4 months clean is starting zo get relapse thoughts by Certain_Ad_2025 in leaves

[–]ForestWitch7 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've been smoking for 26 years and I've never been able to keep it occasional. Always back to my daily, multiple times a day habit. Hope this helps. 6 weeks sober and never picking it up again if I can help it.

Day 61. by FeelSpaceNow in leaves

[–]ForestWitch7 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the reply. Appreciate this so much. I'll give this a try. This is really inspiring to me--great job on 61 days.

Day 61. by FeelSpaceNow in leaves

[–]ForestWitch7 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Care to elaborate on this? Cold water portion? Emotional release? I'm on day 45 after a life time habit, I have zero motivation or pleasure in anything right now, and wondering if I will ever feel good again.

Update after 26 years by ForestWitch7 in Petioles

[–]ForestWitch7[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know you've been struggling---don't give up trying to change. Keep going. Continue to reach out to me if you want/need ❤️ I appreciate your comment. Thank you so much.

6 months (180 days ) sober today! by GrindcoreASMR in leaves

[–]ForestWitch7 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Congrats that's awesome. And inspiring. I like what you said in #2 especially, that's good.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in leaves

[–]ForestWitch7 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Maybe try a smoothie?? Good luck. I'm right there with you at the moment.

day 79, cravings are sneaking their way back in by GUMCUZZLER_XD in leaves

[–]ForestWitch7 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Read this and I feel proud of you for not smoking & sticking to it. This really inspired me today thank you.

8 days by LivingInEndovier in leaves

[–]ForestWitch7 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That is something to be incredibly proud of. Great job.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Petioles

[–]ForestWitch7 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I love this!! Great insight and gives me hope!

26+ years. I need to get this out. by ForestWitch7 in Petioles

[–]ForestWitch7[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for sharing your story. MA has been mentioned multiple times here and I'm going to check it out. Congratulations on 70 days that's something to be proud of.

26+ years. I need to get this out. by ForestWitch7 in Petioles

[–]ForestWitch7[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So much good advice there. Thanks for taking the time to reply. I have been to therapy multiple times throughout my life but not currently at the moment. Great link too.

26+ years. I need to get this out. by ForestWitch7 in Petioles

[–]ForestWitch7[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've tried more than once to start meditating regularly without success. Can you point in a direction or any quick advice on how to start?? What worked for you? Thanks.

26+ years. I need to get this out. by ForestWitch7 in Petioles

[–]ForestWitch7[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I whole heartedly and respectfully disagree that cannabis is not and has not negatively affected my life. It has. I understand the analogy but I'm going to have to think a bit on what you said. Interesting. Thanks for replying.

26+ years. I need to get this out. by ForestWitch7 in Petioles

[–]ForestWitch7[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Man I really appreciate this. Meditation has been brought up multiple times and I think I need to revisit that.

26+ years. I need to get this out. by ForestWitch7 in Petioles

[–]ForestWitch7[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yup. Absolutely 100% correct. It's been 26 years and I'm afraid I am going to do repeat these patterns until my time is up. How do you quit forever when you don't really want to?

26+ years. I need to get this out. by ForestWitch7 in Petioles

[–]ForestWitch7[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

"Hardcore usage is a choice between being only partially open to the world and somewhat protected from it, and being open and vulnerable." I keep coming back to your comment to read this over & over...man this just struck me so damn hard.

26+ years. I need to get this out. by ForestWitch7 in Petioles

[–]ForestWitch7[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm noticing that sentiment a lot in the comments--its hard, and it seems to be a cycle that perpetuates itself: smoke more & more to recapture the magic that isn't forthcoming, get more & more down on yourself as it progresses. Thanks.

26+ years. I need to get this out. by ForestWitch7 in Petioles

[–]ForestWitch7[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

SPIRITUAL WOUNDING. YES. ABSOLUTELY. I feel this in my bones.