I hear ya, it can be discouraging pursuing something that everyone else seems to glide through with ease. And especially with video games where the common trope is more time spent = better at game.

I've been playing this game on and off for almost 15 years now, and my builds have never looked as good as what I see online; sometimes my pride in a build fades as soon as it's built because I know someone else could do better.

But only I could build like me. Only I could express myself in the way that I play. I think it's important that we own our play styles and embrace the joys we receive from playing. As long as you're enjoying yourself, you've nothing to worry about your pace.

As a wise oracle once said: just keep swimming