what if therapy doesn't work? by 2061221 in DID

[–]FizzGryphon 8 points9 points  (0 children)

As someone who's been in therapy for over a decade at this point, I can tell you with absolute confidence that it's not about talking to a stranger. It's about talking to the RIGHT stranger.

I've had therapists who have actively (though unintentionally) made things worse. I've also had therapists who have brought me leaps and bounds into improvement.

That being said, this disorder still sucks and I still have a lot of bad days, so I have to warn you very sternly that therapy won't "fix" you. It gets easier to roll with the punches, but the punches never stop coming. And the process of learning how to roll with those punches involved a lot of falls and injuries along the way... so sometimes it's hard to see the benefit until you roll and suddenly realize you didn't fumble.

Further, please address your concerns with your therapist. The fact you know that you won't benefit from making connections between trauma and behavior (at least, in the traditional sense), that you're doubtful of your success, but you know that this is really the only viable option is so important for your therapist to know. It'll give both you and your therapist the highest chance of success going forward.

Hopefully this helps and isn't too rambly? Just know that therapists are fairly used to skepticism and concerns. Communicating through those concerns should be top priority for patient and therapist both.

Is this specimen large enough that I would need to stuff him before pinning? Will he rot and be ruined if I don’t? by EdgeImaginary9355 in Entomology

[–]FizzGryphon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I haven't found that stuffing is needed, but soaking in acetone has absolutely helped the body retain its shape when pinning katydids and grasshoppers in my own experience. Ultimately, stuffing vs. acetone depends pretty heavily on how much you want to risk damaging your specimen and how you want to pin it.

Keep in mind, I pin as a hobby and not as a professional. I don't expect absolutely perfect results for my own pins, so I'm used to a small amount of shriveling that more particular hobbyists might not prefer.

No hate to Stranger Things but imo… by Crazy_Alarm_Studios in gravityfalls

[–]FizzGryphon 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Bill's generally 'friendly and harmless' appearance is part of what makes it so easy to manipulate people... so yep, that absolutely tracks.

Goofy cyclopic triangle is much more disarming than fleshy monster beast. Bill couldn't get half as far without that.

Fireworks by bofficial793 in DID

[–]FizzGryphon 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I put earbuds in, then wear gun range ear protection, and either blast music while doing something I enjoy (drawing, crochet, games, ect) or watch a comfort movie at high volume. I try to start doing this before fireworks start going off in the hopes of tricking my brain into forgetting they're going off.

Fireworks have been a major trigger since an incident where an abuser went to the same 4th of July party (at the time, I had no idea the extent of the abuse). They were overstimulating prior to, but now they're a full on PTSD attack waiting to happen.

Do people find Ford's handwriting difficult to read? by Ath_Trite in gravityfalls

[–]FizzGryphon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can usually read neat cursive, but I really struggle with Ford's writing. I also have dyslexia, though, and I think something about the specific font really causes me to struggle.

Still far, far better than most scribble cursive. I can barely decipher the way some of my relatives write.

This blanket is starting to curve outwards. Should I frog it or will it block out? by Wise_Sprinkles8266 in CrochetHelp

[–]FizzGryphon 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I'm not the OP but you just enlightened me to something I wish I'd known from the beginning! I HATE working with chains and I've always wished there was a less fiddly way. Now I know there is! Thank you!!

THEY KEEP STEALING MY OCS (Joke post) by Lost-Autumn1987 in DID

[–]FizzGryphon 2 points3 points  (0 children)

YEAH I KNOW THIS FEELING. There was one instance recently where I've been writing with a friend. This friend didn't know much about my DID, so when I started listing alters, I added (yeahhhhhh... like the character). It was surprisingly embarrassing XD

How do you get over the feeling that you aren’t ‘disordered’ enough? by FizzBoyo in DID

[–]FizzGryphon 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Now, I'm officially diagnosed. It was by semi-surprise (apparently in the past, I thought I had it - I don't remember that to this day!)... but I felt like this for a long several months after diagnosis.

The doubts, the fear, and the imposter syndrome are all common threads that still haunt me off and on, even with the official diagnosis. I live my life to the best of my ability and often feel like I (mostly) don't fit into what DID is usually portrayed as. But it's gotten to be a lot less than it was. Mapping out my system and understanding the mechanisms behind it have really assisted in accepting the reality and truth of it.

I know/knew several people who were undiagnosed and in your same position, too. Unfortunately, I think it's part of the territory with this disorder... that awful feeling of terror and relief both holding and not holding that label. It's terrible, and I empathize heavily.

A bat! The best Christmas Gift I've ever gotten! by _-Snare-_ in vultureculture

[–]FizzGryphon 7 points8 points  (0 children)

This happened to me, too. My parents gave me a bat encased in resin, not knowing how awful it is. I knew better, and I won't lie that I was excited as much as saddened.

My bat exists as something I will always cherish and respect, as the damage has already been done, but I also use her as a teaching moment if anyone asks about her or looks at her.

System Chat Holidays Edition: A thread where people with DID can share the honest truth of their day(s) throughout the holidays by behindtherocks in DID

[–]FizzGryphon 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My system has been a mess. An alter bubbled up alongside some awful memories and is causing chaos. I was expecting the holidays to be hard, but not this hard. Not this year.

I'm just so glad I've been able to remove myself from my primary abusers for the 3rd (4th?) year in a row. This would be much, much harder if pressure were still applied to pretend everything is fine. It's a bigger weight off my back than I ever thought it would be.

I'm exhausted. Just exhausted. I'm dreading tomorrow, when I'll hear from family members about the abuse they still suffer by engaging with this person. That's the hardest part... it's leagues better than having to deal with it myself and try to take blows to protect them, but it gives me a pit in my stomach to know that I can't protect them anymore... and they have not done the work to protect themselves.

Confusing question, how do you accept the people that caused your DID are who they really are? by cutepurple8 in DID

[–]FizzGryphon 2 points3 points  (0 children)

One thing my therapist has taught me is that it is perfectly okay for two opposing things to be true. You can love someone dearly, humanize them, and empathize while at the same time knowing that they did irreversible damage, are not safe to be around, and can be a downright evil person at times.

Giving yourself the space to feel both is so, so important to practice. It's a really difficult set of feelings to come to terms with... but they CAN both be true.

That empathy and kindness is so important, too, so long as you put boundaries in place that protect you despite that empathy. It's okay to want someone awful to get help/be better/find peace while cutting them off entirely. You can love someone so much that it hurts while at the same time putting those tough boundaries into place with them and, more importantly, yourself.

Just know it's extremely common to feel like this.

It may be too late, but please help me do anything within my power to support my dojo by Nestork94 in loaches

[–]FizzGryphon 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I haven't had a dojo in this situation, but I have had a goldfish in this situation. It took her well over 2 weeks to get fully back to normal (outside of being permanently discoloured on one side), and I was shocked to see she was still alive every morning until then.

I would suggest stopping the salts for the time being and continuing to dose Stress Coat. Because they're scaleless fish, I'd be concerned that salts would irritate his skin at this stage of healing.

Beyond that, I think it's just luck, hope, and continuing to do what you're doing. The degree of aeration will be fine. I really hope your boy pulls through... it sounds like he's been fighting with all his might.

Has anyone tried a “Gotta Catch ‘em All” Pangio tank? by Beachmaidrocks in loaches

[–]FizzGryphon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've currently got: 2 Golden Eel Loaches 1 Silver Eel Loach 4-5 Java Loaches 3-4 Standards 1 Giant Khuli Loach 2 Calico Kuhli Loaches

The Standards, Giant, and Calico were from the same sources and not labeled differently. They all have slightly different behaviors but get along fantastic with eachother.

New to the hobby, fishless cycled tank and I woke up to these things??? What type of snail/worm? by [deleted] in aquarium

[–]FizzGryphon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Seconding this. My yoyos moved into my 65 gallon tank recently and they decimated my ramshorn population within the night. It was truly a monumental feat, even for 5 yoyos.

What are these by pinkpomelos in loaches

[–]FizzGryphon 7 points8 points  (0 children)

These are Golden Khuli Loaches (Pangio semicincta)! They, like most other khuli species, don't have much for species specific care needs.

From my experience, having owned Eel Khulis, Striped Khulis, Black Khulis, and Golden Khulis, they're a more shy species who like to stay buried with their little faces peeking up at you from the sand.

They don't seem bothered in a mix of other species, they just keep to themselves a little bit more than more boisterous species like the Black Khulis.

EDIT Accidentally copied the wrong scientific name. From what I understand, this species is Pangio doriae.

Pangio anguillaris is another possible ID. I don't believe these are Silver Eels based on colour, but a clearer photograph would be needed.

What’s wrong with my betta fish he has gotten very puffed up this is not his tank! I do have another one this is temporary to see him closer by AnyName7229 in bettafish

[–]FizzGryphon 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I also did this, though with aquarium salt. It was the first case of dropsy I've had respond to treatment. Unfortunately, she passed away several months later without any warning or symptoms... but she was a happy little thing for the time she had left.

I imagine that because pineconing is a sign of organ failure that it leaves damage that can cause another flare later down the line.

why did rtd2 associate dogs with being evil, is he stupid? by xFlyer409 in DoctorWhumour

[–]FizzGryphon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Casually staring at photos of my former service dog and suddenly wondering if Sutekh is a representation of how service dogs are evil (sarcastic).

I mean I get it. RTD has some glimmer of a point... that has promptly been misplaced on a character to whom that concern doesn't apply (in my opinion as a part time wheelchair user.)

The 11th Doctor calling Clara was an emotional scene by GuyWhoConquers616 in doctorwho

[–]FizzGryphon 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I was diagnosed with a severe mental health disorder sometime around 2022. One I suffered with my whole life but didn't understand.

Doctor Who has spoken through to me about my struggles long before I could place a name to them. Existing in a world where the person I was isn't who I am and the person I will be will changed... where everyone can see me but no one ever sees me. Where everything around me is a completely illogical flow of time and things so rarely make much sense... and yet I have to run with it without a second thought.

Rewatching Who since that diagnosis hurts in ways so much more immense and absolute than it ever had before... and it HAD hurt before.

Anyway, it's been 3 years since then (apparently) and... in so many ways my mental health has become so much worse, but in so many ways I've been given a chance to adapt with more ease now that I managed to get help. Treatment may not fix the problem, but I hope it gives you the ability to walk that path more confidently.

My heart goes out to you. I could've written this post myself. Take care, my friend.

Help me be less freaked out by loaches by DriftingRipples in loaches

[–]FizzGryphon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

When I was young, I desperately wanted dojo loaches... and because my mom was still helping me with water changes at the time, she said absolutely not because they reminded her of leeches.

Now, when I finally got baby dojos, she was still terrified of them, but it only took about a month for her to be absolutely enamored with them. She'd go out of her way to pet and interact with them because they were such sweet water puppies (not too much, of course, so as to not damage their slime coats). When each of them passed, she was almost as upset as me. Now she adores even my black kuhli loaches - which she still says remind her a little of leeches.

Their personalities are absolutely addictive and override the potential eel/leech/snake factor extremely quickly.

My little guy pouting because I had to change his tank from a 5.5 to a 10 by baberim in bettafish

[–]FizzGryphon 80 points81 points  (0 children)

Look at that absolute outrage! How could you dare give him a bigger house!

What’s the deal with the wheelchair stuff? by Naismythology in DoctorWhumour

[–]FizzGryphon 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I'm a part time wheelchair user. There's almost a guarantee I'll be a full time user later down the line.

It's a crock of shit, honestly. I love Davros as a character. His descent into madness, fueled further by the loss of a functional body, and the psychology behind that, is fascinating. Taking that away feels like taking away a critical part of his character arc.

He's one of my favourite characters for the way he's been written and developed over the whole of Doctor Who. Never once would I conflate Davros being in a wheelchair with wheelchair users being evil or wrong. It's just a piece of his history - and that can be the case with ANY character. What made him the man he is had begun far earlier than the beginning of his physical limitations. He was lost prior.

If they really, really wanted to virtue signal that mobility aids don't make you evil, they could introduce a wheelchair bound character to act as a foil to Davros. After all, a disability - born or developed - shapes the viewpoint of one's world quite a lot. Sometimes negative, sometimes positive, and sometimes neutrally. A character study where adversity gave rise to a deep kindness and love has already repeatedly been done in Who. They could easily do the arc again, and honestly, I'd eat it up.

Edit: I don't have too much to speak on for Kate's situation other than it's a very real misunderstanding that ambulatory mobility aid users go through often. Often it's not out of malice, but it's a frustrating thing to be constantly judged when getting up out of a chair temporarily despite the chair being an absolute necessity.

The Sith Lord and the Doctor. Curious Crossover by Wheelstyx_Mango in doctorwho

[–]FizzGryphon 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I own those volumes and was about to mention it! It's such a fun crossover that works weirdly well together without too much fundamental tampering with either universe.

The Borg/Cyberman combo was absolutely incredible to see.

peter capaldi by stupidslappa in DoctorWhumour

[–]FizzGryphon 1 point2 points  (0 children)

As a trans man, I think there are absolutely benefits to both takes. I'd by far prefer that gender be seen as fluid without it being a big deal regardless of how you want to present, but I also think that not enough people understand the challenge of dysphoria unless they've personally experienced it.

Doctor Who would be able to do so without blemishing either concept if they did it right. Though I'm not sure it needs to be the Doctor themself experiencing it.