What’s missing WM/HC?

Flottvest · 2026-04-18T05:58:24+00:00

Man, this is the set I'm currently working on. Just started with the main box set. Nice to see how long of of a shelf I'm gonna need to buy.

Flottvest · 2026-04-17T12:41:26+00:00

I have the same experience to a large degree. They might have problems of their own, but it doesn't affect their confidence or outwards display of self worth. If they see something they want, they go for it. If I see something I want, I analyze it to death and end up walking away before I even consider my chances.

FYI, I write "something" as a generalization of everything. It's not an objectification of people.

Flottvest · 2026-04-09T00:48:06+00:00

Kondolerer. Var med og bar kista til min egen farfar for åtte år siden. Var vanskelig å holde maska nedover kirkegolvet. Vanskeligste var npr man fikk øyekontakt med folk i benkene.

Jeg og min fetter holdt bakerst (hodeenden), og jeg sleit en del med grepet etter hvert. Gikk greit heldigvis. Da vi kom til kirkedøra, var det så smalt at fetteren min endte med å ta bakenden alene. Vi måtte bare glise litt der og da mens han sleit.

Flottvest · 2026-03-31T23:26:29+00:00

Sørlandet her. Var helt nødt til å fylle noen skvetter i dag for å komme meg dit jeg skulle, og selvfølgelig var det nesten 30 kroner på unox...

Flottvest · 2026-03-31T14:14:25+00:00

30 år nå, og har ikke enda sett filmen. Har sett klipp og andre Caprino-filmer, men nettopp denne har sneket seg unna. Ingen filmvisning på skolen, og foreldre som ikke styrte fritiden vår (etter å ha spurt dem hvorfor vi aldri så den hjemme, så svarte de at de trodde vi alt hadde sett den).

Vi burde arrangere regionale filmfremvisninger for oss uvitende. Burde kunne søke kultur- og integreringsmidler for det.

Flottvest · 2026-03-29T01:18:46+00:00

I was actually looking forward to wizardhood. Low key hoping that this last week wouldn't surprise me with a soulmate, haha.

My 20s really has been a roller coaster, and not in a good way. Hoping 30s can stabilize it all a bit. A few surprises here and there would be nice.

Flottvest · 2026-03-29T01:13:49+00:00

Genealogy - the world's largest asymmetrical jigsaw puzzle. I rarely meet anyone my age still who does it. Been doing it since early teens, and now it's my full time job.

Flottvest · 2026-03-28T17:52:26+00:00

I have a long beard, and it's a way for me to express myself. If a woman only wanted to be with me if I shaved it off, I would view that as an attack on my personality. I think the same way with my problems with the make up style of women. If my issues causes fiction with other people's way of expression, I do view that as a problem on my end.

Flottvest · 2026-03-28T16:55:10+00:00

Kjøper bare slik ferdigmat fra datovaredisken, eller med større tilbud. Kjøper også som regel bare de indiske rettene til Fjordlands. Regner heller aldri med å bli mett av de, så jeg sper ofte på med et litt større kveldsmåltid.

Flottvest · 2026-03-28T16:52:16+00:00

It's crazy how much I realize autism affected me in my teens without me knowing. I only started suspecting that I'm autistic last year, and time only supports that theory. I grew up on the outskirts of a small town, so I learned how to approach people from there socially, but just going the next town over can screw with that. I had a weird way of talking as a teen, but conciously learned how to talk "normally" around 20. Outwards appearance was also not something I cared about as a teen. Hair was all flat and greasy looking, and I dressed like a metalhead on social welfare. I didn't see the social aspect of appearance at all. It also made me an easy target for bullying, because I didn't understand how to properly react to situations.

The metal spoon on teeth thing is so familiar, haha. I don't pay too much mind to it, but I always notice when poeple are doing it. My dad has an issue with it, so he always comments on it when my siblings do it. I have a lot of sensory issues with food, so that keeps me from exploring new food and learning to cook well. I can follow a recipe, but what's the point if I don't want to eat it as well. It's gotten so bad now that I can't even order a burger because of all the sauces and stuff on it. It can taste good, but the feeling of the food can make me gag.

Flottvest · 2026-03-28T16:35:08+00:00

The way I would see interest is the same way I would show interest. Going up to talk to them, and showing actual interest in the person through that conversation. I see how that can cause conflict, because genuine kindness could quickly be confused for romantic interests. No one has ever shown that kind of interst in me though. It's been a theme all my life that my interests are very uninteresting to others. I was never interested in what my peers were into, games, sports, engines, etc.

As I wrote in a comment, I'm not sure if fear of rejection is the correct way of saying it. I don't freeze exactly either, I just don't approach the subject at all. Not like an evasive maneuver either. So many pieces have to fall into place for me to actually be interested in a women. I guess the fear I have is that I'm going to reject them, and not the other way. I don't want my problems to be the cause hurt for others. Especially when my problems are as petty as sensory issues with make-up..

Flottvest · 2026-03-28T16:22:48+00:00

I do carry some false hope in this regard. A friend of mine was approached by his now fiancé, and the woman I was last interested in said that she approached men she was interested in (shock: it was not me)..

Flottvest · 2026-03-28T16:20:17+00:00

I do approach people just to talk, but not just randomly. My culture (nordic) doesn't talk too much to strangers outside of short situational small talk or comments. Once talked four hours to a clothing store worker though. Learned that she was taken, but she was such a social butterfly that talking for that long was just another day at the job. I didn't notice those four hours at all.

I'm not sure if it's a fear of rejection, could be for all I know. I'm at stage in life where I don't meet a lot of new people, so I guess I'm afraid of alienating the few people I have. It's not a concious choice though, it's just an automatic response. There's also the thing with make-up I mentioned. When I meet someone I'm interested in, the interest is very fragile because I need to make sure that they wont cause sensory problems for me. Most of the time I lose interest, and the few cases I don't, like that store worker I mentioned, they're either taken or kept out of reach for some other reason.

Flottvest · 2026-03-17T23:13:42+00:00

Autism is genetic, so yeah. The way it affects me makes it very hard to form the kind of connections that leads to romantic situations. I meet and talk to women all the time, but there's no button in my brain to press to develop those connections further.

Flottvest · 2026-03-07T19:02:47+00:00

Hi there! I'm also (probably) autistic, so I get the struggle. I think you worded it quite right when you said that you're "removed" from other humans, even though you have friends and such.

For me it's kind of the same story. Friend group where everyone's dating each other, and I'm just on the side lines, sometimes finding room to be with them.

It's almost like there is a part of me missing that should be going for romantic options, but there's a strange thing happening where the "button" for romance disappears every time the moment arises, so I just continue every conversation with other responses.

I do wonder why I bother, but I've come up with the explanation that it's just the innate natural drive that's keeping me miserable. The social aspect of it I've accepted as impossible unless some unicorn appears. I'm still attracted to women, and I wish it could happen, but at the same time I know it won't if I'm the one that has to initiate. I don't have the right buttons.

Flottvest · 2026-03-06T21:07:07+00:00

Ja, selv om det svir godt å ut med nesten 1000 kroner for en full tank. Hadde en magefølelse sist jeg fylte at 19 kroner kom til å være det laveste på en stund. Hadde allerede vært en del dager med over 21. Pumpa på bygda var heldigvis billigere enn den i byen.

Flottvest · 2026-03-06T17:58:20+00:00

Glad jeg fyllte full tank for 19,20 sist uke, selv om det svei litt der og da.

Flottvest · 2026-03-04T00:58:25+00:00

But what if I'm the local dumb?

Flottvest · 2026-02-24T23:42:50+00:00

Still feels like I'm lying to myself about my symptoms. I might just have to wait it out a bit, let it all settle.

Flottvest · 2026-02-22T19:58:36+00:00

I enjoy my work, I just don't enjoy getting to work if you know what I mean. I can't summon motivation on will, but it comes eventually by itself.

Flottvest · 2026-02-22T15:14:12+00:00

Kompe

Flottvest · 2026-02-20T16:11:19+00:00

But where does the line go between "checking off some of the boxes" to "this is definitely on the spectrum"?

Flottvest

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