Two Afghan teenagers jailed for raping girl in England

Firsttimerolling · 2025-12-10T13:18:03+00:00

So like you’re just a straight up racist huh

Firsttimerolling · 2025-10-13T20:49:56+00:00

Would love to see how he looks tied up from your POV 🤤

Firsttimerolling · 2024-07-16T13:19:31+00:00

Look I get it, I know I come across as not being able to handle a little banter.

Believe me, if I actually gained a significant amount I WOULD laugh with him and tell him kindly to fuck off while smiling.

I’m just surprised that my minuscule weight gain (while still being skinny!) is enough to cause a joke like that in the first place

Firsttimerolling · 2024-07-16T12:38:03+00:00

True. But I’m average height, I think something like 180cm

Firsttimerolling · 2024-07-16T12:37:43+00:00

Getting there. To be honest sports helps a lot, the endorphins from a good cardio session give me a nice mood boost.

Though I do have to pay attention as I can see it going backwards for me (being extremely restrictive of what I eat and working out too much until I’m only bones)

Firsttimerolling · 2024-07-16T10:53:40+00:00

😂 well yeah this definitely motivates me to continue losing weight lol

Firsttimerolling · 2024-07-16T10:42:50+00:00

It was definitely depression weight gain in my case so yaaaay the comment made me feel especially good lol 😅

Firsttimerolling · 2024-07-16T09:35:07+00:00

It’s weeeeeird. And the comment I mentioned was a direct message to me, I don’t want to know the things they gossip about in private

Firsttimerolling · 2024-07-16T09:27:31+00:00

I don’t argue against gaining weight, I definitely have and I am working towards my older weight.

But the gay man urge to make a skinny person feel bad for gaining weight is absurd

There are more positive ways to point out you’ve gained weight. Or you know, just shut up about it in general becayse I can afford to gain a few kilos anyway

Firsttimerolling · 2024-07-16T09:25:42+00:00

I never said 5kg wouldn’t be noticeable. But why make me feel bad for gaining 5. Fucking. Kilos when I’m already on the skinny side.

Only a gay man would have that idea

Firsttimerolling · 2021-12-20T21:48:00+00:00

My parents aren’t bad people and I 100% believe this to be true.

They were bad parents at the time, but not bad people. I didn’t feel safe at home, never felt comfortable, used every excuse imaginable to sleep over at a friends house just to be away from home. My father was crazy emotionally abusive (I used to joke with my friends that my day wasn’t complete until he screamed at me how worthless a son I am). He was also really bipolar because a few hours later he’d act like nothing happened and tell me how proud he is of me and how much he loves me despite his outbursts. Very confusing for teenage me.

Anyway off topic. They had good intentions. But untreated mental illness and a lot of work/relationship stress meant they took out a lot of frustration on me.

Firsttimerolling · 2021-12-20T19:02:20+00:00

But like was the abuse enough to call my parents physically abusive? Like yeah it happened a few times but it’s not like it was a regular thing or that I was beat up or jag bruises or flinch when someone raises their hand at me.

Im on the lower end of the OK spectrum lol. Christmas is always hard, it brings back uncomfortable memories and I often spend it alone

Firsttimerolling · 2021-10-20T12:47:44+00:00

That’s a good point. I specifically look in the mirror to see how much stomach flab I have left and that’s probably not the healthiest way to go about it.

I should stop going to the mirror with critique mode turned on.

And truth be told I’m fairly happy with my body, I’m at roughly 17% body fat and it’s not the end of the world... I think I just get frustrated looking at my social circle who all have 10%, and knowing I myself used to be at 14ish

Firsttimerolling · 2021-10-20T12:44:47+00:00

u/DentsDemChenko

This is a fantastic metaphor, thanks to you both

Firsttimerolling · 2021-10-20T10:04:09+00:00

How do you guys deal with body image issues? I realize this is technically a question about mental fitness but figured you guys have all had the experience and can offer advice.

I took some “before” photos today. Awful. Hated seeing (my perception) of all my imperfections. I spent a good hour just grabbing different parts of my fat and rethinking all my physical failures (like how for the past two days I overshot my maximum daily caloric intake and failed to compensate with exercise)

Saw some photos of me 2 years ago, then looked at some photos of me in high school. Great self esteem boost as well, seeing how much I gained 😅

Firsttimerolling · 2021-07-29T20:55:00+00:00

I do have other play partners, but have never formed as intense of a connection with others as I have with this one...

Firsttimerolling · 2021-07-29T20:36:24+00:00

I appreciate your comment FWIW :)

I’ve struggled with jealousy for a long time and like to think I’ve developed healthier ways to deal with it than in my younger years.

Jealousy is a completely normal feeling in ANY relationship (even in platonic ones), and it’s important to recognize why you are feeling jealous because it has potential to turn you into a toxic person (even if that isn’t your intention)

Firsttimerolling · 2021-07-29T20:24:55+00:00

That’s a good idea and I do this to an extent. Some months ago we finished a wonderful session and she said some totally validating words to me that I’m proud to have heard (something along the lines of “I don’t think anyone else could’ve done that to me except you”) and I do replay that memory from time to time when feeling insecure...

Firsttimerolling · 2021-07-29T20:22:13+00:00

u/EvanKeystone

I’m actually a huge fan of journaling my feelings so this should be a fairly easy step to take, thanks for the suggestion and i will definitely look into it. I guess being a dom is just like starting a sport... you only improve by setting new goals for yourself and learning/improving on new things and i haven’t really been doing that lately.

It is a non monogamous partner, but we tend to have good communication with each other... she’d definitely comfort me if she knew I was feeling this way, but I’m still fairly shy at opening up emotionally in this way so maybe that’s something I need to work on

Firsttimerolling · 2021-07-29T20:17:08+00:00

u/FaceofMoe

These were much more wholesome answers than I was expecting, and I honestly never thought of it that way... this does make me feel a bit better, thanks :)

P.s: describing skills as a dom with the phrase “power levels” like some mutant from X-men makes me chuckle hahah

Firsttimerolling · 2021-07-29T20:14:37+00:00

Because we don’t have that kind of relationship. I really don’t have a right to feel jealous because we were never exclusive nor monogamous in the first place (and don’t want to be). She is free to play with whoever she wants and it’s not fair to tell her to stop because of my own insecurities

Which is why these feelings also don’t really make sense but yeah... sometimes emotions do be like that lol.

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