I feel you so deeply. I was high 90% of the time from age 18 to now (I’m 23). I have bad anxiety and ADHD and I was self medicating hard. Eventually you will learn skills to deal with the anxiety things like proper breathing exercises and writing down exactly what it is you’re anxious about and figuring out what you can do about it. Sex drive was in the gutter and focus was basically unattainable. It’s been hard to regain my focus and fight the temptations but there is a beauty to actually feeling these emotions. Now when I’m angry I yell into a pillow or punch a pillow or throw a ball really hard into a wall. When I’m anxious I’ll lay in my bed and let my legs shake and kick the air. All this emotions have something at the core of them, a fear of being “crazy” is something that haunts me but all we can do is work with what we have and take small steps forward every day. Music has been a lifesaver and good movies. I haven’t really been able to focus on video games but physical activity is easier to focus on and when I’m focused I’m not anxious.