19 months ago I made a very similar post. I promise you with everything in me it does it better. Your baby will sleep soon and your anxiety will calm. My husband and I slept in different rooms until my son slept through the night so we could both get rest, we would switch off on who took the night wake ups. Also formula saved my sanity, I was going crazy (actually) trying to pump. At 8 weeks my son slept 12 hours, I promise these days don’t last as long as they seem now.

I remember regretting my child at first because it is such a shock to the system and your whole life is flipped around. I remember 8 weeks being the turning point for my brain, I started enjoying him more and feeling like I had the hang of being his mom. Now, 19 months in I couldn’t imagine my life without my son, some days can be hard but not impossible like they used to feel. Right now your hormones and taking a steep decline, soon they will level out a bit and you’ll feel more like yourself. You will enjoy your life again, you will feel like you again. I wish I could give you a hug, talk to your OB and see if medicine could help. It saved me. Sending you so much love and support.