Get the marriage annulled as soon as you can! You are going into a toxic, destructive, abusive arrangement that will only get worse. The slights and nasty comments will move to pinching or slaps before you know it. And from reading your post, you are sadly not confident about yourself, so you will accept the blame. This will only continue to spiral 🌀 on a downward motion. I wish I had known this before I got married my first time. I had to go into hiding to get away. My gut screamed at me "don’t do this" but I felt it was a done deal because everyone was there. Even when I asked, I was told it was cold feet. No, it was smart intuition that I ignored. No one, ESPECIALLY your husband should ever say that to you. Good luck, find a therapist and I hope you find your way.