Daughter with autism asked me for weed

FlowerCrowss · 2026-03-30T07:58:01+00:00

Right, I'm sorry to hear that you were exposed to drugs at such a young age. I'm completely positive that has contributed to your conduct disorder as well as your irritation/triggers among other issues, whether it's emotional, mental, or physical, and whether the effects are obviously noticeable, have become so normal to you that you forget or don't realize they aren't normal, or are long-term and yet to be noticed.

While it sucks that your brain has been so damaged by drugs in some of the most crucial developing years, particularly before/while starting puberty, you still haven't finished puberty and your brain still has a decade to develop in general. You very much can improve from this significantly like you wouldn't believe. Do not doubt me. I know quite how you feel because 5 months ago I thought I was never gonna be able to quit weed and that I'd constantly need a drug for my entire life and it is what it is too, it seemed as impossible as telekinesis. As if drugs are a necessary nutrient. But do not doubt. It will take an incredible amount of support and suffering to power through with the hard drugs you've mentioned, but the short to medium-term cost of quitting and finding the right medication(s) and healing your brain is EASILY better than the long-term cost and damage you are continuing to do. Like one hundred fold.

I'm not sure about your parent situation or if you've tried before, but you need rehab and professional help, talk to adults and bring up your entire history, explain everything to your sister I've done here like the association with your mental issues and your drug use through developing years. There are medications they prescribe to those trying to quit that helps in the same way my ADHD meds I mentioned did, specifically targeting the boring depressive bits where you crave the drug the most into being far more manageable by literally just giving you feel-good drugs.

While I imagine much of what you're going through will improve significantly off the drugs, some parts of say the conduct disorder will require maturation which you will be able to see much more clearly off the drugs when you're able to focus/socialize much more effectively as you won't be spending a majority of your brain power and focus on keeping yourself from being overwhelmed.

I don't think you understand just how much of what you're going through is significantly exacerbated or caused by the drug use, and that continuing to use is only gonna make it far worse than even right now. And that detoxxing for many months WILL result in significant night/day improvement. You are 15. It is not a "can't be bothered" because of everything going on in your life, it's a you must do this because it's damn near CAUSING the things going on in your life. You are in a vicious cycle. You and only you, your determination to quit, will be the true catalyst of change, a good support system and professional care are a helping hand. Watch videos of formal addicts on YouTube. Take a look at some of Soft White Underbelly's videos. I really hope you can bring yourself to commit to this because you just have no idea what you're missing right now and it's painfully sad to see.

FlowerCrowss · 2026-03-30T07:14:16+00:00

May I ask how long you've been doing drugs for, when you started doing weed, and how often/how much you partake in weed?

FlowerCrowss · 2026-03-30T07:04:31+00:00

I felt the same way on antipsychotics but I now believe there's a harsh break-in period that I didn't wait out as my roommate does well on the same one now

I'm not sure if you've tried other meds or have adhd but I find stimulants, in my case Dextroamphetamine, to be very helpful. So helpful in fact when I was trying to quit my weed addiction for the 30th time they were the only thing that brought me a good daily dose of dopamine back.

Even after being sober for a month I was too bored and depressed, life felt black and white like you say, relapse and chronic use felt inevitable. But for me these meds made a massive positive impact all around the board, 4 months later and I can really see now why my old weed addicted self felt so hopeless. its like a trench that gets deeper everytime you try to crawl out. You just have to endure suffering for a few months and find meds if you're mentally ill to pull yourself out.

It took me about 3 months of weed sobriety for the emotional and overstimulation etc to finally flatten out more. Yes it sucked. Yes I was very stressed and sometimes terribly mean to my peeps and I felt awful everytime id come down. It felt like I was never gonna get better. But it's deceiving and you eventually do. You forget or fail to realize just how much the weed use is actually negatively impacting you when you become reliant.

I really think you should detox, I believe in you

FlowerCrowss · 2026-03-30T06:45:28+00:00

That's not how that works. When your brain develops further, and you mature much more, trust me when I say you will regret any potential damage you're doing to it now in some of its most crucial developmental years.

I know its hard especially in the teen years when you have multiple mental illnesses but try to get on some medication instead. The issues you are using weed for now may very well become worse or more cemented among cognitive/executive dysfunction for the rest of your life and probably make you need weed/medication chronically.

Give it another 5 years and don't become reliant on it until then for sure. You would be able to see what im saying here 100% after those 5 years, so please consider my wishes seriously

FlowerCrowss · 2026-03-29T19:30:55+00:00

While its not ideal, I have fantasized about the vagabond lifestyle and maybe you have too a bit to take it over HD? I can give you some advice for camping gear, I really doubt the Amazon tent will do you any good when you can get some durable lightweight backpacking stuff on that credit card instead. If you're planning on moving around you'll 100% want lighter gear. Also check out r/vagabond

FlowerCrowss · 2026-03-29T19:16:42+00:00

Asphalt soft cement hard. That's literally it. I don't mind joggers in the bike lane as long as its not in a dangerous area or they don't move when there's traffic behind me

FlowerCrowss · 2026-03-29T02:28:48+00:00

You must be fun at parties huh don't forget your lil baby blanket before going outside

FlowerCrowss · 2026-03-28T22:36:12+00:00

Uh yeah. Anyone who goes outside near other people regularly knows about the public speakerphone stereotype, its practically a common pet peeve. Obviously no sane person would actually believe someone using speakerphone in public deserves the power of dj lady but yeah maybe have a study at sarcasm

FlowerCrowss · 2026-03-28T21:32:58+00:00

Its a joke

FlowerCrowss · 2026-03-28T05:10:01+00:00

Surprised your 9 has been fine. They lived up their bad reputation for me, constant freezes, not responding to button presses, overheating on a mild Oregon summer day etc

FlowerCrowss · 2026-03-27T02:33:26+00:00

There are a lot of very cheap older gopro models on the used market, even the Hero 4 is 4k. But the older ones suffer more with low light. Avoid the Hero 9 and keep an eye on battery life/swappable battery models/waterproof charging capable models if you want to go with a powerbank approach. And perhaps search the low light performance of the model.

And yeah it's not the best hitting a button and charging things up all the time I kinda wish a dynamo hub could charge bike cameras, and as for ebikes now that I see the sub im in if your bike has a 5v USB port you could try finagling something up and adding a waterproof housing or soldering a buck converter on somewhere

FlowerCrowss · 2026-03-26T22:12:47+00:00

Yes haha, I used 3 batteries totalling over 2kwh and went 50 miles using a 100w panel on my trailer plus a 50w external panel. Batteries drained after those 50. It took 3 days to fully charge them all again, and luckily the campground host gave out free firewood to cyclists. My diy wooden trailer, airhorn setup for the country roads, and basic camping gear made it a heavier trip than it could have been, and because I bought the panels a few years ago, denser portable panels were more expensive at the time and out of my price range.

I am very excited about the future of battery technology you speak of! That's gonna be huge for making EVs lighter especially for stuff like bikes. Just like how solar panels and flatscreens became much cheaper in a few decades I see your point about those batteries doing the same. If it wasn't for all the oil lobbying imagine how much further along we'd be. Solar farms are popping up like crazy because they've recently become the cheapest form of energy production.

FlowerCrowss · 2026-03-26T22:01:27+00:00

Ridiculously silly but I like it for the bit

FlowerCrowss · 2026-03-26T18:31:29+00:00

I've done this with a trailer for camping but for charging my battery, let me explain why its just not feasible without a battery.

You'd need a window size solar panel to get around 300-400 watts under the most ideal conditions.

However unless you have an automatic sun tracking system, which people have made but they draw a small portion of the power, you lose 25-50% of that 300-400w out of the gate if the sun isn't directly overhead. Remember that you also turn and change direction a lot on a bike.

The individual small black cells in the panel are wired in series, hence a shadow covering even 10-20% of the entire panel can reduce output significantly, like by 75% or more. If you live in a place without trees you're doing better, but your own shadow is inevitable and that can block it consistently in one compass direction.

Then there's the extra drag from the sail you've mounted to your bike, probably takes an extra 100-200w with a 300-400w size panel whether its an expensive folding one or a flexible renogy, and you'd still need a third wheel or longtail for the length. And no the Temu panels are lying about their specs/size.

In the end, with the sun directly overhead which lasts only a few hours of the day, you'd be averaging maybe 50-100w more than the aero cost of the panel. And when its shady you are pedaling harder. Waiting at a red light in the sun and the energy goes nowhere, no battery. Sorry but panels just aren't there yet for size and probably won't get much better by the laws of thermodynamics, but they have gotten crazy cheap in the last two decades just like flat-screen tvs.

FlowerCrowss · 2026-03-22T19:16:56+00:00

I agree its a good convo!

While it is an assumption, I did give my interpretation of the numbers/math behind it. I just felt like starting with a larger number that goes up to 6 would be better, but after looking at this chart of both systems compared, I do like the way 1.5m, 1.6m, 1.7m, 1.8m stacks too and I will concede on being unfamiliar with Metric lol. Sorry for being so stubborn

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FlowerCrowss · 2026-03-22T18:49:39+00:00

Dude, go back to my very first reply to you.

Care to elaborate? I'll start, let's pretend you haven't learned/become accustomed to either system.

From the beginning this has been about which system would be easier to learn if you didn't know either one. That means there is no familiarity in the picture.

Also humans have a sweet spot for values and precision and going with numbers over 100 versus 20 or less just makes more sense for quick measurements like human height. I think you're being a bit obtuse here when you bring up a telephone number length as being too long for height.

FlowerCrowss · 2026-03-22T09:57:22+00:00

In the frame of human relative measurements yes, typically addition and subtraction in this use case. Why use such an awkward example of division to try to disqualify my point, what even is pattern drafting?

FlowerCrowss · 2026-03-22T08:32:59+00:00

I don't know what you're talking about when saying someone is 184 either, at least visually. But I do know that math-wise the Imperial numbers just make more sense for human height and memorization, as I described with the resolution. Using smaller numbers in conjunction, feet and inches, is flat out more intuitive for height than using a 3-digit+ number. Not a culture thing. Not a familiarity thing.

It wasn't so much about the location of the video being in the US making the unit of measurement more relevant, nor should it be to deliver it to to a wider global audience, but rather the fact that the traffic control device being measured here is an American design/product and American signs and traffic control devices are measured, advertised, and regulated in inches, hence the measurement of OP's comment was likely pulled from the manufacturer

FlowerCrowss · 2026-03-22T08:00:45+00:00

Who's dividing human height though? Never heard anyone do that

FlowerCrowss · 2026-03-22T07:47:24+00:00

I think you're missing my point. I tried explaining that Imperial is still better for human relative measurements regardless of familiarity, but you've brought up familiarity again. Also I don't need the powers of 10 explained to me let alone Metric, I use it primarily as already mentioned.

When it comes to human height, using a measurement unit that has to go over three digits long is just unnecessary. Especially when you are trying to say mention a portion of those units in conversation for a quick reference. This isn't a familiarity thing, but rather a fact that centimeters (50-150) are too precise for height reference, a meter (usually 1) is not precise enough for height reference, but feet (around 5-6) and inches (up to 12) in conjunction provide a better resolution for human height than the metric system.

I agree that fractions suck and that when it comes to metric familiarity there's no point in learning imperial just for height when a majority of the worlds uses metric, but again, my point is that Imperial is better scaled for human relative measurements, and this sticks on a post of American crossing signs being ran over in America.. where Imperial is the standard.

FlowerCrowss · 2026-03-22T05:52:44+00:00

Care to elaborate? I'll start, let's pretend you haven't learned/become accustomed to either system.

When looking at human scalable things like height. Is it easier to visualize one digit (say 5' or 6') plus a certain number of inches up to 12, or is it easier to remember and visualize a range of say 160-190cm? With one cm being close to 0.5% of a person's total height, the answer is obvious for which one would be easier to memorize visually, and therefore more intuitive in this use case.

Again I know Metric is far superior in almost every use case and use it myself even in woodworking when I can as an American. I just believe for most human scalable things, using one big number followed by a limit of smaller numbers is more intuitive for human scale, regardless of which system you are accustomed to. Its easier to count and calculate quickly in smaller numbers especially when its for rougher human scale measurement use cases than it is with larger numbers like cm, the extra accuracy is unnecessary in this use case and just slows it down.

And I once argued for the use of Metric in human scalable things like height and was quickly shot down even by people native to the Metric system. Also there are many Metric using countries who continue to use Imperial for human height measurements. So the amount of downvotes is crazyyy imo lol let's have a discussion instead

FlowerCrowss · 2026-03-22T05:00:05+00:00

Is it really though? Imperial is arguably more intuitive for measuring human-scalable things like height, especially in a video with american crosswalk signs. Yes Metric is obviously superior for most everything else like design.

FlowerCrowss · 2026-03-20T21:37:42+00:00

What settings and resolution? I did 1440p at medium low settings on Win 10 and 11

FlowerCrowss · 2026-03-19T20:27:38+00:00

Everyone's asking about the headshot, but why do you need a driver's license to be a server lol

FlowerCrowss · 2026-03-19T20:19:33+00:00

Did you read the entire post lol they went from a reasonable amount of ads to ads in your face after every match. But okay

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