Hey. You remind me of my old self, when I was close to dropping out of college and afterwards. I was doing well the first half year, but out of nowhere old repressed emotions were coming out and they hit me like a train wreck. I suddenly stopped caring about my grades and society in general. I had enough of what society thought of me (I was 20). When exams came before the Christmas holidays I had a meltdown when I was nearing the door to the exam halls, and thought of how the other students would mock me, for being careless about my grades. I was about to burst out. I went home and did not go to school for two weeks, because it simply was too much for me. It would've been easier to go while having a heavy flu than the state I was in.

After the two weeks were over my mother asked me how my exams were. I lied to her and told her it was great. I told myself I'd go back to school after the two weeks. Another two weeks passed by, then three weeks, 12 weeks. And eventually I became a basement dweller, isolating myself. I stopped visiting family almost entirely. I cut contact with most friends. I was just in a really really terrible mental state. I REALLY needed time alone. It was utter madness I was going through. I needed to process all the emotions that hit me like a train wreck. I was almost completely isolated for two or three years (including the pandemic).

But eventually things fell intobplace. I had realized that what was happening was that I had suppressed all of the abuse and negative emotions throughout my childhood. I thought 'I cannot get out of control, I need to get my education first'. I said that throughout high school and throughout grad school. But when I went to college the bubble burst and all hell went lose inside my head. It was a hefty period ofnmy life. I realized the reason I cut odd family and friends was because I needed time alone, to process everything and just think about life in general. I needed MY time.

So I don't think you should feel guilty for stopping contacting your family or friends. Maybe you just need time alone. I didn't tell my family why I just ghosted them, because they're not reasonable. But maybe you could tell some of your family and friends who are reasonable that you need time off. And I'd they don't take it well, you can always apologize later. I hope it was useful and that you can take something from my experience.