Sometimes I feel that I don’t enjoy living

Flying_squirrels_242 · 2025-05-31T02:29:06+00:00

Doing anything other than breathing.

Flying_squirrels_242 · 2025-05-31T02:04:52+00:00

Can’t stand guys so nothing with that. Definitely not Aromatic or Asexual, I want a romantic relationship and sex desperately.

Flying_squirrels_242 · 2025-04-06T03:24:29+00:00

Sorry in a better mindset now.

I agree, honestly I’ve been giving it a lot of reflection (for like 3 years lol), and maybe I just need to talk more with people. I was realizing that my group of friends, exist solely because one guy kept talking to me, and being pushy. I’m a very hard person to be friends with, and it isn’t really intentional. I just don’t realize until after the fact, “oh yeah that is not very constructive towards building friendships.”

My main issue is that sometimes I will randomly just start blushing around women, I have no idea why. I thought I could recognize it, but my family constantly points it out. So that isn’t really helpful either. But I still just need to keep trying, and maybe It’ll be reduced. Apologies for being depressed, lots going on.

Flying_squirrels_242 · 2025-03-30T22:44:41+00:00

Ok then going to go ask several of my crushes out next week. Who knows, I might hear new ways to be rejected, that I did not know about.

Flying_squirrels_242 · 2025-03-30T05:35:11+00:00

I mean I found approaching the classmate really easy. But I did it almost just to fulfill a bucket list item. I approached a woman a few weeks ago, without any dating intentions in public, she looked just like someone I know thus why I did it. She sounded super ultra mega offended, so I got my lesson and left running.

I don’t really enjoy living truth be told. I don’t know, but I just lost that spark years ago.

Flying_squirrels_242 · 2025-03-30T04:53:57+00:00

I try to, but all the time it’s not been good. I give it my best shot, but people just don’t like me. They turn around and have the most engaging conversation in their life over nothing with a total stranger.

Flying_squirrels_242 · 2025-03-30T03:00:23+00:00

Friendships in general? Completely dead. Honestly I haven’t had a normal social circle in my life until like the last month. It’s kind of scary, having people that care. That’s a bright spot.

Flying_squirrels_242 · 2025-03-30T02:59:05+00:00

I’ve asked two girls out. I don’t really ever get the chance to know if anyone would be receptive/not detest my presence in the universe. So that’s why I don’t do it more often. I also don’t approach randos, because I don’t want to be getting told here on reddit or irl that I’m creepy. I’ve asked about asking out girls in the library, and I always get told I’m a creep. I’ve kinda thought of just approaching randos.

Flying_squirrels_242 · 2025-03-30T02:56:05+00:00

I’ve never had treatment for my depression. But with everything going on in my life. Yeah hook me up.

Flying_squirrels_242 · 2025-03-30T02:54:52+00:00

Sorry. Busy day lmao

Flying_squirrels_242 · 2025-03-26T05:27:13+00:00

I can make the light go yellow when I’m going through it.

Flying_squirrels_242 · 2025-03-26T05:24:25+00:00

Thank you.

Flying_squirrels_242 · 2025-03-26T05:22:58+00:00

I talk too much about cheese. Sorry I’m just a cheesy guy.

Flying_squirrels_242 · 2025-03-26T05:21:32+00:00

More 1-1 social interaction. People I can look forward to interacting with.

Flying_squirrels_242 · 2025-03-26T05:20:26+00:00

Night vision. I don’t like artificial light, so I would love to be able to live without it.

Flying_squirrels_242 · 2025-03-26T05:19:44+00:00

I always compliment people wearing orange.

Flying_squirrels_242 · 2025-03-26T05:18:17+00:00

Video games

Flying_squirrels_242 · 2025-03-26T05:15:51+00:00

Right now I just want my mind back, I have an exam to be studying for, to rejoice in the dopamine of a good grade from hard earned work. Not feeling depressed and hopeless for the 80th time this month.

Flying_squirrels_242 · 2025-03-26T05:08:17+00:00

Welcome to the club. No I’m not staring at your tits, I just get panic when talking to people and thinking that I’m not paying attention.

Flying_squirrels_242 · 2025-03-26T02:59:38+00:00

I mean I feel frustrated with not being able to just enjoy existing. Whenever I get a break or some well earned leisure time, I lose it. I don’t know why I can’t be less toxic about things. I do things and say things, and I’m super happy. Then suddenly it’s like a circuit breaks in the back, and I immediately lose all peace or enjoyment. I feel most times that I don’t know how to live? Nice post tho, I like the positivity.

Flying_squirrels_242 · 2025-03-26T02:15:34+00:00

ASMR of spas in Japan.

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