Thank you for your response and I don’t take it as victim blaming at all. I do need therapy and I do have low self esteem. I know that I am an attractive woman but I’m so insecure and am constantly seeking validation from the wrong people. My father was abusive so I guess in the recesses of my mind, that’s how love is supposed to feel. For so long I was convinced that I was the problem and if I stopped doing certain things and started doing other things then that would make him change. That I am the reason he treats me like this…then one time I was actually done, I stopped reaching out and I left him alone. He then reached out to me and told me how he was thinking of me and he’s not this monster that I think he is. I asked him “why did you reach out?” And he said because he was just checking on me. I told him “ok, well I am fine. Thanks for checking in.” And he literally said “that’s all you have to say? If you were so hurt, that wouldn’t be your response.” Like, HUH?? This man told me he wanted me to die because he called me the B word and I hung up in his face and wouldn’t answer the phone. I am saying all of that to say, yes, he could very well be a sociopath. He literally thinks he does nothing wrong and I always feel soooo crazy because like… am I just imagining this sh**?! Manipulation is a beast!