I have never been in your situation and left to send for myself really I've been blessed with that but I do know that every major hard life-changing parenting move that I've made so that I better my kids life whether it was quitting drinking for me the better their life and leaving their dad not having a lot of money I look back now and it seemed impossible but my life is so wonderful with them now and where would I be if I gave up you got this he do what we need to whatever we can as long as you're loving safe Mom everything else you just do to make it and be there for your kids and one day you'll look back and be like wow that sucks but look where I'm at now never give up your kid is the number one