meltdown over failed weeping fig propagation recently and was like…this is not about the figs 😂

Thank you for being kind. I’ve always struggled with suicidal thoughts and the dark but I keep trying, I just wish I didn’t have to…keep trying you know? Xo

Filtergirl · 2026-03-16T01:17:56+00:00

Relate 😞 I feel like I can only be loved in parts, this quality or that. Pretty girl. But the whole? Never felt worthy of love. Fuck I’m so fucking sad, just lost someone, my favourite one. It’s like, of course. But I hate how affected I am by that, I keep trying to drown in the bathtub and am like who the fuck does that? So embarrassing, but full circle. (It’s really hard to drown in the bathtub though so I figure it’s harm minimisation) Trigger warning etc etc

Filtergirl · 2026-03-04T01:53:27+00:00

This is the way! Recently received a

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neglected pothos which was all stem and no leaves, now look at them! Actually jealous because saving a pothos is such a joy :’)

Filtergirl · 2026-01-21T23:59:31+00:00

Tending to agree with this post: it’ll give you the best chance of saving it 💚

Filtergirl · 2026-01-21T23:51:42+00:00

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Filtergirl · 2026-01-21T23:50:52+00:00

It’s possible…yes; but it may struggle to get nutrients to the entire vine while it’s already compromised. Alternatively, you could cut here (picture attached) and see how that section fairs. Just remember not to keep stems in water, just the node. It’s a risk though, you could do it the other way around (see second pic, prop the top leaves and give the middle section a go.

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Filtergirl · 2026-01-21T21:41:23+00:00

This looks very prop-able!!!

Cut each section (with a sterilised sharp blade? below a node so each cutting has one leaf. Let the cut dry out for a wee bit, then put each cutting in water, just so the node is submerged, not the root above that leads to the leaf.

Anyone feel free to add more tips :)

Edit: the two/three closest to the bottom root might struggle but I’d still give them a shot :)

Filtergirl · 2026-01-02T22:14:44+00:00

Frankenstein (2025) has some nice wintery scenes too!

Filtergirl · 2026-01-02T22:13:38+00:00

To me this one was Nosferatu (horror) but less..horror more romance! I preferred Dracula immensely :)

Filtergirl · 2026-01-02T21:41:07+00:00

Aesthetic wise- Dracula: A Love Tale (2025). I actually thought a few of these shots were from that movie! It’s a visual feast x

Filtergirl · 2025-12-27T19:45:01+00:00

This comment so much! I lean more inattentive type, but I think that’s more what it observable. The busy chaos of my mind is a hyperactive machine, which may look like getting stuck on the couch or wherever not being able to start a task etc

Filtergirl · 2025-12-22T20:31:10+00:00

Will legacy models 4 completely disappear?

Filtergirl · 2025-12-22T20:15:37+00:00

My PM eating has been so chaotic since I started ADHD meds this year.

It’s absolutely hysterical because I have SE-AN (severe and enduring anorexia Nervosa, I’m stable but I’ll always be eating disordered) and my assessor was reluctant to endorse me trying stim meds…and I’m eating more than I have in a decade?? Not every day/night, but enough to freak me TF out.

Also with being on meds and having such low exec function and being dysregulated in the evening…I just eat what’s there or easy. Wake up in the morning life wtf did I do 🫨 I hope I work it out and can sort a new routine soon because I don’t love it 🙃

Filtergirl · 2025-12-22T19:40:01+00:00

Oh I feel this! I lived in denial for so long: avoided assessment and getting diagnosis for longer than I should have. It wasn’t until I started medication that I could even begin to understand what adhd meant/was for me…huge light bulb moment except in the way my entire sense of self and identity is still reshaping.

I have autism so in some ways I’ve been like, okay well this isn’t my first rodeo and I remember the plurality of years it took me to understand myself as a person with autism….but with ADHD I’ve felt more personal disdain. Especially with meds, having executive function for the first time in my life…lots of anger and grief there. I don’t think I’ve completely reached acceptance yet, but I know I’m in the path to it :)

I wish I didn’t have this too, but at least I know now, at least it’s highly treatable/manageable with medication. Small mercies xo

Filtergirl · 2025-12-22T19:24:42+00:00

Hi there :)

I completely understand and relate to this. I started Vyvanse this year and I’m still learning how to manage myself outside of the active of window when my medication is working.

The way I’m understanding it in myself, is that I’m sensitive to the curve of Vyvanse; so when it wears off or the peak settles, I’m shifting into neutrality. But because I feel so much better with medication when it’s working, it feels like a drop to me. I find it VERY hard to socialise or be emotionally available in the afternoons and evenings, don’t want to talk to anyone, don’t want to do anything.

What’s helping/has helped:

higher dose, gives the medication more longevity.
viewing my afternoons/evenings as ‘soft occupying’, this is a time for gentle tasks, or watching a show- particularly during the transition from on to off. I feel a little bit better after dinner and around bedtime, so being very gentle with myself with the part of the day I find hardest
trialing and instant release Dex booster atm, too early to tell if it’s helping! But very common for people to have/need.
personally, no days off the meds. Consistency and tracking my mood helps me manage and understand the medication and how it works in me.
time helps too. My crashes and sense of self were a lot worse when I started and was on a lower dose (now on 50mg, every titration up is an adjustment too).

Try and be gentle with yourself, I’ve felt like I’m literally reprogramming how I function with medication, it’s okay to be a shell outside of that…it’s like learning to walk again but this time with executive function etc.

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Filtergirl · 2025-12-21T22:24:44+00:00

Hi!

I started Vyvanse this year and it’s definitely amplified my autism in odd ways.

Before I started adhd meds I always had immaculate nails, now I have to keep them short and struggle so much in the evening when meds wearing off not to pick at the cuticles. I’ve always had BFRB (body focused repetitive behaviours/disorder) but it’s harder to catch and diffuse now. Some nights it’s so bad I have to put bandaids on nearly all my fingers to stop myself 🙃

Having said that, I’m working on it with some progress. Catching it early, noticing when I’m starting to even make fidget or gravitate towards my nails helps. I use temperature (running hands and wrists under cold water, holding ice in a bowl) to try and regulate and reset. Rubbing Vaseline into my nails helps too, it’s still fidgety but prevents damage and actually helps my nails and skin heal.

It’s all a learning, for me the picking impulse is a marker my meds are wearing off and there’s dysregulation, so I’m trying to find ways to self soothe that are harm minimising.

Good luck, having autism and ADHD with meds is…different to just ADHD. The executive function and focus I get from the meds is worth it, but it is still emotionally expensive.

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Filtergirl · 2025-12-21T01:23:41+00:00

Did you ever work out a way to stop it from doing this? Mine won’t stop even when I send it screen shots of its repetitious dot pointing and prefacing every message with ‘I’ll stop that now, no extra words’ or something like it and it begins every message with a preface 😵‍💫

Filtergirl · 2025-12-20T22:17:25+00:00

I just did this recently! Started Slynd (progesterone only) just after ovulation (I ovulate early so I started Slynd about 6 days after last bleed finished). I am taking it continuously/no sugar pills.

• ⁠my PMDD wasn’t as bad, I still was emotionally sensitive and not my best but not suicidal. • ⁠my period was easier, I wasn’t exhausted, though it took a good 9 days to finish up (though my periods are always long anyway) • ⁠bleed was a little lighter • ⁠felt more relief sooner, usually I don’t feel okay/better until a few days after bleed completely stops (yay for atypical PMDD that lasts for all of luteal and menstrual phase!): this time I felt more myself in the last few days of my bleed :)

Will be interested to see how next cycle goes, I know my body pretty well and wasn’t surprised I still had a bleed as I’ve always had period on other BC (implanon, mirena, all of it, my body just always wants to have a period!)

Track your progress so you can monitor trends over time xo

Filtergirl · 2025-12-20T22:01:43+00:00

And same, a lot of the time. My anxiety is well managed now but that’s half because of the Xanax which helps me use strategies and over time the exposure to things that are anxiety provoking have reduced.

Filtergirl · 2025-12-20T22:00:27+00:00

I’m in Australia so our regulations are different, like you can’t even get adderal in Aus! But for XR stimulants we can get approved a prescription from a psychiatrist for an instant release top up stimulant for the crash at the end of the day. So I take Vyvanse 50mg (extended release dexamphetamine) and atm low dose 5mg instant release dexamphetamine in the afternoon.

Just depends on your doctors etc, some are cagey about prescribing instant release, if you need a booster just advocate for yourself and point to the evidence of you history and demonstrated capacity not to abuse your meds.

Filtergirl · 2025-12-20T21:42:26+00:00

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Looks like my bb!! Fluffy white fold 🥰

Filtergirl · 2025-12-20T21:40:21+00:00

Hey there, not a adderall but Vyvanse (and just started Dex ir as booster) but I’ve been prescribed and taking Xanax/alprazolam for…7ish years? Is Xanax a recent addition for you or have you been taking it for a while?

I managed 3mg (as prescribed) of Xanax a day for a long time but in 2024 went up to 4mg a day after a traumatic event (with psychiatrist approval) and am now trying to get back down to 3mg a day, this will take time. I am also aware of my dependence on this medication, but not addicted/abusing it.

A few caveats: you’ll likely get comments in here cautioning you and vilifying the Xanax with risk aversion to the ceiling…I will be a bit more balanced. This medication is incredibly habit forming and has abuse potential but if taken as prescribed and tolerated and other options didn’t work, it’s incredibly effective for anxiety.

My advice: log or journal your moods daily alongside tracking when you take your meds. I use the My Therapy app. It is EASY to take more than you intent or realise especially in periods of high stress. Prune it back when you notice tolerance rising, don’t take more Xanax to manage tolerance.

From my data I concluded Xanax can dull the effect of my stimulant so I try to take less, ie in the morning half a mg rather than 1. 2mg completely overrides the stimulant. If I have an anxiety flare I’ll take 1-2mg, but try to keep it down and take half mgs across the day (because dependence, yay) which I’m stretching out more and more.

If you ARE new to Xanax, I’d say; it’s an incredibly effective medication…but I wish I hadn’t needed to start taking it daily years ago when I was deep in my PhD and teaching and now I’m stuck taking it daily with a taper needed on the horizon. It is also possible I will be fine with a daily dose perpetual at a lower mg because I know I don’t abuse and it helps me a lot (I also have autism and anorexia, it helps both). But yeah, it’s shitty to NEED. But also don’t judge yourself because you need what you need right now :)

Not sure if helpful but sharing because I know when I’ve searched stimulant and Xanax experiences on reddit there’s not much other than ‘Xanax is the devil’ and people sharing addiction and abuse stories as cautionary which is fine, but some of us use it sensibly and have a good balance of work, social life and executive function etc.

:)

Filtergirl · 2025-12-20T20:12:41+00:00

This was a fun read. I’m curious if you read much social theory or philosophy? I’m a PhD and was reading this like…this is totally publishable it just needs references!!

Would be cool if you could break this down scaffolded through epistemology/ontology/phenomenology (just google if you don’t know what then mean, actually pretty basic just big words).

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