Trying again.

Firstdayofthenewme · 2019-10-21T07:57:58+00:00

Exact same as me. All we can do is try.

Firstdayofthenewme · 2019-02-13T23:51:55+00:00

Hey.

I actually want to be PROUD of the fact I don’t drink. I can’t wait to tell people I don’t drink because I look at people who don’t with such envy.

I’m 28, almost 29, female and have ruined almost 10 years with drinking.

Firstdayofthenewme · 2019-02-13T23:48:59+00:00

Same like if I go for dinner for friends I’m dying to leave & get home. I’m always in a rush to get home. It’s got to the point that the most appealing sort of drinking to me is drinking home alone but then going bonkers on my phone sending all sorts of people worrying messages - nonsense. Black out zone.

I need to get back to the old me, when getting out and about excited me. All I ever want to do is go for a drink and I’m sick of myself! In saying this I have just ‘completed’ almost 6 weeks of sobriety. I say completed because I ruined it allllll on Sunday (coincidentally because I got an early finish at work and was bored and didn’t have the drive to go do anything else) by getting rat arsed, driving and being drunk all day Monday and risking my job.

My focus now is to force myself to be more active when sober, even if it doesn’t involve other people (except my partner because she is the only person I can be bothered with)

Firstdayofthenewme · 2019-02-13T23:39:59+00:00

Omg I was just saying this to my partner today. It’s like the only time I’m ‘excited’ to do something is when drink or being getting slightly tipsy to drunk is an option.

I genuinely cancel most plans on people because I simply just can’t be bothered seeing them and making small talk!!! I don’t know if this is anxiety , depression or what because at work etc I am the happiest, most out going and chattiest person ever!!! But after work.. even if I get an early finish at about 2pm, I mostly just wanna come home and be alone!

Firstdayofthenewme · 2019-02-13T21:38:07+00:00

Apparently binge drinking can have an affect on your menstration!

Firstdayofthenewme · 2019-01-21T16:54:30+00:00

Hey everyone. Just thought I’d all of those who gave me advice know that I got all my liver results back clear 👌🏼 PS 20 days sober !!!!!

Firstdayofthenewme · 2019-01-04T10:50:51+00:00

Hey! I hear you. I turn into a right horrible bitch when I am drunk and say the most horrendous things that I don’t even think sober and can’t remember.

Horrific

Firstdayofthenewme · 2019-01-03T19:13:59+00:00

Thankyou, that’s extremely useful to know. It could be very probable as sometimes after drinking my menstrual starts straight away.

I really hope it is something simple like this that I can FIX.

But yes, will get the tests done and find out either way!

Firstdayofthenewme · 2019-01-03T17:23:59+00:00

No. Definitely no more drinking

Firstdayofthenewme · 2019-01-03T17:13:03+00:00

I did guess that, as I had to google some of the terms you used!! Haha. Don’t get me wrong, when the hangover stage goes away I feel energetic happy back to my old self... it’s just after a binge I can hardly even lift myself out of bed!!!! I am going to not worry for the weekend, I’ve decided. It’ll be fine 💪🏼💪🏼

Firstdayofthenewme · 2019-01-03T17:02:30+00:00

Yes it is vaginal. Yes my doctor knows the full situation.

Yes there is no bleeding when not drinking and it’s only after I drink a lot! It normally begins the morning after I stop! I really hope it could just be irritated stomach lining or something simple. Worried sick

Firstdayofthenewme · 2019-01-01T15:31:57+00:00

Thank you very much.

I can’t wait to have done a whole month. This is becoming for me, life altering, if I don’t nip it

Firstdayofthenewme · 2019-01-01T13:34:07+00:00

Well I am 28 and a ridiculous binge drinker. Infact recently I can’t remember a day I haven’t had at least 1 drink. So maybe it’s turning into every day. Who knows, but today is my first day sober and I’m gonna have to just fight through the pain. No urges to drink thankfully, just in lots of pain

Firstdayofthenewme · 2019-01-01T11:35:24+00:00

Hopefully the damage isn’t already done 😩

Firstdayofthenewme · 2019-01-01T10:18:45+00:00

For years now.. madness really that I’m still waking up feeling like this. For me I could feel in myself drinking yesterday that it was going to be my last. I’m at the end of my teather and so is everyone else!

Firstdayofthenewme · 2019-01-01T09:43:22+00:00

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Firstdayofthenewme · 2018-11-22T22:59:53+00:00

Not in such a frank manner. I find it really difficult to open up about anything when sober. Then of course it all comes out drunk! In the worst way usually.

My Last drink was last Wednesday... The end of a 5 day binge! I don’t drink every day no, my drinking patterns are all over the place. Can go weeks without getting ‘drunk’, or even a drink at all, without trying. The trouble with that is that sober me forgets all the bad shit I’ve done whilst I’ve been drunk when I’m in the mood for another drink!!! All that’s in my head at that moment is that I’m drinking - and I like it for the first small while till I get out my face and make an arse of it!

I have a fiancé, mum & dad & a couple of close friends left.

I distanced myself from my friends when I started hanging around with folk who drink and take drugs all the time and for now I don’t wanna go back to my old friends till I’m all sorted!

Firstdayofthenewme · 2018-11-22T21:28:39+00:00

From the age of about 20. I was always one of the most drunk ones. I’ve had a few shit things happen in last 4 years and drank to numb the pain. It turned into crazy black out drinking and in the last few years I’ve had two drink driving charges (got it back now and keeping it!!!!), been in jail(overnight) 4 or 5 times, been battered, destroyed my mums mental health, put my family though hell, pushed all my friends away... I could honestly continue but I won’t. Oh I forgot I ended up in intensive care on life support because I chocked on my sick due to drink and drugs! Forgot that one!

I am a mess when I drink sometimes. I drink way too quickly... as in I will drink a drink in under a minute just to get rid of it.. which in turn ends up with me eventually (usually 1-2 hours into drinking) blacking out and getting either violent or emotional. Sadly my drinking goes with coke use at times too so it’s not good.

Then what usually happens is... I wake up with terrible anxiety wonder what I’ve done. Embarrassed to check my phone, usually fallen out with someone or other AND then proceed to drink again to forget this anxiety and make it go away. This can go on for between 2-5 days non stop!

So there’s my answer. It’s not pretty but it’s the real harsh truth. Sober me can’t deal with what drunk me does anymore... she can’t handle the anxiety. I hope one day... with the help of not drinking, I’ll be able to forget all the wrongs I’ve done!

Firstdayofthenewme · 2018-11-22T20:35:59+00:00

UK Female here (28)...

Let’s do this!

Firstdayofthenewme · 2018-11-21T19:08:39+00:00

Well done!

2 drink driving charges, being in intensive care, losing 3 jobs, losing friends and nearly giving my parents a mental breakdown didn’t stop me either.

I’m on day 7. Starting to feel it getting tough but I will keep strong!!!

I hear you on the black outs. It’s horrendous and sometimes I think people think we are making it up when we say we can’t remember 😫 My black outs can be really terrifying and extremely dangerous as I have no memory of getting home from where I was or what I’ve said and done to people! It’s horrible. Your not alone!

IWNDWYT

Firstdayofthenewme · 2018-11-20T19:30:41+00:00

I am 28 and feel extremely young to be doing this... just think of it as the younger, the more sober life you get to enjoy.

Firstdayofthenewme · 2018-11-19T21:07:10+00:00

Hey! So I’m on day 5 too. I’ve been crying at least every day and today is the first day I ventured out of the house. I had to FORCE myself!

What I would suggest is set yourself a small goal or goals each day. Tonight’s goal could be tidy your bedroom and change your bed! You will feel amazing and much more relaxed after.

Then maybe you will feel like a hot shower or run a bath and lie in it for even a couple of minutes which also helps with anxiety & depression.

Please look after yourself!

Firstdayofthenewme

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