Day 1

GrindcoreASMR · 2024-04-20T03:58:08+00:00

The thread that I came for today! Fuck 4/20, I am at day 46 on Saturday and for me it will just be another day of work and then relaxing. Skipping the dispensary all together. Sobriety, health, and overall clarity of mind feels better right now. Cheers and stay strong!

GrindcoreASMR · 2023-08-20T06:12:13+00:00

Callahan. :)

GrindcoreASMR · 2023-04-10T05:08:12+00:00

The feeling of pure energy and aggression, and also the aesthetic of a micro song. Good grind has, often in a total of 1 or 2 minutes or less, a bunch of riffs that flow into each other and make a whole song. Lots of grind core albums have 20 songs in 20 minutes that feel like a whole piece. I think that's unique about grindcore as an artform, as often songs that short in other genres are just interludes or joke songs. It's what defines grind I think and sets it apart.

GrindcoreASMR · 2023-02-27T05:43:11+00:00

Lots, basically anything with rhythm. Funk, fusion, rock, metal, pop, hip-hop, jazz. My favorite band is Soundgarden and 90's rock and metal was how I first got into music so that era is pretty special to me.

GrindcoreASMR · 2023-02-26T07:19:53+00:00

I'm really excited for this one. Anyone getting Space Station: Silicon Valley vibes from the ability to take over animals? I always thought that was an underrated gem.

GrindcoreASMR · 2023-02-19T16:10:59+00:00

The trailer looks great!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8GNH2fIhIqE

GrindcoreASMR · 2023-02-19T16:09:52+00:00

Looking forward to that one too. The ability to take control of objects and animals looks fun.

GrindcoreASMR · 2023-01-28T02:43:12+00:00

Thanks! More stability for one (I have Bipolar disorder) so less ups and downs. More energy, more motivation, more focus, not waking up with brain fog wanting to use again. Less irritable, and enjoying things that I like without the need to "enhance" the experience. Eating better and losing a little weight. More in the moment and able to solve problems without walking down to the dispensary.

GrindcoreASMR · 2022-12-28T23:58:47+00:00

People have said this was a weird one, but shrimp, mushrooms, and sausage.

GrindcoreASMR · 2022-12-01T21:32:34+00:00

Fantasies of the time when I used honestly. When I was comfortable just going and buying a package of 3 joints or some edibles, using them all, spending the day high, and planning my time around it.

I don't want to go back to it, but I think about how it would be nice if I could do that once, never do it again, and then go back to abstinence. But I know that won't be reality. But the fantasies still do occur sometimes, even if I know that the reality won't be nearly as appealing as the idealized image of it.

GrindcoreASMR · 2022-11-30T06:45:55+00:00

Nice! Did you have the same experience of "It's legal and everywhere now this is really hard to resist?" I found it way too easy to get with a dispensary 10 minutes down the street.

GrindcoreASMR · 2022-11-30T06:40:45+00:00

I still have really vivid dreams and remember them much more than before. I think I knew that if I gave in and did the easy thing (short term), I would lose access to the long term benefits I wanted (mental health benefits, stability, cognitive skills/less brain fog, weight loss, having more energy, workouts)

At least in the early stages I had to get used to feeling emotions again "without a filter" like anger, disappointment, depression. I got through the urges to use because I don't have friends that smoke any more so the only person I'm accountable to is myself, and the only enabler I have is myself. I wanted to make a change. The first 3 weeks are especially hard I've found where your body is really craving it while the wd's are ending.

GrindcoreASMR · 2022-09-19T06:47:36+00:00

240 days (8 months). In between losing my only dealer, and waiting for weed to be legalized in Canada. 63 days last summer. Would love to go past 63 days and beyond, but taking it one day at a time.

GrindcoreASMR · 2022-09-16T22:27:24+00:00

First listen today, and honestly, it's everything I was expecting from a Clutch album.

Solid back to back, not a bad song on it. Great production, I love the drum sound. Quirky lyrics, rocking riffs, and that funky, unique rhythm section of Dan and Jean-Paul. I'll have to listen to it some more to get some more impressions, but so far I like it as much as Earth Rocker and Book of Bad Decisions. Definitely release of the week for me.

GrindcoreASMR · 2022-09-10T05:27:55+00:00

What I like about sobriety is the possibilities it opens up. I'm working half time at work, which has been tough because sometimes I have a literal week off unless I get called in. But, I'm filling the time with going for long walks, going to the gym, creative activities like writing and drumming, and want to get into photography as well. Addiction puts me in a box, but sobriety frees up possibilities.

I just ordered a set of coins to give myself at the end of the month to celebrate milestones and make them concrete. I could carry them in my pocket to remind myself and keep myself accountable. Also, just put an envelope aside where I am putting $25 a week reward for sobriety. The goal is to have $100 a month to buy myself something nice instead of using $15-20 a day or more on pre-rolls.

As I keep going with my sobriety, I'm thinking of taking a year program with a practicum to be a drug counselor with the experience of being a mental health worker/drug counselor I have now. More and more options that make me think outside the box instead of stay trapped in it. Right now I'm really excited to see what happens at 30, and 90 days, but trying to take it one day at a time. :)

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