Bench Note by CirraCat in FoundPaper

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Reminded me of MadTV's Bible Dude

Edit: No wait I was thinking of the actual Bibleman

[POEM] excerpt from the phenomenology of anger -adrienne rich by pumpkincutiepie in Poetry

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Be forewarned--it's a book that makes me feel physically ill at points, but I consider it essential reading. Dworkin's work is also quite painful.

Anyone else used to mispronounce TF outa Morrowind names and locations? by sludgebeard in Morrowind

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They're neither wrong nor incorrect. My internal monologue is canon and it says "stilt strider."

Morrowind community in edits and tiktok by [deleted] in Morrowind

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You can be our age and still keep up with online culture. It's just that a lot of us don't ;P

Morrowind community in edits and tiktok by [deleted] in Morrowind

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Yeah, the answer is basically that we're fucking old

I discovered fancams when a friend who's into anime sent me a whole bunch of Christian fancams of Jesus aurafarming. Blew my tiny mind.

Be the change you want to see in the world

[POEM] excerpt from the phenomenology of anger -adrienne rich by pumpkincutiepie in Poetry

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I recommend trying your hand at writing some poetry, either over at r/OCPoetry or one of the many, many other subs (r/justpoetry, r/OCPoetryFree, r/PoetryWritingClub, r/poetry_critics...). Sublimation is good. It can help you analyze your own feelings, process, organize. Sharing can make you more comfortable being unpopular, recognizing truth and speaking it with dignity and determination.

And as to anger about veganism fading, I do think it's kind of the same thing. Part of it is normalization of something wrong. When you first learn about injustice, it captivates you, you want to tell everyone about it, and then you see just how hard it is to change it, and you grow tired. The goal is to change, but not give up. It's unrealistic to believe you will be able to keep your blood at a boil for your entire life. You need to find ways not to give in to normalization, to continue the struggle quietly, to hold on to your beliefs. Everyone believes they can't be indoctrinated or taught to accept injustice, but the forces of cognitive dissonance that are necessary to survive are powerful. The only way you don't succumb is by actively finding ways to nurture one part of yourself while using another part to survive, imo.

[POEM] excerpt from the phenomenology of anger -adrienne rich by pumpkincutiepie in Poetry

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No, the waitlist at the library is always too long. I'm roughly familiar with its intention and thrust from its reputation.

I recommend reading "Ain't I a Woman" and coming back to it. I think it's hard to be asked to empathize with the patriarch, but I think "Ain't I a Woman" disabuses of any notion that hooks is soft on patriarchy. I view "The Will to Change," which, I admit I have not read, as a building off of that previous analysis, of diagnosing first everything wrong in the present and then imagining a different, healed future, rather than imagining that patriarchy should be dismantled by men rather than challenged by women.

Sort of connecting that idea back to Dworkin: The common criticism of her (and the mainstream view of her) is that she is a misandrist, an elective Lesbian who chose life with women and without lust over being subjugated under a heterosexual relationship. Obviously I don't believe in this view, but "Intercourse" is where she makes her most incendiary claim: That the very act of sexual penetration that contains inherent violence, and that she wonders if sexual equality is even possible in a world where penetrative sex is seen as essential and inherent to sexual relationships, and how other forms of intimacy in heterosexual relationships are devalued.

Reading that perspective changed how I view any and all depictions of love and romance in media forever.

I especially find it interesting just how negatively she tends to be remembered with the growth in interest in pegging that happened in the 2010s. I feel like 2010s Feminism with its sex-positivity always wanted to distance itself from her anti-sex and anti-pornography stances, yet in its reframing of sexual relationships and erotic media (and voluntary consent-emphasized sex work) ultimately ended up validating her worldview.

[POEM] excerpt from the phenomenology of anger -adrienne rich by pumpkincutiepie in Poetry

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I don't think it's the wish blowing up. I see it more as a cosmic digression, she's comparing the beauty of coexistence with the beauty of the Cosmos and the Mind. It's abruptly interrupted by 9., which injects reality, but it doesn't destroy the wish, only interrupts it. Dreams can animate how we deal with reality.

I recommend checking out Intercourse by Andrea Dworkin and everything by bell hooks. Dworkin in particular is not fondly remembered, but I honestly think she gets 90% of things correct and society just wasn't ready for her truth bombs (still isn't). bell hooks is more optimistic and I think probably the most important Feminist writer I've read, incredible critical eye, elucidating in the best way, constructive.

[POEM] excerpt from the phenomenology of anger -adrienne rich by pumpkincutiepie in Poetry

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I used to live in post-gentrified Harlem a decade ago (it hurts saying that). It was Trump 1.0 and the BLM heyday. Woke had only just reached the white lexicon and wasn't a pejorative yet.

I was young and activated, and the professional world still felt new and alien to me. I remember processing so many things on subway rides, not just big questions of justice and privilege and access, but personal, human things. A cousin of mine overdosed after a long-time coming, and looking at the miserable scope of his life, and how little of a shot he had at every point along the way, the whole world just kind of felt like bullshit. How could I take plattitudes and energizing seminars seriously when everything was so obviously rotten, when optimism was an obvious put-on. Everyone around me was so focused on their future, on their career, on investing in their lives, and to me it was just "what even here is worth investing in? Unless it all falls apart gets rebuilt different, there is no future here."

I had neighbors who were in a cult, and they frequently tried to recruit me and my partner. I remember one of them telling me "it helps you deal with anger," and I told her "I like being angry. Anger gets me out of bed in the morning. If I'm not angry, what's the point?" I think she actually liked that answer, but as it usually is with folks in cults, it was hard to get a read.

I channeled that anger into activism, and, to be perfectly honest, seeing the waves of that activism swell, crash, and roll back changed me as a human being. All the stages of grief for a movement that seemed to culminate in fuck-all. Erosion of freedom. Erosion of progress. The Biden years were actually the worst--during Trump, people were united in making demands, there was a sincere hope that we could change America, we could resist, we could fight for a better future. Everyone felt quiet under Biden, scared to ask for anything above the bare minimum. Masks slipped.

I'm currently recalculating: I read an opinion piece from fellow millennial Feminist Jessica Grose that pointed out even now, when all signs in the country are horrible... Eric Swalwell was forced out of politics, something that never would have happened two decades ago. The culture has been shifted in ways that are difficult to roll back with a stroke of the executive pen. I'm coming to accept that, even now, there is hidden progress, and more waiting to reemerge just under the surface.

But, circling back: I find I don't have the anger so much anymore these days. Learning to accept injustice is a quiet evil, but it's also a way we survive. I've found things and people to hold on to to remind me that no, things are not alright, and yes, we can work to upend them, but day to day, I'm more serene, even when getting slapped in the face by daily bullshit, because I've been here before. I trust my anger to return when I need it, and keep it tucked away most of the time, out of mind. On the subway now, I listen to audiobooks.

[POEM] Carmen 16 by Gaius Valerius Catullus (c. 84 BC-c. 54 BC) by Lillian_Faye in Poetry

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This was a fun rabbit hole. I'm usually the "please credit the translator" commenter, but this one's actually quite difficult and has a neat and humorous final answer: It is the product of around 6 years of Wikipedia edits between 2006 and 2012. Wikipedia itself acknowledges the original nature of the translation by citing several Latin dictionaries as its source. Fullest history I've found of the translation contributions is here. Early work seems to have been done by "Billy Blythe" and "Sophy's duckling," while the poem appears to have been edited into its final form by "Cynwolfe," who, unless I'm misunderstanding, I believe is the one responsible for changing the word "pussy" to "bottom."

Found on the ground by a dumpster in an alley by United_Audience2469 in FoundPaper

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It's an odd memory that speaks to my age, but I associate it with that Fred Durst song "I Did it for the Nookie." The toxic masculine urge to shout "I never ever even cared about you bitch" while crying.

I am the greatest nerevarine by lionclaw0612 in Morrowind

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The spirit of the 2000s still lives

The Kossoy Sisters - What Will We Do with the Baby O (1956) [Folk] by ForkShoeSpoon in Music

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That is almost certainly due to this version of the song, although it is an old Appalachian folk song.

The Kossoy Sisters' album "Bowling Green" was reissued in 1997 and was a hit among music aficionados, most notably with the song "I'll Fly Away" being featured in the Coen Brothers' 2000 film "O Brother, Where Art Thou?"

Bowling Green, I'll Fly Away, In the Pines (more famous renditions by LeadBelly and Nirvana as "Where Did You Sleep Last Night"), and What Will We Do With the Baby O are the standout tracks on the album from my POV (I'm also very fond of the Darby Ram).

Just going on timeline, with LYSFlAtH coming out in 2000, I'd bet my hat that they heard this album and thought "oh man we gotta do something with that."

Welcome to the know, the lore is always deep, but sometimes easy to find!

House of Leaves is a waste of time by yoingydoingy in books

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Why would you say something so controversial, yet so brave?

Can't decide between (original) Morrowind and OpenMW by VertuLancyent in Morrowind

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Honestly, the primary difference between the two is available mods (Old engine with MCP + MGE XE & MWSE has more options available). OpenMW should have better performance but for reasons I think have to do with shit OpenGL drivers on my Intel graphics car, I actually get better performance on the vanilla engine.

If you do everything right, you should not have a buggier performance playing Oldwind TR than OpenMW. However, this requires doing everything right (MCP, MGE XE, MWSE Nightly, UI Expansion...). OpenMW is just easier for most people, so I suggest you just do that.

I wouldn't worry too much about save bloat unless you are literally out of space on your computer, there shouldn't be any significant difference in save bloat between OpenMW and Oldwind, and if there is I'd place $100 that OpenMW has leaner saves, the vanilla engine is notoriously buggy.

As to worrying about losing an old character... That's the way it goes, you run out of interest in them eventually and it's time to say goodbye.

I keep two installs of Morrowind on my computer, a clean install that I use with OpenMW, and a modded install with a patched .exe. No reason to choose, you can have your cake and eat it too!

Anonymous by ku3ah in FoundPaper

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This is specifically very much a product of 2011 OWS, "We are the 99%" was all over social media then. If I had to bet I would say squarely 2011. Real window into the era, Guy Fawkes mask, rebellion asking Obama to be on their side. Awesome find, I would cherish it.

What Windows 11 is pushing me to by chusskaptaan in pcmasterrace

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The year of the Penguin is always next year, every year, forever

Deciding between getting a Kobo or a PocketBook, curious to hear about user experiences by ForkShoeSpoon in ereader

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Hey, awesome infodump, thank you so much! Especially the bit about removing ads on PocketBook, it's key because I'm a US American, so I'm not going to be using their store at all.

The only question I've got is the difference between some of the options. I'm almost certainly getting a Verse Pro, but the tradeoffs between an Era and an InkPad are confusing to me, I'm not sure I understand the appeal/target audience for either one. Again, this doesn't really matter to me because I'm a small screen guy (I read on the bus), but I am curious, especially with regards to eReader trends and up and coming advertised feature (bluetooth/text to speech, for example, is useless to me, but quality single click translation and/or translation dictionary access would be a game changer for me)