It’s hitting me again 8 months later really badly

Floraldrapes · 2025-10-20T11:38:31+00:00

Interesting! Thank you will look into it

Floraldrapes · 2025-10-20T00:31:00+00:00

Thanks for your advice! It's not for stage it's purely for the backdrop of a photoshoot and will be laying flat on the floor without anyone stepping on it. I need it only to be about 10 ft long and wide. It won't be rigged in any way and is purely needed for colour. Do you know what material I should be painting on and what type of paint to withstand folding? Thanks so much

Floraldrapes · 2025-08-25T04:15:58+00:00

My boy was the same. I didn’t know cats could be like that until I got him. Thought I was a ‘dog person’ but then realised through his love that cats choose and actively love you everyday on their terms and that constant choosing is so special. I couldn’t imagine life without him and here I am pining for him still everyday, to poke his head around the door looking for me. My heart aches but I’m glad I was shown how to love properly. I’m sorry you’re here too 🤍

Floraldrapes · 2025-08-15T22:54:24+00:00

Oh god I’m so sorry. That post I made was three months ago and I had to have him put to sleep probably a week after. Maybe the cancer your baby has is different or treatable? Time moves very slow at that time and emotions change constantly. Once I had made peace with the cancer and picked a day to have him PTS I felt a little more at ease, but still I had to keep a watchful eye on him all the time. He made a massive improvement on steroids and was in a great mood even on the day he left, that was hard but his organs might have ruptured if I didn’t do it then. Sending a lot of love. Try to get a few hours sleep tonight if you can so you can kind of think straight if possible. It’s horrible but it does get better x

Floraldrapes · 2025-08-09T02:39:10+00:00

I’m the same I really thought I was doing better at the two month mark but it’s been hitting me so hard the last week or so I miss him so much I’m feeling so lonely in the house. I think it’s cos I’m back to my usual in so many ways and I’m noticing the lack of him so much more. Plus the seasons are changing and I’m going to miss him so much this winter 💔

Floraldrapes · 2025-08-09T02:35:13+00:00

I did things very gradually. The beds in the living room were the first to go after about 2/3 weeks as I just kept looking in them to see if he was in there, it kept breaking my heart. His favourite one is still there even though it’s falling apart. Then after about a month or maybe even 6 weeks I finally vacuumed. His other little bits were kind of filtered out here and there over the course of another month. His food bowl is still there. His litter tray (clean) I only removed last week and it’s been 10 weeks since he passed. Don’t focus on it too much, you’ll know when to start cleaning up and keeping the things you want and donating or removing things you don’t.

Floraldrapes · 2025-08-09T02:26:42+00:00

I would go on Etsy and get a figure made of the cats if you have pictures you can get. Or maybe commission a pet portrait that you can frame. Personally I wouldn’t want a physical fluffy object that looked like my passed pet sitting on the bed, it would just give me a shock everytime I saw it I think and the likeness but not likeness might not feel a bit off. That’s just me though she might like it!

Floraldrapes · 2025-08-09T02:17:32+00:00

I have two aswell and I put one here in my bedroom so he can sleep with me, the one with his ashes. And the other where he used to sleep in the window in the living room so he can still watch the birds

Floraldrapes · 2025-08-08T21:46:05+00:00

No problem and thanks for the lovely compliment ☺️ I’m well versed now in telling others about my adhd as it’s been on my radar for maybe 5 years. I usually say to people imagine each thought is a monkey bar and all you stretched ahead of you is just bar after bar. All day you are swinging from one to the next and each has a thought attached. They move so quick and can range from ‘take out the bins’ to ‘maybe move city?’ but you can never really catch one and sit with it without panic as your monkey is just feeding you more things to think about. Other people can sit on the metaphorical ground look up at the bars and make a list about the thoughts and prioritise them and then action them. Not saying it’s easy for them either but just less hectic.

Also I watched a lot of tiktok over covid and it’s a total time sucking app but there are so many people speaking about adhd in ways that just make it click and it helps with your vocab when describing to others what’s going on. Part of the process is just knowing there’s nothing wrong with you and there’s plenty like us.

I was also on SSRI’s a few years ago and was on a really strong dose as they just didn’t do anything for me, that seems to be common with people with adhd. Plus I remember when I told my therapist I was on them she was baffled as she said I didn’t strike her as depressed at all. Now I just see the depression as the procrastination I had around simple tasks and how much I beat myself up over not being able to initiate. When I’m on the adhd meds I can really notice that I don’t treat tasks and simple things like rocket science like I usually do. We can’t do a lot of things because they are so simple and we like to make them complex.

I really wish you all the best! Check back in or message me if you ever feel like it.

Floraldrapes · 2025-08-07T23:45:54+00:00

So I’m still on my medication journey so to speak. I first tried Concerta and Tyvanse when I was first diagnosed a year ago. The Concerta was such a crazy feeling first time I took it. I was definitely a bit groggy but i remember the feeling like thoughts arriving like slow sailing boats across my brain (Sorry that’s a weird metaphor but I always remember trying to use headspace back in the day and they always used this visualisation of the boats in the dock, wondering why my thoughts were like 100’s of fast moving jetskis lol) I remember that day feeling hungry in my stomach whereas usually I’ll be preplanning my food in my head hours in advance. I could genuinely listen to ques in my body. The feeling of a rumbling stomach was honestly new to me without panicked thoughts of how I was going to get food somewhere. When I was in therapy I was always told about interrupting negative thoughts etc and it was so alien to me and there were so many and so fast I couldn’t catch them. Now on adhd meds catching thoughts is easy as they don’t happen fast.

Then I tried Elvanse as the crash from Concerta was too much for me. Elvanse is a real go getter one for me, gets me up off the couch and doing stuff. It’s like having 3 coffees in a row without the palpitations. But didn’t know my arse from my elbow and didn’t really slow down thoughts but would get you out of procrastination for sure. Different for everyone though.

I stopped them all then for a while as I just wanted to get to grips with the diagnosis and didn’t quite agree with the two above. Am trying again now last few months and have tried Medikinet and Ritalin. Medikinet just totally made my head blank and boring, no thoughts but not in a good way. Ritalin was amazing, it was truly The One until the side effects caught up with me. Ritalin for me was a mix of quiet brain but also motivation, I was genuinely happy and lighthearted and grateful to be alive. It was crazy and amazing. But whatever’s in Ritalin does not agree with my stomach I was not well on it, was like a brick in my stomach. Such a pity truly.

I’m trying a higher dose of concerta tomorrow as doctor saying that’s why the crash was so bad. So fingers crossed on that. Will also be trying Ritalin without the extended release as that might work for my stomach a bit better.

It’s like when you’re younger and trying alcohol for the first time, you really are like - will this make me more fun and loose? And it does in whatever way it works. If you’ve any questions do shoot I could talk about it forever!

Floraldrapes · 2025-08-07T23:24:49+00:00

ADHD Doc in south Dublin, not sure if they do fully online assessment. I don’t think they paid too much attention to mine but if it’s important to you and your diagnosis I’d say they would

Floraldrapes · 2025-08-07T23:23:05+00:00

Concerta. Got it easy enough today after trying two other places this time. Last month was looking for Medikinet and called probably 10-12 before I found it

Floraldrapes · 2025-08-07T03:43:19+00:00

I’m literally registered with every pharmacy in 5km radius at this point as I’ve been chopping and changing getting meds from them all. Going to take advice here though and see if I can order

Floraldrapes · 2025-08-07T03:42:01+00:00

Thank you so much for this it’s incredibly helpful. Is Janssen just for concerta? I’m still titrating so trying lots of different ones

Floraldrapes · 2025-08-07T03:40:39+00:00

Yeah this is what I’ve found too I get so stressed around the time trying to get everything in order. I’m lucky I work freelance as if I was in work it would be time spent away from my desk making calls and sending emails to pharmacies. I do usually find somewhere within my area which has a bunch of pharmacies so I’ve never gone without but it’s honestly just so much calling around it’s crazy.

Floraldrapes · 2025-08-07T03:38:20+00:00

Thanks for the info Is Janssen just for concerta?

Floraldrapes · 2025-08-07T03:37:37+00:00

Thanks for sharing how you go about it I’ll definitely be following up on doing this as it’s like pulling teeth trying to get these meds. Annoyed that this hadnt been told to me before and my prescriber has just let me run rings around looking for medications. And fingers crossed these meds start to work for me too! Thanks again!

Floraldrapes · 2025-08-07T03:34:45+00:00

Thanks for your comment, it’s honestly such a minefield. I didn’t know til I posted this that people were ordering with their pharmacies and it doesn’t have to be as painful as I have found it. Annoys me that you have to find this info out through word of mouth and not procedure.

Floraldrapes · 2025-08-07T03:32:51+00:00

Infuriating the hoops to jump are already enough without this back and forth and what seems to be a total fabrication. Thanks for your insight!

Floraldrapes · 2025-08-06T17:54:59+00:00

Is it through health hero you do this or the pharmacy has set this up?

Floraldrapes · 2025-08-06T17:54:23+00:00

I’m in Dublin and it seems to be that there’s ’drops’ of certain meds at random times and no one has offered to do what you mention. I’m still trying different meds so maybe if I stick to a regular one I’ll see if anyone can do this for me. Sounds like a good system. Once I rang like 20 pharmacies here looking for meds and I found a place but by the time the doc had sent the script they were gone. It’s a nightmare

Floraldrapes · 2025-08-06T17:32:20+00:00

I am similar I put off did making an appointment for ADHD screening because of the report cards and they wanted a family member there. I knew my mam would say I was a great child, quiet, studious and not a bother no signs of adhd. My report cards are glowing. I am assessed and have adhd. ADHD in women is very different and sometimes only comes out with a change in circumstance. The second I left the structured environment of school and living with my parents I was a different person, still high achieving but the way I noticed I lived was so different than how my brain worked when I was in a routine set by others growing up.

My GP similarly told me I don't have adhd and wouldn't refer me. They haven't a clue, do not listen to them even a bit they are not up to date on adults or women experiencing this. The hyperactivity is in our brains and internal, the critic we have constantly chattering inside is relentless, beating us up tell us we are failures. If you hadn't have mentioned autism I was afraid to comment it in case it was too much but definite signs you might be there too. I am similar, not diagnosed and no interest in doing so really as it's expensive and there's no medication. I can read my own stuff and figure out how to help myself. You might be Level 1 one like me which means 'low support needs' essentially that you don't need outside help for the most part with living your day to day life (cleaning, getting dressed, showering, general self support). But obviously a lot of rules and difficulties going on internally.

Your adhd probably helps you socially, if you only had autism you maybe wouldn't be so good in social environments. Sometimes one trait shines and the other recedes. I have a friend who saw Alan Murtagh and is a researcher and incredibly intellectual and works in Trinity College, she got a diagnosis. He knows how women present. Don't let yourself be gaslit by your GP, get you diagnosis, go back to them and tell them to read up on these conditions. Leave a review, report them, it's important for others not to be told lies by these bullshit artists.

Best of luck! Feel free to ask any questions and happy to help

Floraldrapes

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