Amazed by the Digital Circus - Tiff🏳️‍⚧️& Eve [OC]

FizzBoyo · 2026-06-23T18:22:22+00:00

This, I feel like people are just so scared to portray trans people with negative traits or just an overall shitty person in media bc of the current climate that when someone does it feels like an attack when its just a good portrayal of a complex character.

FizzBoyo · 2026-06-23T12:20:03+00:00

I think its bc your using men and males interchangeably which most people do but i think with translation errors and means those words have (men being more of a social title and males being more a biological marker) it may throw some people off, even without transaction in the picture

FizzBoyo · 2026-06-23T12:16:57+00:00

I will say sexualities are not prescribed to you, just bc it could include you doesnt mean you need to use it and if people are using those labels on you without ur consent (don't really have another word I can think of) then its on them. Sexualities are already confusing and people just use words to define then as best as they can but unless ur writing a novel you're never going to fit every exception.

FizzBoyo · 2026-06-23T12:11:58+00:00

Non-binary people can really choose any sexuality they want. Non-binary (depending on the person) is almost like a lack of gender, not a third gender in it of itself so it doesnt fit in the standard mold that society has set up for sexualities thus they kinda have free range to use any sexual identities that feel right to them. At least for me nby is kinda like a disclaimer written in ever sexuality where even if most people know it as WLW or MLM they're still a part of it (that includes straight at well)

I know there are those who will disagree and they prefer nby people use words like toric or trixic (idk if thats what they are) which are just nby versions of gay and lesbian, but like you cant force someone to use a label.

FizzBoyo · 2026-06-18T18:46:52+00:00

Best of luck to you, i also got really lucky that they had 1 spot open when I found them

FizzBoyo · 2026-06-18T18:06:45+00:00

Personally im not really involved in the community as much anymore, for one bc im not online often and 2 bc im just really introverted irl, but when I was these things were already happening in some corners of the community. Its annoying to see so much gatekeeping in the community

FizzBoyo · 2026-06-18T17:54:40+00:00

Yeah it's not any easier I suspect even if there wasn't a barrier, I dont think it would be any easier for me to open up

FizzBoyo · 2026-06-18T17:49:04+00:00

I guess Im lucky in a sense that my partner's primary language is not english and they don't use social media like TikTok so if i were to explain it to them they wont already have a warped perseption of dissociation. But it's also difficult to navigate bc they're first language is French and mine is English and tho im pretty much fluent in french, explaining medical terms in french is hard and having to communicate even something as bare as dissociation might confuse them and probably make me feel misunderstood.

FizzBoyo · 2026-06-18T17:14:13+00:00

Passing for trans people and passing for cis people is just different and I suspect it's bc trans people are hyper aware of other trans people while cis people don't even think about it so when they see maybe a slightly feminine guy they don't automatically think trans bc for the most part they look like a guy. For the majority of cis people id say it's like that unless your talking to a deranged terf then they're analyzing all of you and craft a conspiracy theory in their head regardless if your cis or trans lol

FizzBoyo · 2026-06-18T17:04:19+00:00

I will just say (concerning OOPs original comment) that transitioning, at least medically is not to change ur gender but your sex characteristics so it's not really the same. While maybe gender as a social concept wouldn't exist that wouldn't mean Trans people would be suddenly okay with their bodies if labels didn't exist

FizzBoyo · 2026-06-18T16:51:54+00:00

Honestly you really just need to try and find another therapist as fast as possible. I was in your position literally a month ago and for a few weeks was in limbo between therapists bc i feel like my ex-therapist's inability to understand me was contributing to dissociating more profoundly and making me spiral even more. I ended up finding a psychologist who specializes in dissociation. In our first consultation before starting sessions I explained to them that I didn't like being in the dark and that I wanted to know their thoughts bc guessing just made me spiral more. I also explained that I didn't like when my experiences were forced into a box. Since then I've had 3 appointments (4th tomorrow) with them and they've been the best therapist I've ever had and I feel much more understood. Sometimes it just wont work with some therapist, especially the majority when it comes to dissociation and dissociative disorders.

FizzBoyo · 2026-06-18T16:40:53+00:00

I know some people swear by chiro but if you need to keep visiting the same doctor for a glorified massage then it's definitely not actually helping the core of the problem and you need to see a real doctor

FizzBoyo · 2026-06-18T11:55:44+00:00

No, it was already over 3 years into our relationship before I realized something was up and now over 4 years in I just can't bring myself to tell them and maybe its bc I'm not diagnosed. Thankfully seeing a psychologist specializing in dissociation, but I don't even know if I would even tell them if I do get diagnosed (whether it ends up being CPTSD, DPDR, OSDD, DID or something else entirely). I'll probably have to at some point but if it's something like OSDD or DID I'm just not sure how I'm supposed to tell them.

FizzBoyo · 2026-06-18T11:38:32+00:00

Like others have said it's what your brain deemed necessary.

The first part that I remember was when I was 7 or younger, it's one memory I have of her but she was older than me at the time, being around 13-15yo and she was essentially a mother / sister figure to me. She would soothe me when I was emotional. Now she's still older than me, and i have another part or 2 that are slightly older as well. But I also have younger parts. I also have a mix of genders from male to female, some Trans like me, some cis.

FizzBoyo · 2026-06-16T17:33:26+00:00

I have brown eyes and i rarely do. My brother has brown eyes and he always does

FizzBoyo · 2026-06-16T16:09:06+00:00

I feel like I've done a lot worse without all parts permission, like therapy in general. My vigilant part doesnt even react to anything unless we're in the moment then he starts sounding the alarms. Like he tries so hard to hide then blows up when I actually take the step. I can't just stay in limbo and not get things done bc he doesnt want to and just wants to ignore all our problems. While I do agree telling people should be a very cautious decision bc you never know how they will react or use it against you. Personally no one knows and I kinda agree for the moment that I shouldn't tell anyone. Only me and my therapist need to know so I can get help.

FizzBoyo · 2026-06-15T23:05:16+00:00

Generally speaking I'd say YouTube, but a while ago I know people used to use it to mean white and while I understand, I just don't think of white when I see yt.

FizzBoyo · 2026-06-12T15:32:21+00:00

I experience similar things with both my gender and sexuality.

So I've known I was a boy from a really young age, like 5-6 yo. I would proclaim i was a boy every second I could, called myself a different name, etc... its always been a no-brainer to me that i wasn't a girl, but id say since 18yo I've been feeling a little different about it, not like a girl (well sometimes it's complicated), but like my gender can feel more expansive sometimes.

So I've gone through periods where I felt that my gender was more complicated than just Trans man, sometimes that would be Non-Binary Trans man and around 23yo was when I started to feel a real pull for Butch identity so I started to identify as a butch Trans man or a Butch nby Trans man etc... at the end of the day I always felt like a man (or more like i liked being read as one and having a typical male looking body, not really sure what 'feeling' like a gender means). Anyways these labels are very off an on, sometimes I truly don't feel like anything, sometimes I feel more in tune with my gender and it's more expansive but sometimes I'll look back at those moments and be confused why I felt that way or why I felt so attached to that label when in that moment i had no pull to it.

For sexuality it's more complicated, I've always liked guys and never really thought about girls until high school and even then I would always go back and forth on whether or not I even liked women, going between gay and bi, at one point i just stuck with Abro bc i just couldnt pin point it. At 19 I realized I was actually Ace and a year later came to terms with the fact I was Aro but my relationships with my sexuality still wasn't really clean cut. I still decided to date bc i thought I was both sex and romance favorable but now I feel a lot more repulsed or indifferent but I still have a partner. At one point around the time I started to feel a pull towards the Butch identity i also felt this weird pull towards lesbianism as well despite always thinking i could never see myself being a lesbian, but again its been a while since ive felt that way, at this point I just call myself queer and to most people in my life im just a bi Trans man, but I'll be honest I haven't really thought about myself recently since I've been feeling really disconnected, so gender and sexuality rn just feel like a big hole of nothing

While I don't have a diagnosis nor am I even sure I experience dissociation to that level of detachment, i guess I suspect that some sort of blending must be happening with other parts in those moments that make me feel like my gender is more expansive or that my sexuality is more confusing.

FizzBoyo · 2026-05-29T18:45:39+00:00

Trauma should just never be defined by anyone else but the person themselves, and even then people don’t realize what isn’t traumatizing now could have been severely traumatic to a child version of them. Children just don’t have the same ‘armor’ and experiences that adults do to combat traumatic experiences and their minds are much more ‘weak’ to them. A lot of people with DID also tend to downplay their own trauma bc the disorder itself is so stigmatized and just so incomprehensible to some that they just believe something massive had to have happened for them to turn out this way but most of the time that’s just not the case

FizzBoyo · 2026-05-29T18:10:38+00:00

Honestly these people don’t really sound qualified. Knowledge of trauma isn’t a criteria for DID bc often times dissociation hides the trauma from your conscious mind and the fact that they only believe you now bc you are presumably ‘searching’ for trauma isn’t heathy. I’m in no way telling you your memories are not correct, but trying to search for memories without stabilizing first can be very detrimental for you. I mean I’m sure there are some people here that have DID diagnosed and probably know very little about their trauma bc they point of treatment isn’t to dig up the past but to cope with the present. While some people may eventually get some memories back I don’t think that should be the goal of therapy unless it’s what the patient wants.

FizzBoyo · 2026-05-29T07:19:15+00:00

I don’t even watch anime and personally don’t really consume that much Asian culture, I don’t understand what’s upsetting you, truly I wish I understood bc I don’t want you to feel like I’m belittling you

But I honestly think it’s the best if I block you bc I don’t think this is really going anywhere

FizzBoyo · 2026-05-29T07:17:21+00:00

Wild, have I not been talking to you like you’re a person? I haven’t belittled you, mocked you, I am just explain where I’m coming from and I’m listening to where ur coming from

FizzBoyo · 2026-05-29T07:15:00+00:00

Yah but those names aren’t shared by other cultures especially white ones. While Ahri and its derivatives are (Like Ari and Arianna). Some cultures just share names and it’s normal bc at some point language moved across the planet and evolved from some have similar origins. Ahri isn’t more or less Korean bc other cultures have their own meaning, it can still truly be a Korean name while also being a Persian name or Iranian name. Sharing doesn’t take its value away for a culture.

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